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now that I’m thinking about it I think it was moreso based on Dante’s Inferno. I. Hm. If I was a better musician I would do something with this.

hey guys. Guess who just had a dream of an entire mechanisms album that doesn't exist. I didn't know I could do that

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why is ivy so hard to draw

why is Ivy so hard to draw

why does Nastya have Tim’s face sans moustache

why does Tim have Nastya’s bone structure

what is Marius

why am I awake and googling ‘wildflowers of the American southwest’ in order to make sure that Jonny has the prettiest and most accurate flower crown

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its really hard to remember details of it but right before I woke up the tragic ending involved lesbians in a time loop. If I were a better musician I could potentially write down the small handful of notes I remember. There was a side plot about the mechs trying to convince local townspeople that they did not in fact just see one of them come back from the dead.

I think it was based on biblical stories but with a vaguely Victorian gothic aesthetic.

hey guys. Guess who just had a dream of an entire mechanisms album that doesn't exist. I didn't know I could do that

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hey guys. Guess who just had a dream of an entire mechanisms album that doesn't exist. I didn't know I could do that

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WIP

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I COULD FIX HER

Very similar to a previous poll;

You are now dating your favorite character from your favorite movie, how fucked are you?

Very fucked

Hard to tell

Not fucked

Being fucked ;)

Results

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Are you real?

Interesting question. I try to be. Obviously there's a limit to how much of my real self I can comfortably share with strangers online, but I try to be as real as I can be here.

To be honest it's not for the benefit of any audience, as much as it's a kind of self-preservation. Fame of any level is poison to the soul and you have to fight against its effects even when you're only niche-internet famous. People who think you're famous treat you as both more important and less of a person: they treat you like you're incredibly special, but also like you're public property, acting towards you in ways they'd never do to someone they consider "real".

I try not to moan about it too much, as we all do it - it's just part of how our culture conceptualises fame. I do it about people I think of as famous, treating them like they're unreal. But the danger is that if you're not careful you can internalise it and start thinking of yourself as a famous person. And when you start to see yourself as unreal in that way, it kind of drives you mad, and can turn you into a real asshole.

There's no minimum fame level for it to happen, either. I've seen previously lovely people get a hundred fans, decide they're a big deal, and turn into huge dickheads.

The only antidote to the poison I've found is to do your best to stay real, and it's one of the reasons I try to be offline more than I used to, and spend most of my leisure time watching things I don't post about or hanging out with friends whose names none of you will ever know.

So yeah, I think I'm pretty real. I guess I see 'keeping it real' as a sort of spiritual survival strategy, and try to do so as much as possible.

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So I had a hysterectomy today (hooray!) and I brought along my stuffed orca, Shamu, as a comfort object. And everyone i interacted with during my pre-op was like "Oh! Who's this?" so I was telling them all about him, how he's been with me since I was 9 and gone on every single vacation and road trip, and they were telling me about their own stuffed buddies (one lady said she still has hers after 40 years!) and all of this while I was signing consent forms and providing a list of the things I'd brought with me, you know, small talk.

So then a nurse comes over and goes "Okay, I've got some stickers I'll put on your things so we know they're yours" and I'm like "OK cool" so she puts a sticker on my coat and stickers on my bags of clothes and then she turns to Shamu and I'm like "oh I guess he gets a sticker too"

But no. She pulls out a hospital bracelet that's an exact copy of mine and slaps it on his tail, like so:

And i was delighted by this, so I took a picture to send to my friends, who were equally delighted, and were cracking me up with their reactions (like so:)

Anyway, they take me back and put me under, and when I awake groggily a few hours later it takes me a minute to get my bearings, so I don't notice Shamu at first. But then I realize he's tucked up next to me in the gurney, so I grab him, and my hand touches gauze.

And I'm like "huh?" so I look at him and I realize

They gave my fucking orca a hysterectomy

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OH MY GOD I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAD NIGHTMARES ANOUT THE PATTERNS

when i was a kid i felt a deep sense of despair seeing 3D repeating patterns like these because i couldn't help but picture myself trapped in them as an infinite plane with nowhere to go. sometimes i would stare at the ceiling unable to sleep thinking about this. even as a small child i knew this was deeply strange and i never told anyone. but you freaks will relate to anything so

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One of my favorite genres of post

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Things I just learned: apparently on pirate ships a quartermaster outranks the first mate being the real second in comand while the first mate is the third. That's to say Jonny is not only not the captain his actual job on the ship is being Ashes first-hand man/attack dog (Cerberus!Jonny never was so close to cannon in my head).

This also means that Ashes is the one actually in comand wich I mean just makes sense. They clearly can squeme and lead and Hades just showed it.

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Jonny losing it on Earth

Okay, so, the whole "Mechs songs and albums are based on well-known stories and mythos" thing is really cool and all, but imagine in-world Jonny just losing his shit over and over because none of the Earthlings believe him that these things *actually happened*

As in, he keeps getting so pissed about it that every time the band comes up with a new set, he convinces his crewmates to have the debut on Earth, just so he can prove that these are *real, actual events*, but it always backfires xD

Like:

Earthling: You can't have Nicholas II be both the Moon Kaiser and Nastya's dad at the same time, you know?

Jonny: The who now?

Earhtling: Like, make up your mind!

Jonny: Huh??

Earthling: Love the whole set, but where'd ya get the idea to make *Cinderella* gay? That's *so* random.

Jonny: Firstly, Cinders. Her name was Cinders. Secondly, we didn't make her gay?? She just... was???

Earthling: Omg it's so cool how you made the sphynx into a disease for this set! Doctor Oedipus being matched against "the riddle of the sphynx" is such brilliant wordplay!

Jonny: No, it- That was was an *actual disease*. It killed, like, *billions* of people in the City-

Earthling, singing absent-mindedly: Four legs in the morning, two legs in the day...

Jonny: *Billions*!

Earthling: You *do* know that Morgaus and Mordred were two separate people, right?

Jonny: I know he's dead, but can you *not* deadname people?! It's really fucking awful! Even I don't do that, and I'm wanted in most galaxies across many timelines!

Earthling: Damnnn, Odin turning into Jörmungandr is such a neat little twist here, since Thor already had beef with Odin!

Jonny: What in the actual fuck is a Jörmungandr?

Earthling: The snake behemoth in Ragnarok? The serpent that shall poison the sky and boil the sea?

Jonny: Huh. First time I'm hearing of this.

Earthling: You literally wrote the song tho??

Jonny, distracted: Not even mad about this one, not gonna lie. Sounds like a good supplementary title...

Earthling: Also, you know that Cthulhu's *way* more iconic than Yog-Sothoth, right?

Jonny, agitated again: How the fuck do you have *everything* here?!

Bonus:

Earthling: How can a tube sun be 'an orb' of damnation, huh?

Jonny: Why do you people keep bringing this up?! It's what the fucker allegedly said! I wasn't even *on* that planet! We just got the story from Marius and Brian!

Earthling, in a bad Texan accent: Hmm, now that's a plot hole if I ever did see one.

Jonny, barely holding it together: I swear to the fucking outer gods I will *gut* you.

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no wait actually. those balls are weirdly huge.

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oh wow i've been perceived

jonny d'ville is truly the character of all time because i've seen fairly similar amounts of transmasc and transfem headcanons for him. extremely Gender, but we're not sure how.

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autistic guy here: i was put in therapy when i was about 7 because i was really quiet one time and when my dad asked what was wrong I said "the eventual heat death of the universe" so i think this is accurate

Autistic Avatars not realizing that they're Avatars because they're just "like that": a thread

The Eye

Special Interest in the supernatural = constant food for The Watcher

You know about Interest? TELL ME EVERYTHING

"Hey man listen to me infodump about this horrifying ghost story I read for twenty minutes, alright?"

I need to Know everything about something before I partake in it.

"How did I Know that? Eh, I probably hyperfixated on it at some point."

I cannot be misunderstood so I'll beam the facts into your brain.

The Web

I must plan everything 200 steps in advance before doing anything.

I have prepared for all possible outcomes, I can now have this one conversation.

If I set up all these variables long in advance, then I can do everything correctly and Win the social interaction.

I cannot do anything before The Plan says to.

"I practice my social skills by talking to my spider friends." -Martin "Autism" Blackwood

The Stranger

I cannot socialize without being Uncanny.

If my socialization seems like an act, that's because it is. I practice it in the mirror every day.

Theater Kid

How do you Normal Human?

The Anatomy Class.

Assuming fellow Stranger Avatars also just have the 'Tism. They're not trying to be creepy, honest.

Can't do faces. Doesn't notice when you get replaced.

Being subtly off is too subtle for me.

The Lonely

"I have failed the social interaction. Let the fog reclaim me."

Talking to people is draining my batteries even faster than ever. I need to be alone for approximately 384,400,000 years.

Nothing can overstimulate me in the cool, blinding fog.

Nothing unpredictable can happen in the fog.

The fog is your friend.

The known connection between autism and depression feeds the fog.

The Dark

Why is the sun so god damn bright? I'm going to blow it up I swear.

Night Owl.

Everything's decently quite at night and people leave you alone.

Same overstimulation preventatives as the Lonely tbh. Dark and fog are good concealers.

The dawn is your enemy.

The dread florescent lights shall never bother me again. They break upon my arrival.

Can and will infodump to the monster under my bed. Even now it feels like it listens.

The Spiral

Autism makes getting other mental illnesses recognized hard.

Autism dissociation from body and mind. When did it become 3 AM and why do I hurt? Why am I grumpy? What vital self care task did I forget?

Literal mind doesn't often match reality. Reality is specifically unspecific.

Spaced out and wandered off. Where the fuck am I?

I'm not a mental baby, please stop treating me like it.

I'm not inherently dangerous, please stop treating me like it.

Memory problems my beloathed. Did that happen? I dunno.

What Is Time?

What Is Me?

The Gender

Why do things only make sense to me? What does no one else make sense?

The Flesh

Autism Genderfuckery = Flesh fueled dysphoria.

Meat is the only texture that's palatable. Especially the Mystery Meat.

Will never try any other foods. Too picky.

Infodumps about the horrors of meat processing at dinner and ruins the meal for everyone. More steak for me.

Hates PETA.

Double the arms means double the stim. You weren't using them, right?

Working out is a great stim.

The Corruption

Practices social interaction with the bugs who live in my walls.

"Insects are disgusting. I love them!"

Will protect endangered insects by any means necessary.

According to all known laws of aviation-

Relationship boundaries struggles.

Difficulty noticing sickness symptoms.

Is that nausea or am I overstimulated? *Accidentally causes supernatural plague outbreak*

Difficulty getting diseases diagnosed because of both Autism and noticing too many symptoms so the doctors assume they're faking.

Forgot vital hygiene needs.

The Bugs Are My Friends! They keep me company when I'm sick!

The Buried

Weighted blankets are insufficient, I need the Earth to reclaim me.

Avoid social interaction by tunneling everywhere like a mole.

101 facts about worms.

Forgor hygiene again. Time to become dirt.

Digging a hole is good stimming.

That guy who had to be buried alive to sleep properly. What do you mean you don't want to be buried?

The End

Aradia Megido from Homestuck.Com

That's it, that's the list.

The Desolation

The Autism Temper.

Losing relationships and friendships to ableism and your own disability constantly.

The Fire is a wonderful stim board. Watch it crinkle.

Just watching candles melt for hours.

The fire and thrill gives my life passion again.

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The Vast

Accidentally terrifying people by infodumping about the horrors of nature.

The stimulus of falling.

Nature/Space/Weather Documentary on in background always.

Okay, but from how high did you fall? I want to calculate your velocity as you fell through the void.

Weirdly enough... power scaling?

Power scaling is just the art of determining how easily your favorite characters can destroy mankind so... yeah, I can see it.

Brain empty, only terminal velocity.

The Hunt

Cat Autism

The inherent hyperfocus of the hunt. The chase. Your prey.

Studying the habits of your latest hyperfixation/Hunt assigned prey for days at a time.

I've spent so much time hunting in the woods that I forgot about human society. The Missing Person's Bureau have written you off for dead.

Returning to society to sell your wears and realizing you aren't human anymore.

That's okay. Social interaction is random. The Hunt makes sense.

It's black and white. Predator and prey. Humans hunting monsters. It Makes Sense.

The Slaughter

The incredible human WW1 documentary.

"Did you know?" *Describes horrible historic warcrime*

Takes apart puts back together guns from their collection.

The list of known casualties from this war is incomplete. With my help, they can expand it. :)

The Extinction

The world is spiraling towards its end and only you seem to care.

It hurts to be this passionate about a lost cause.

You Will Make Them Care.