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A fallen dream
September 6th, 2022 by Echo
// this is a ramble i wrote when i had a very bad depressive episode about feeling stuck and hopeless in life. still applies now lol //
I’m holding on to a dead dream, a dead passion that doesn’t exist anymore.
The promise I made when I was younger is holding me back, yet it’s supposed to be the one that drives me forward.
It hurts and it's tearing me apart.
I can't let go of the dream because I start getting delusional. I cant let go because I start thinking that maybe it's a sign that I'm not supposed to give up and that it is my destined path and the Universe is guiding me. It's a never-ending cycle.
Younger me told myself that I can't quit no matter what until I reach the goal— the goal I'm not even able to describe. I myself don’t even know what it is but I just know that I’m not supposed to give up...
I wish I could tell my younger self to stop dreaming, stop being delusional, be realistic.
I wish I could erase my memory of that pact I made with myself that I just cant let go of.
I wish i could just let the dream die peacefully, for it to stop trying to feel so alive, stop trying to catch that last breath, to just surrender...
I wish I could stop dreaming on.
I wish I could stop being so hard-headed.
I wish I could restart.
I wish the Universe didn't plant this chimeric dream inside of me.
I wish I didn't have the opportunity to think this way.
I wish I didn't have the opportunity to feel this way.
I wish I could just be simple — a simple, thoughtless creature.
I wish I could just not be so hopeful and dreaming.
I wish I wasn't so ambitious.
I wish my mind wasn't so complicated.
I wish I could forget.
I wish I could let go.
I want to be at peace.
I'll just keep hoping that somewhere out there, in another timeline, everything goes my way.
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