alicesjournalandpoems

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is it sad that the only person who is seeing my content is myself? deeply.

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a sad first chapter

I decided to start writing again and I did something. I think it's shit so far, but I definitely like the idea of it.

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'The sea is where your meaning truly lies"

"The sea is where your meaning truly lies? Are you fucking kidding me, it's like they're not even trying with these anymore," Calla groaned as she crumpled up the piece of paper she pulled out of her fortune.

"You're telling me," Calla's friend Shelby added with a laugh, "Mine just says 'Get a divorce'. What the hell does this even mean, I'm not fucking married!". 

She let out a massive groan as she picked up her tray of panda express to throw out her leftovers as she continued, "When did we get to the point in society where all we have to do is say some cryptic bullshit and it'll come off as deep?".

Calla tried to not snort as she laughed at her friend's fortune in disbelief. They truly weren't trying. When Shelby was done cleaning everything up she just stood there for a while deep in thought. Calla took the time to truly appreciate her friend of five years.

Shelby Schnapp was a Kappa. A less cultured person who saw her wearing a hat could easily mistake her for an anthropomorphic turtle, but the water filled dish on her head is all most people need to see in order to connect the dots. Some days she'll part her hair to the side though, meaning that dish gets covered by her thick, long black hair.

"You're covering your dish again today," Calla pointed out, bringing her finger up near Shelby's forehead. 

Clearly annoyed by the topic being brought up, Shelby opened her mouth to jokingly snip at Calla's finger. Of course Calla hid her finger in the pocket of her jean jacket immediately upon noticing Shelby open her mouth."

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I named him Schrödinger (Schroeder for short)

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if nobody got my back, at least i know the overly horny bots on this app do

[alicesjournalandpoems]

Dear Public Diary,

Yesterday I went to visit my dad after not talking to him for a year, and I hate to say it, but I think he's actually changed. 

On the ride back home from his house he didn't even touch his phone once. Never in all my years has he not been on his phone while driving. Also! When we went out to eat he didn't order any alcohol. 

I'm not saying that I want him to start acting like my dad again, but I'm taking this as a sign that he's ready to start acting more adult. 

The main reason I went to his house in the first place though is for his kittens!!! His girlfriend's cat just gave birth to four adorable babies!! Baby kittens are literally balls of the sun, and they smell so good. Warm, fuzzy, tiny little suns. All of 'em.

His girlfriend said that I get first dibs on who I can adopt, and I'm thinking about getting this goofy little gray guy. He's always burrowing in and out of his siblings, he loves hiding anywhere and everywhere. 

I've been thinking about what I want to name him and so far I'm between Schrödinger, Milky, Valentine, and Bugs. He kind of looks like Bugs Bunny as well which is why I think it would be perfect, but also Schrödinger is absolutely hilarious.

Aside from all the kitten mania I'm being faced with, I've been struggling to find my purpose lately. Ever since I dropped out and started getting my GED I've had nothing to do all day. I feel so gross and lazy and lost. So far all I do all day is play video games and sleep.

I guess now I'm looking for direction, but it's not like life has a compass I can use. Some may argue I should take a job test, and I have! They said I should be a therapist which sucks. No offense to therapists, but I need a job where I can make friends. It's not like I can go out for drinks at the end of the day with my patients. 

So instead of focusing on the career aspect of my life, I'm going to take time to develop some hobbies. Sketching and painting is something I majorly need to skill up in. Asides from that I'm going to start taking trapeze classes. Who knows, I might run away and join the circus. Could be fun!

Thanks for reading this if anyone actually is, I appreciate it.

Peace Out,

Alice  ☆:.｡.o(≧▽≦)o.｡.:☆