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been seeing a lot of trans suicide posts lately and in general. i know its selfish but i wonder if id be remembered. if anybody would post a tribute and say their words. i think its scary knowing the answer is no

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Funniest fandoms are where the fans are like, "I'm obsessed with this. I don't recommend it even slightly."

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It's going to be even harder than ever to watch mediocre fantasy anime after Delicious in Dungeon. How am I supposed to accept extremely mid anime protagonist boys at all after I've known autistic king Laios Touden??

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i just wanted to go through the transgender tag for relatable memes/topics/art and i just see a bunch of seductive trans women. Pleaseeeeee its flooded the tab completely its just of nearly topless or bottomless women pleasessss

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tumblr simulator

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my partner doesn’t use pet names nearly as much as i do, which is very funny because i will crack my gay little knuckles and say some shit like “good morning my sun and moon, my loveliest boy, my baby my sweetheart my darling dearest” and he will reply “hello adrian”

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me when companies say they don't discriminate against disabilities, race and gender but the interview is them literally judging if you're a good fit but they get some 'oh this ones a weirdo' from you so they never call you back even though its just a fucking clothing store in a mall:

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i got professionally diagnosed with autism, adhd and bpd. play the clown music. im just sad. i ruined so many relationships because i was undiagnosed with issues i didnt know how to treat at the rootcore. i got unfairly judged by ND people that were older and had more insight on me than i did.

i was made to feel like a demon, a awful disgusting person, someone who deserved what happened to me, a person who lied about the literal fucking abuse i endured beacuse my abuser convinced my ex that I was just being dramatic and a bad child. jesus.

ive become more of an adult that im proud of, but i cant help but be acutely aware of bullying ive dealt with or unjust behavior. i wasnt a saint, and i wasnt perfect. i made mistakes i can admit but i didnt stop trying to work on myself. and thats the difference nobody cared to point out.

i hoped i had more friends i could turn to, but i turn up empty handed since ive treated past friends with disrespect at times. i regret doing so, very deeply.

still, i don't care how 'problematic' i was when i was, let me reiterate, 12-16 living with my extremely abusive family. i wasnt some manipulative bitch. i wasnt trying to be malicious. i was just angry at the world and emotionally unstable. fuck. fuck. im deleting this later it just sounds like emotional slop I didn't know how to put together to make it more refined. ive wanted to make this post for a week now, thinking about it.

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i need to (remembers that suicide jokes only hurt yourself and those around you) fag it up

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i need to (remembers that suicide jokes only hurt yourself and those around you) fag it up

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i need to (remembers that suicide jokes only hurt yourself and those around you) fag it up

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i need to (remembers that suicide jokes only hurt yourself and those around you) fag it up

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who is even pulling bitches by being autistic the bitches hate my autism

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some of bdubs’ horsies

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wooo lets give it up for my 110 applications with 3 interviews and 2 of them flopped

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thinking about very popular youtubers saying that sometimes when traveling theyll get asked to take a photo FOR people who want to get a family picture, not knowing who they are on the internet space. love it so much i wonder how grounding that experience is for them

same with mr beast getting asked for photos and he asks if theyre mr beast fans and theyre like. no. you're just a very tall white dude. like yeahhhh. we're just some people