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replaying ffix [ i have the big sad, why i haven't been writing . i'll have a lesser sad soon and get back to it ] and something that strikes out to me about dagger is - queen brahne says to herself when she escapes 'perhaps you aren't such a helpless little girl anymore' and in dagger's inner thoughts we see a LOT of self-deprication and that dagger feels like just that - helpless - she has low self-esteem and honestly i firmly believe that came from brahne from before kuja entered the picture. i don't think that kind of... self-dislike comes from nowhere and that her mother calls her something i believe she later calls herself - i think garnet was conditioned to think of herself helpless, either maliciously or out of her parents, be it one or both before her father died, were over-protective of her and stripped autonomy from her in fear they'd lose this adopted daughter since they lost their biological daughter already by unknown causes.

food for thoooooooought.

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Reblog this if your muse has pretty eyes.

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MOONS

A colouring experiment with Kuja.

lineart preview here

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Because it seems like Dawntrail might actually feature IX references.. as we're getting the ARK mount and Zidane & Garnet minions .. I'm pressuring the boyfriend to play IX for the first time before Dawntrail releases.

I was going to wait until the voice mod [ Garnet, Freya, & Beatrix sound soooo good ] came out but gotta get fresh blood into IX.

I was right about VII OG and as much as the boyfriend is protesting a bit due to a bit of outdated combat [ if one doesn't like turn-based games; I think he does .. if it's Persona and just Persona ] he knows I was right that VII OG held a great story. IX does too; chef kiss.

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MELODIES OF LIFE ~ Zidane x Garnet Tribute

Requested by winterune ☆

Credit: @marlenadia

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it's been a while since i played ix though i remember disk 1 still quite well .. i'm waiting for the voice mod to come out to replay it [ garnet sounds incredible ]. but if i recall.. garnet was pretty prone to self deprication, though this was largely intenral than external.

makes me wonder of her childhood with brahne and the king. low self esteem doesn't often come out of nowhere. maybe her upbringing was a contributing factor. maybe it stims from all the all but repressed trauma from the escape from the invincable & having her horn sawed off.

pretty sure she was awake for that. think tot mentioned the child screaming.

ix is such a wholesome game, totally not serious and morbid with those graphics ~

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questions plaguing my mind ;

why is Alexander protecting / resting / immobile to Alexandria Castle? is there a connection between the Alexandros family, Alexander, and Alexandria? was Alexandria formed in some kind of connection or honor of Alexander? what, if any, is the significance of the Alexandros family to Alexander? are the Alexandros family possibly a line of summoners? the horned people were not the only summoners to exist; if i recall correctly there were also a dwarven race that could also summon that died out to extension. and that's not getting into Eidolons existed outside of Gaia as Eidolons connected to Terra exist, taking on a more mechanical appearance

XIV is releasing Ark as a mount for pre-ordering and that pompted me to do just a lot of digging into IX in general and these questions won't get out my mind.

On some level, I do love having definitive answers to lore. I like knowing things. But there are times there is magic and wonder in not knowing. Take Majora's Mask for instance.. it would not be the same game to me and I'm sure much of its cult following if we got answers to every mystery and theory spun from it's whacky and cryptic world.

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Final Fantasy IX

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❛ I want to tell you in this slippery world, you represent for me all that is innocent, everything that is good, unsullied, uncorrupted. ❜

"Is that what you think of me, truly?"

Kuja's mind was not something Garnet understood.. be it by he was a creature unlike any other or in a refusal to extend that olive branch, the result remained the same. His view on her, should she take him at his word was.. not expected.

Whatever innocence she had was corrupted by things this man moved in motion. The manipulation of her mother. The wars that were started and waged between kingdoms that were allies with only death and destruction in its wake. Eidolons were taken from her and used as instruments of terror. How could anyone remain innocent after the horrors she was exposed to?

When Garnet looked at this man what she felt was hatred .. and anger .. on a level she'd never felt with anyone. On a level that scared her.

Her cup of tea is brought to her lips, using it as a quiet moment while she gathered her thoughts. Setting it aside, her hands placed in her lap and her focus once more directs to him. She is not a sixteen year old princess anymore. She is a queen .. and Kuja's presence won't pull her back to a time she felt helpless. With a straightened back, she asks, "What is it about myself that has you thinking of me in those ways?"

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THE TUDORS SEASON TWO SENTENCE STARTER (PART TWO)

s02e06 - s02e10

❛ Will you come to my bed tonight? ❜

❛ You are marrying into a great family. You will do it, whether you like it or not. Do you understand? ❜

❛ Something's going to happen to me. ❜

❛ Don't talk like this. Nothing is going to happen to you. ❜

❛ I'm unable to give a King a son; a son to be the living image of his father. ❜

❛ It's all right. Everything is going to be all right. Please don't cry. I love you. I'll look after you, I swear. ❜

❛ I like you and enjoy your company. But you have a reputation: you gamble and you whore. You sail close to the wind. God forbid it should ever blow you onto the rocks. ❜

❛ I have no doubt what so ever that Your Majesty's reign will always be remembered. ❜

❛ Are you amusing yourself at my expense? ❜

❛ I swear to you it will never happen again. I love you too much. I have no right to ask you to believe me. But it's true. ❜

❛ Is she one of your mistresses? How many do you have? What are their names? ❜

❛ Here's the truth: you must shut your eyes and endure like your betters have done before you. ❜

❛ How can you say that to me? Don't you know that I love you a thousand times more than [name] ever did! ❜

❛ Don't you know that I can drag you down as quickly as I raised you? ❜

❛ This is lucky you have your bed already, madam, because if you did not, I wouldn't give it to you again. ❜

❛ Listen to me. You're the Queen! For the love of God, act like it! ❜

❛ At least seem happy. Not a heap of misery! ❜

❛ It's been tasted. It's not poisonous. ❜

❛ I am not "your dear". I am nobody's "dear!" I am a woman and I demand equal respect for my ideas! ❜

❛ Why are you here? To see the degradation that we have been forced to? ❜

❛ You may kiss me. Then you will leave me alone. Forever. ❜

❛ Anyone can see that the King is not so much in love with her as he used to be. ❜

❛ All this time and you're still in love with her! ❜

❛ Let me look at you. There you are. I have not seen you for so long. An eternity. And here you are! ❜

❛If I had a son, it would bring about a golden world. ❜

❛You ought to be careful, or I will have you cropped at the neck. ❜

❛ I did not bring you up to have opinions or to express them or to quarrel with those closest to the Crown. ❜

❛ I am carrying the King's son. We are on the edge of a golden world! ❜

❛ I'm certainly aware there are some at court who would like to see the queen replaced. ❜

❛ I was married before and I must confess, I rather like the liberty of not being married again. ❜

❛ You have just come from another's bed. No. Do not deny it. ❜

❛ Sometimes, my love, I think that with you I'm already condemned to live in purgatory. ❜

❛ His heart is very weak. I don't know if he will come back to us. ❜

❛ In such a crisis, all could disintegrate. So the centre has to hold, and we must hold it. ❜

❛ You know, I cannot think whether it would be a bad thing or a good thing if he died. ❜

❛ As Lord Protector, you would ipso facto...be King, ❜

❛ Though you are still a young man...you're not as young as you used to be. ❜

❛ I'm so happy you're well. I was so alarmed, so afraid. ❜

❛ It was a mistake to think I could behave like I used to. In any case, those carefree days are gone. ❜

❛ In the future, I won't see you unless your other family members are present. I just had to see you now. ❜

❛ What is this? Just when my belly is doing its business...I find you wenching with Mistress [name]! ❜

❛ You've lost my boy. I cannot speak of it. The loss is too great. ❜

❛ I see now that God will not grant me any male children. ❜

❛ You have no one to blame but yourself for this. ❜

❛ Because the love I bear you is so great...it broke my heart to see you loved others. ❜

❛ It's true what they have whispered. I shut my ears to them, but now I know it to be true. ❜

❛ I will treasure this all my life. And if they ever open my grave, they will find it again, right next to my heart. ❜

❛ You have overreached yourself. Believe me, you have placed yourself in very great danger. ❜

❛ Do you assume I no longer possess the power to crush you? It would be an easy mistake to make. ❜

❛ The king cannot satisfy a woman. He has neither the skill, nor the virility. ❜

❛ We have come so far. No one is going to be allowed to destroy us. No one. Do you understand? ❜

❛ I think we should drink a toast to new beginnings and to new friendships and to a mutually beneficial future. ❜

❛ If your master wants to deal with me, he must first apologize for all his ill treatment of me in the past. ❜

❛ Princes are different from us and are not to be easily understood. ❜

❛ It's come to my notice that some acts of treason and other offenses have been committed by those we loved and trusted. By members of our own court. ❜

❛ I want to tell you in this slippery world, you represent for me all that is innocent, everything that is good, unsullied, uncorrupted. ❜

❛ If anything should happen to me...will you promise to care for my daughter? ❜

❛ Please. For the love you bear our child, have mercy. ❜

❛ After everything we've been to each other. After everything we were. Please. One more chance. ❜

❛ My enemies have poisoned the air with their horrid lies. ❜

❛ I pray God will help me, for there is no truth in these allegations. ❜

❛ Sometimes, in order to defeat evil, one must learn to consort with the devil. ❜

❛ When am I to die? ❜

❛ My lady, I am obliged to tell you that your marriage to the king has been declared null and void. ❜

❛ Tell them to ready the horses. But tell no one of our destination. ❜

❛ I hear you say I will not die before noon. I am sorry for it, for I thought to be dead by that time and past my pain. ❜

❛ Yes, I heard the executioner was very good. And in any case, I have only a little neck. ❜

❛ Have you ever killed someone? What did it feel like? ❜

❛ I would really like to see someone die. Can I go to the execution with you? ❜

❛ I want her dead. I want it over with. Finished. Go and do it or, by God's blood, you will join her. ❜

❛ I swear to you, from tomorrow, everything will be different. We will be young and merry as we used to be. ❜

❛ If you would take my advice for what it's worth find a rich man to marry who is too stupid to know anything about politics. Then perhaps - unless you die in childbirth, which is likely...or the plague, which is almost inevitable - then you will be happy. ❜

❛ Forgive me. It's just that I so much want a new beginning. A renaissance. Sometimes it is hard to be reminded of things. ❜

❛ Tell me, was it all worth it? ❜

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I wonder if Garnet has a little bald spot on her head that her thick hair covers.. where her horn used to be.

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Garnet Til Alexandros XVII

Credit: @marlenadia

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Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from "On Attempting to Clear the Air"

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Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (2003) Costume design by Penny Rose

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Happy 23rd birthday to my favorite FF ♥ Here's a quick update of an old Princess Grenat fanart to celebrate! I will finish the artwork this summer.