albreehyde
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Gabrielle, HongKonger (UTC -5), tired adult. They / them please. I work with books. Mostly queued; please be patient if you've messaged me and I haven't replied yet. The Hong Kong "national security law" is here. If I don't post anything for an extended time, check on me. | I speak English, Cantonese (native) and Mandarin (using traditional Chinese characters). I reply privately, feel free to talk to me / resend messages if they seem to get lost. Multi-fandom. House rules / housekeeping announcements tagged as 'housekeeping'. Header image is Takodana from Star Wars databank. | Warning: People who send pro-communist mainland China propaganda get an automatic block on sight. For the love of everyone, stop being an embarrassment to ethnic Chinese everywhere.
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albreehyde Ā· 3 months ago
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I'm in a sad mood today and I listen to Blossoms all day, so I drew this
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And I hurl myself, I heal myself,Ā I drag myself like a rug in the rain
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albreehyde Ā· 4 months ago
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Man, thereā€™s all these little beats in OFMD S2 1-3 where people keep EXPECTING Stede to be upset or horrified about Edā€™s actions and then heā€™s just. Not. In a way that reminded me of how a lot of fanon kept softening Stede into someone who doesnā€™t swear and is horrified at Ed for setting those ships on fire when imo to my eyes he was horrified for Ed because Ed was still so clearly distressed about it.
- Zheng Yi Sao asks Stede how heā€™s doing now that he knows Ed did horrible things to his crew and thereā€™s this beat and Stede just pivots to, oh yeah, sometimes Ed is troubled. Like it didnā€™t occur to him to be upset on the crewā€™s behalf heā€™s worried about Ed.
- Izzy keeps trying to spare Stedeā€™s feelings and cover up Edā€™s spiral, but Stede clocked what was going on with Ed immediately and wasnā€™t the least bit intimidated or bothered. The knives brought the room together. Of course Edā€™s trying to burn the world down or die trying. Duh. And I genuinely donā€™t think the STUFF in the Revenge mattered even a fraction to Stede as much as the signs of Edā€™s breakdown broke his heart. Itā€™s just STUFF, who cares.
- Lucius had to SPECIFICALLY call out Stede for not being surprised or bothered by what happened to him. What Ed did. Stede has to almost consciously remind himself to express polite concern. He just doesnā€™t actually care, instinctively or automatically, about what happened to Lucius. Part of it is he blames himself more than Ed. Part of it is he just doesnā€™t care, Ed is the priority.
Theyā€™re little blink and youā€™ll miss it pauses in some cases. Micro-expressions. The absence of a reaction. But honestly, I will scream it to the end of time, Stede is not some nonviolent creampuff scared or upset by Edā€™s evil ways. He wants to join Ed in the atrocities. The man ran away to become a pirate. He asked if Lucius was taking notes during a murderous raid.
Stedeā€™s at least a little on some kind of whackadoodle pirate comedy neurodivergence spectrum to the point where he actually really actually struggles to empathize with people, even people he cares about!, if their feelings conflict with his hyperfixation (piracy) and the love of his life (Ed Teach). Heā€™s always, ALWAYS going to pick Ed over Lucius or Izzy or his crew or even his own feelings, if the option is there. He will literally throw himself overboard to get to Edā€™s side. No pause. No consideration of anyone else or even his own safety.
Stede sometimes seems to have to consciously remind himself things like, oh yeah, the crew, I need to see to them. Not because heā€™s heartless or doesnā€™t care, but because it takes a bit of conscious effort for him to see beyond the laser-focused spotlight of what and who he does care most about, he has to remind himself of social niceties and other peopleā€™s feelings (just see him running away in the first place!) when he gets an idea in his head. Itā€™s as if he had to train himself to consciously care about some things other people care about and as a neurodivergent person myself, that felt very familiar in a comedically writ large sort of way. Iā€™d even argue thatā€™s where all his aristocratic social niceties come from. They were his guidebook for how to do things ā€œrightā€ in a world that otherwise made no sense to him outside his hyperfixations. He practiced being a person through the aristocratic training because it was all so foreign to him from the start, including caring, actually caring, about the needs of others. Not because heā€™s consciously evil or consciously a jerk. The instinct just isnā€™t there unless he practices at it until it becomes reflex to ask how others are doing, because on his own his brain just doesnā€™t really notice or care.
I justā€¦ hope the fandom notes and has as much FUN as I do noticing all the little moments where even people inside the story of OFMD expect Stede to act in a normal way and instead he remains unhinged, laser-focused on Ed.
Stedeā€™s not just an Ed apologist, he truly doesnā€™t blame Ed for any of it. He blames only himself. He doesnā€™t always voice this but he really really only cares about anyone else including the crew as a DISTANT second and he has to consciously REMIND himself to do so. He is able to rally to take action, to care about their physical needs like safety during the rescue, but he still struggles, deeply struggles, to remember to show empathy in a non-performative way for anyone except his special person, Ed.
Stedeā€™s not a creampuff, not a nice guy, not some emotionally or morally perfect angel. He has to consciously practice caring about literally anything else but what he wants to do and his special person. And to me thatā€™s a thousand times more interesting than shoving him in a box labeled ā€œthe blond, pacifist do-gooder good guyā€ in their relationship.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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You: October 31st! Halloween!
Me, an intellectual: Ruinmas.
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AKA, here, have some celebratory art. Can you believe it's the second Ruiniversary? Madness.
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Reasons for all the included images under the cut.
Madeleine:
fox, the calling (ruin)
rockrose & thistle, the rockrose and the thistle (horror)
bracken & blossom, blossoms (ruin)
forget me nots, Elsa's song (love run)
(standing) stones, the horror and the wild (horror)
magpies, Madeleine's favourite corvid per Instagram, two for joy
dress inspired by the black chiffon one she wore in Dexys
Joey:
bracken & blossom, blossoms (ruin)
sage, Elsa's song (love run)
crow, Marbles (horror)
(standing) stones, the horror and the wild (horror)
dear heart/deer hart, Joey's name for the fandom (horror)
outfit inspired by the love run bath photoshoot
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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I walked into the river
To wring those embers from my broken heart and broken liver
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But there's more than water in these autumn hands
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@joeybateyofficial
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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I feel like I want to explain to young tumblr users who weren't born yet that MulderxScully was a revolutionary ship. No, it was not queer but that is not the only way to be revolutionary.
In the 90s when The X Files was airing, media was like misogyny soup. Yes, there were exceptions. But casual sexism was so ubiquitous it was like we were all frogs simmering in it and if you dared to say, hey, uh, isn't this joke a little shitty to the wife? Or maybe this female character could do something other than pose and ask questions so the male lead can answer them? Then you were a hairy feminist outcast loser.
Scully was a lot of things but she was not that. All the "You're not going to believe this, Scully!" memes are based on the fact that Mulder, an attractive white dude, wanted nothing more in his entire life than to share his passions with this tiny redhead. Was he nuts? Yes. But on many other shows, he would have talked down to her, would've ignored her, would've mocked her. He didn't.
When you go back and watch The X Files, there's these moments where Mulder and Scully look at each other like, "wait did Jack Black really just say that" and the significance to fan history isn't just the sexual tension. It's that, yeah, and the origin of the word ship, and the 'will-they-won't-they'. But the most important thing about those looks is how they told the audience that Mulder was looking to Scully for something. A man was looking at a woman and asking with his eyes "what do you think about this?" Was he also saying "and do you want to bone about it?" Yeah, yeah he was. But the first thing was sexy as hell.
Respecting a woman's expertise and folding information she provided into his worldview was a revolutionary thing for a man to do on television at the time. Thank you for coming to my MSR ted talk.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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david jenkins is the only one doing historical fiction correctly. absolutely fucking nothing aligns with actual history. thats why its fiction. he is the only one who gets it. everyone can find each other in the middle of the sea with the power of gaydar. roach can jump off the mast and get absolutely OBLITERATED by the side of the boat and be completely fine two hours later. a woman who historically wasnt born until 60 years after the show takes place is here. homophobia doesnā€™t exist. izzy hands was 16 in the year 1717. con oā€™neill is 57. stede bonnet died when he was 30. rhys darby is 49. edward teach was english. taika waititi is from new zealand and makes no attempt to do an english accent. i just think thatā€™s all so amazing. absolutely no one is doing it like DJenks.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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about to drop literally the sickest insider knowledge you will ever receive pls use it responsibly:
are you a teenager? do you wish you had the space & resources & organization to do a thing, whether that's an anime club or a movie night or a big craft workshop or creative writing group or literally whatever? would you like to do your thing totally for free? yes?
okay, then bring it up to a librarian
seriously, teenagers are the absolute hardest group to engage at most libraries & we'll often organize programs that absolutely no one will show up to & it sucks. if you go up to a public librarian & say "hey, some friends & i want to do this thing. does that sound like a feasible teen program for the library?" most people will move heaven & earth to pull it off for you because we know there's an interest in our community. we will go balls to the freaking wall to make it happen
do you want a cosplay contest? a video game tournament? a free escape room? bring it up to the library. it's not a burden or an annoyance at all. it'll be like christmas came early for us
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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We're a team, a group. Group of the two of us.
Bonus:
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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Adult ProTip, from a security professional: If a kid tells you, "My parents are gonna kill me / kick my ass / kick me out" for something relatively minor, don't respond with shit like "Really? ;) that sounds a little extreme, don't you think sweetie?" because that shit really does happen.
Instead, respond as though whatever threat they are afraid of is fully valid, and offer whatever you can do to help- ask if they believe they are in danger of being hurt in any way, and work accordingly.
If they're overreacting, they'll usually realize and dial it back, self-correct and begin thinking a bit more rationally.
If they're not overreacting, and the danger is real, then they'll need a level-headed adult in their corner, not another condescending authority figure who doesn't believe them.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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When that fox howls I'll howl with it/in its cries I'll find an end.
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And a fox somewhere is hiding/that light I thought was blinding brought me here
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And on the banks of that river/I shiver as a fox stands frozen/and I close them, I close them, I close my eyes
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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Aziraphale raising his wing for Crowley hits so different with the S2 context. I feel like we all looked at it as, hereā€™s this sweet little principality, heā€™s kind and naive so heā€™ll shelter even a demonā€”but it wasnā€™t really that, was it? It wasnā€™t just some random act of kindness.
It was a message.
When Crowley slithered up that wall, Aziraphale was nervous. Because he gave his sword to the humans, sureā€”but also perhaps because he was seeing this angel again for the first time since he had fallen. He learns Crawlyā€™s new name (Crowley never asks him for his name, he knows it already) and they have a brief exchange that was probably a lot like the ones they used to have.
Then when the thunder starts, itā€™s Crowley whoā€™s first to move to him, to shuffle hopefully to his side.
I think when Aziraphale lifted his wing up, it was almost a way to say I remember who you are, I remember the kindness you gave me. Iā€™m still here.
He wasnā€™t just playing umbrella. He was letting Crowley know he hadnā€™t been rejected by all of Heaven.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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ummmm heā€™s the man of all time actually. did you guys know that heā€™s courteous and a gentleman and willing to admit his mistakes and he has a powerful magic energy around him that's stronger than any of the other witchers And that he's also the sexiest man alive
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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I've always found it fascinating that in That Unwanted Animal, Madeleine sings "can't you hear that scratching/I ask your eyes?" I also love how digital art means I can make new art and scribble writing all over something without losing the original art.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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YENNEFER OF VENGERBERG & CIRI OF CINTRA The Witcher: Season 3 Volume II
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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Those who are afraid of what you are are dead weight.
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albreehyde Ā· 1 year ago
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THE WITCHER - 308: The Cost of Chaos
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