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He’s been giving me a run for my money this week. And as much as I’d love for his crying to be silenced, I get it. Growing is good, but it’s also so dang hard. Here’s to learning in life together, my child. I know there are big things in store for both of us.

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Plants.  Instagram : @Delamontee 

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Kay Haupt

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keep looking to the window, to the part of the room where The Light pours in. for that is where you’ll be reminded again and again no matter what happens, these shadows cannot hold you. // words by the always inspiring, @morganharpernichols

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He smiles with his little eyes + mama turns into a great big puddle.

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File this one under “life lessons I’m learning”: great days are made by perspective. . There’s work to be done...but I get to do it at home while my baby naps. I’m tired...but I have a yummy iced coffee to enjoy. Jordan works a double every Friday so it doesn’t even feel like the weekend...but I’m endlessly blessed with a hardworking husband. It’s dreary outside...but I get to sit inside and enjoy my “just because” flowers. It’s a great day.

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So, it happens that I have an unwanted pregnancy, about four weeks old and im hardly 23 and my boyfriend is even younger than me and im really not sure what to do. Because he means a lot to me and at some point we want to have children together but i dont have a fix job and he just started his studies at uni and also needs to work beside it. It would just turn everything upside down and we both dont know what to do. And im not sure about abortion caus i think thats a really big thing... Opinion?

I personally believe that from the moment of conception it’s a child known and created by God, and so for myself abortion would never be an option. If you see the fetus growing inside of you as a human life from the start, then I agree, abortion is a big deal. But I don’t want to argue the rights and wrongs of abortion…and I don’t want to try and force my beliefs on you. With that being said here’s my advice: Tell your boyfriend if you haven’t already - he has a right to know and you two can process together. Tell your mom/dad/grandma/whatever trusted adult caregiver figure in your life. They’re going to have a lot of knowledge and wisdom about life in general, but also what it takes to raise a child if that’s what you decide to do. I’m encouraging you to share with those you love most + those who love you most because it doesn’t have to be isolating. Then take time to research your options before making any decision - between job opportunities, community resources, adoption agencies. It will be hard, undoubtedly, but take things one day at a time. You’ll make it though.If you want to talk more off anon, I’m here. ♥️

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I wore a sweater today that I knit with my own two hands…so that was pretty nifty.

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One of my heaviest realities, about losing our baby so early on, is the lack of tangible reminders Marlow left behind. I don’t want forget our child’s existence - and I really don’t want the world to either. We know our hearts and the way Marlow instantly changed them forever, but life continues on and we need to keep living. It’s all too easy for guilt to creep in when laughter roars and we start dreaming for our family’s future again. The rest of my life may just be a juggling act between joyfully treasuring my baby(ies) on earth and guiltlessly remembering/honoring my baby in heaven - but that’s an act I’m happy to keep practicing until my last day. //Anyways, I’ve found it really helpful and healing to make (or have someone else make me) little treasures that daily remind me of the sweet, but all too short, time we got with Marlow. ❤️

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For such a short time I carried you in my womb, but in my heart you will always stay. // On January 17th we lost our second child. My mind is still spinning trying to comprehend it all. I miss the life that was suppose to still be growing inside me…and I think my arms will forever feel a little lost without the opportunity to hold Marlow. Mornings hit the hardest after the night’s amnesiac daze wears away. But then the sun rises, yet again, reminding me of the faithfulness of my God as he mourns this loss with me. // So now when you ever so curiously ask if/when we plan to grow our family, you know why there’s sadness in our eyes as we politely reply “hopefully, soon.”

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Date nights are good, but knowing you get to go home to each other makes them even better.

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