aisforanxious

[aisforanxious]

01:05

Currently listening to this song I used to listen to as an angsty emo teen, thanks to this movie that I watched not so long ago. The nostalgic feeling is coming rushing back to me and honestly, it’s kinda bitter sweet. I had a great day. It consisted of bursting out laughing consistently in public, failing to receive Wifi connection after a while of being on my laptop, watching my downloaded…

[aisforanxious]

22:44

I say that I’m a hater, but here I am listening to this song… 🙃 My day was pretty good; a lot of walking, a lot/bit of sweating and of course, can’t forget my beloved headache/migraine that never seems to leave my side! The sun was beautiful today and seeing all the colours of spring made me feel on the inside too. Never thought I’d be the type to say that I enjoy the sun/spring/summer (yes,…

[aisforanxious]

00:06

I’m currently sat in the dark, listening to this random ass song. The strums of the Guitar makes me melt, I must admit! Isn’t life so funny? How we’re all on our journey to… Well, to life? It’s like a big bowl of Spaghetti. There is no straight line. Atleast for some of us anyway. It’s weird, because you often/always/sometimes believe that your life will turn out a certain way, but things happen…

[aisforanxious]

21:12

Currently have my diva of a niece shoving her left feet into my face whilst I type this and finalise my (online) errand that I had to do, whilst I have some music blasting. Anyways, here I am making yet another post on New Year’s Eve, even though I don’t care for it, but I’m still making a point – LOL. me at me: But jokes aside, I hope you finish this year on a positive note. I for one, have!…

[aisforanxious]

Note: 48

It’s interesting how words can brings back so many memories, so much guilt. It didn’t take that long, did it? 30, 30, 30. Humans love misery, but humans also love wearing masks. Like Alison said, “If you ignore it, it will go away”.

[aisforanxious]

I for Insecure.

“Tick, tick, tick. Like an itch; a fiery ant on my skin. How long left? How many more years? Just one more thing, just one more thing. Nothing. I see nothing, I feel nothing. Creeping up on me, the floor swallows me up. Face your fear. It soon may be, near…”

[aisforanxious]

21:34

Currently listening to an AI cover of a song and goodness me, it is soul warming to say the least… I do, however, think that it is wrong to make an AI cover of someone’s art. And I’m saying this as someone who considers themselves to be a Poet, LOL. But I shall keep this discussion for another day! My day was pretty productive. Did my errands, randomly bought a skincare item (I’ve not done this…

[aisforanxious]

20:27

Currently sat at my desk (gasp!) whilst this YouTube bangs on about his skincare routine in the background lmao. Anyways, how are you? How are the kids? Husband treating you well?? I’ve had a pretty good day with my friend. We did our usual shit; eat, go for a ride on the locomotives (if you didn’t know, I am a locomotive wh*re) and laugh a tonne. I hope you had a great day too and whenever I…

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Note: 47

So hard, and yet so easy. Cut the rope, whilst you still can. Yearning for something that a human is designed to receive, and yet, nothing… Going back and forth, like a tennis ball. Entice me, devise me. When is this supposed to end?

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00:29

I’m currently listening to NMIXX’s latest comeback. Safe to say, it’s pretty… NMIXX-y, haha! But anyways, how are you? How has your day been?? I’ve spent all day today, just chilling out, downloading all sorts of different genre movies and tv shows. It’s kept me busy. Oh! And reading too! Currently reading The Best Friend – so far, so good! I also went out with my parents before for some food,…

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01:08

I’m currently listening to one of the soundtracks from the 500 Days of Summer movie, whilst dealing with a blocked sinus and a stinking headache. How have you been? Well? Not so well?? Is Summer going well for you (Summer as in the weather, not rhe character from 500 Days of Summer, lol). My Summer is currently going to shit. I’m bored shitless, unmotivated to do anything and what not. I have,…

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Note: 46

Avoid, avoid. Oh look, it’s now a void. Maybe one day, maybe someday. Like Naomi said “Everything has it’s time”. Some come, some come. Maybe I’ll sit by and just humm. Some realise sooner, other realise when it is too late. Oh what mess we are. This is just the beginning…

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22:04

Brace yourselves for the typical “Well, 2023 has been” new years post… Currently listening to some music whilst I type this shit up on my laptop in the dark, and I gotta say, it’s lit! #DadJoke This year has been pretty good, I can’t lie. I’ve finally jumped on the train, to go on a journey which hoefully will land me in the perfect destination. Of course, there was some ups and downs (still…

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15:30

I’m currently listening to Paramore – Only exception (but the male version) and it’s pretty… Stimulating to say the least. Isn’t life just so, funny? How we desire or want the things that we want but cannot have. The things we desire, but cannot touch. People on one side of the spectrum want to be able to reach to the other side, whereas those who are on that side of the spectrum live in a world…

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20:53

I’m currently watching Ugly Betty – S1E4, since it is Halloween tonight. Tbh, this show is actually pretty appropriate for this spooky season, I must admit. It’s one of those lighthearted (but SO relatable, if you’re a black sheep of the family; and I understand this show now that I watch it as an adult and not a teen) shows that is easy to watch/digest. p.s this gif is actually from the episode…

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22:40

I’m currently listening Ellie Goulding ft Red Velvet – Close to me. It’s a pretty fucking majestical song if I say so myself, lol. A wise old man once said “Words are powerful”, and guess what? That mother trucker is right!

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21:07

Currently sat at the dining table listening to Paramore – Only Exception (the male version, obvs). Sometimes, I don’t understand what I’ve done wrong. Other times, I do understand what I done wrong. What I don’t get though, is why am I the chosen one? My day was filled with sleep, food, general pissing about and I decided to stick my work laptop on so I could get a head start (back to the…