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Sometimes people ask me 'why did you reblog your own post' and I'll answer that question with another question: why are people not giving me more attention I'm literally so funnyyy

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i went to "mad at me" island expecting to find people i knew, something i understood. but when my boat landed, standing upon the shore were a million empty husks wearing my own face. every foot of the island was occupied, and everywhere i went, they watched me with contempt. they never spoke, never breathed. they simply watched. no matter how i grovelled and begged, snarled and cursed, tried to hide or kicked and hit, they simply stared. the hatred in their gaze was inescapable, but i could hardly return it, knowing that their doomed existence was of my own creation. knowing that the hatred was nobody's but my own. in the end i just wept, unable to stand the relentless gaze of my own infinite glare.

the guy who i accidentally cut off in traffic last week was there also

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The bad bitch fumbler duo

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Teaching him how to use technology and he just immediately does this

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alright listen here.

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rabbits are like if god invented the most huggable animal on earth and then gave it 600 anxiety disorders

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Jon is the type of guy who straight up forgets trespassing is a crime. Mr. "my grandmother threatened to lock me up because the police kept catching my 8 year-old ass in random places." Even before paranoia made him reckless he was getting into shit like the worlds most curiosity motivated cat. Internal compass having motherfucker. Old lady home invader. Discovering that there was a massive tunnel complex under the institute mustve been a little like Evil Christmas to him. Martin has to have looked him dead in the eyes at some point while his trespasser boyfriend tries to tell him its fine to have a peak inside an abandoned taco bell because he "just wants to see whats in there 😐🧍" then suggests they take a shortcut through a hole in some barbed wire fences to pass through an active railyard on their way home.

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why be radically exclusionary abt queerness when you could be radically inclusionary instead. let's inflate the numbers. let's become the majority. the sky's the limit

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Your ass hasn't forgotten about your situationship with ribbit and you want me to believe you wouldn't gaf? LMAOOOO jax you're a bad liar with a very destructive coping mechanism lol

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In episode six of The Amazing Digital Circus — Jax gets too real!

In all seriousness, this was completely fantastic to watch. It was such a good depiction of self destructive behaviors and Michael Kovach was PHENOMENAL.

His instant reaction to pomni hugging him was super telling. He wants to get closer to her, his behaviors show that clearly, but he fears it as well.

His regret after the outburst is also extremely telling.

This did not go as planned. He did not expect to get so close to her and have to push her so suddenly away. He didn’t want to push her away, but felt in this moment that he needed to, at all costs.

As much as he wants everyone to believe his actions were planned, they were IMPULSIVE.

As insistent as he was on telling Pomni that he didn’t care, that it was stupid to think that he might, Pomni was right when she pointed out that Jax wasn’t fighting back. He DID care.

He never hurt Pomni for his own fun at any point in this episode. His actions directly contradict what he’s trying to make Pomni believe. He hurts the others, so she might believe him. But he didn’t want to hurt her. Not anymore. The only time he hurt her on purpose was when he felt like he needed to push her away. But otherwise? He has shown that he doesn’t see her as something to torment. Jax sees Pomni as an equal, a friend.

His words are hollow.

Even his reaction to Ragathas “accusing” him of making friends with Pomni was extreme. Initially his uncaring expression threw Ragatha off, but once she was eliminated you can see that this is the moment Jax realized he was going too far — far past even his own personal boundaries — in forming a bond with Pomni.

Jax was lying the whole time he tried to make Pomni believe he didn’t care. He used all his tricks. Deflected with jokes, brushed off the intensity of the situation, made fun of Pomnis attempts to befriend him, he even tried to make her push him away first with the traitor bit.

Actually, he seems to be obsessed with the whole bit thing, don’t you think? The archetypes.

He thinks that fitting into the role of the circus will help him survive.

As if trying to maintain humanity whilst being deprived of it causes abstraction.

So he picks the perfect role to extract himself of any sort of sincerity or responsibility.

The comedian.

He uses it as a shield even if it damages his relationship with Pomni. And he tries to use Pomni’s humorously chosen role to his advantage, to get her to leave.

Pomni’s prying would humanize him. He would be too open, too vulnerable, too human. He won’t be able to play his role anymore. Or use it to protect his sanity.

If he had nothing beneath his cruel exterior, he wouldn’t have to beg Pomni to stop looking.

Jax knows that if she keeps looking, if she helps him open up, if she pursues his friendship despite his protests, he WILL break, and he WILL show her who he really is. He can’t resist getting close with someone because he — like everybody else — needs a friend.

So he had to make her stop.

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You know what, fuck you *makes your eyeballs feelable*

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sleepies

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day 488

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the world is so beautiful after its freshly rained like oh the leaves are greener the flowers are blooming everything is glistening the wind is cooler even music sounds better maybe this is why i am still alive

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THEYRE SO CUTE