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liminal spaces: the age seventeen. libraries and bars. empty hallways waiting for company. the time between putting on headphones and turning on music. the plate where you sugar french toast. highschool. the space where something becomes meaningful. purgatory. a music studio. quick glances at someone you love. faded jeans. hot water in your coffee. drinking and waiting for the alcohol to kick in. long train rides alone. strawberries being washed. me loving you.

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there is some sort of poetry in growing up. in realizing that school is not forever. in learning one day you will have to make your own choices, buy your own dinner, take care of yourself alone. that these staircases and brief hugs with your mother and sitting on the porch eating ice cream that melts on your tongue are all not permanent. that realizing you will have to choose a career that feels absolute, but I promise you it is not. learning that your first big crush will not always be the one. in seeing friends with broken hearts and broken parents. that the old store you used to get groceries from for your mom is closing down to make way for a pharmacy. that best friends, that any friends are not always forever. that laughter with your brother and leaning on your mother's shoulder and watching as your father turns on the engine of the car are all things normal to you now, but soon they will not be. in learning you have to accept death- not yours necessarily, but your parents'. a friend’s. that growing up hurts, but you'll have to live with that hurt sooner or later. 

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tf are u on i dont make mistakes mistakes make me

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this is your gentle reminder to stop fighting against your adhd and instead structure your life around it

buy a pack of chapsticks and put one in the pocket of all of your coats and jackets because you always forget to bring one and chapped lips is sensory hell

leave important things where you can see them. if they go in a box or a drawer you will forget they exist

put any appointments or deadlines in your phone calendar As Soon As you get them. set a reminder for a week before, a day before, an hour before, as many as you need as often as you need them.

when that little voice in your head says "i dont need to write that down, ill remember it" that is the devil talking!!! write it down anyway!!

plan for down time. have a few hours at the end of every day to just do fun stuff like engage in your hyperfixations. even if you didnt get all of your work done that day, have the rest anyway. you probably spent the whole day beating yourself up for not doing what you Should be doing, so you still need the break.

if you never eat vegetables because its too much effort to chop and cook them, get the frozen or canned shit. it doesnt go off for ages and you just have to microwave it. theres no point buying fresh vegetables if they just keep going off and being left to rot in the bottom of your fridge

if you struggle to decide what to have for dinner every day, take the decision out of it. choose a set of meals and eat those on rotation until you get sick of them, then choose some new ones and do it again.

its not stupid if it works! our brains literally have a chemical deficiency. you are allowed to accommodate yourself. go forth and stop making your life more difficult than it has to be because "this shouldn't be this hard". it is hard, so make it easier.

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*displays textbook symptomatic behavior of my own disorder that I am well educated on* what’s my deal why am I like this

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"adhd isn't a disability"

breaks down over trying to start tasks until he deadline is stupidly close

unable to do basic chores unless it's like 4am and then the whole damn house gets cleaned

speaks too fast

tangent and tangent and tangent. makes social situations hard

literally unable to stop themselves from interrupting people mid sentence (and the constant "*interrupts*- sorry, please continue")

knows what they want to say, cannot find the words, even if it's something basic

auditory processing disorder (pretty common with adhd), like how do you explain that you can hear but your brain has minecraft server lag and the chat will appear soon

hyperfixations, and people thinking they are special interests when they are not (they are short term, literally stops you from basic care like eating and drinking when in) edit: it was brought to my attention this comes across like special interests are easier to live with which is not the case, please do not take that away from this post!!!

impulse purchases making bank accounts cry

all or nothing. not hungry to pain. don't need to pee until pain. you get the picture

cannot sit still, like actually can't, constant moving and shuffling which people think would be cute but actually just pisses people off

doesn't have a fidget toy, not bc they are popular but bc they would have to put it away bc dylan over there got a fidget spinner and has been loudly playing with it (dylan is neurotypical)

cannot do anything if there is something else to do that day, must wait

just stfu it is a disability

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another day another rare moment of much needed focus interrupted by the high maintenance whiny bitch YOU JUST ATE

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one of my more controversial comic opinions is that Helena Bertinelli canonically is the character the fandom thinks Jason Todd is, but unfortunately fanon Batfam stans would rather invent this fiction of Jason's morality and interpersonal relationships than acknowledge the character who actually acts like that and has those relationships

She's friends with Babs, had a close relationship with Tim and semi-regularly teamed up with him, she has the edgy personality and canonical major soft spot for kids and abused women, she uses ranged weaponry, she's a devout Catholic, she's ok with killing people and regularly tells Bruce to fuck off......she's literally everything the fandom seems to want out of Jason lmfao

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he will use every chance he gets to be a drama queen and if he doesnt have one he will create one

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