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is it just me?

what will happen when if I didn’t choose myself? what will I do if people find out about me? what will they think if nothing is possible for you to handle? what will be their reaction if you became nothing.

when will the time came that everything will be okay? when will people act like they don’t give comments to others? when their words won’t hurt our feelings. when will we start a new beginning?

who will you be with whenever I didn’t exist? who will be the one to say "Hi, I'm here"? who will be the one to figure things up? who will you be?

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same place, same person

do you ever just don't get tired of waiting? waiting for the chance to see you again as i capture the sky like a painting but lately some drops of acid rain.

as i lay down on the ground i'm still hoping that you'll come around watching the birds flew and as my mind flow to think of you.

minutes pass the wind blows the grass and you just arrive and my heart became alive

being in the same place reminds me how lucky to have you here as my hearts chase the smile of yours i just can't stop staring at you.

you are the same person that i wanted to spend my time every day watching the sun goes down tells me that fate brings us here.

i'll never forget this day with you i hope that you're okay cause seeing you happy makes me happy too remember i.'m always here for you.

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i always knew that you do the same thing. i miss you so much

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the beach...

this day came i was wondering if what could happen i always remember your name even though you have been left behind

we got arrived with fresh air oh how i wish you could see this a perfect view that leads towards everything you want.

enjoying time with my friends i'm hoping that this day will never end wishing that you could be here sitting in the sand and make cheers

during the night i miss your hug that is so tight the splash of the waves i hear always wishing you're here.

our same favorite view that can relieve from everything which leads me to find you and make sure you're okay.

i hope next time could be the time of us to enjoy and start a new beginning together.

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i always care, remember that

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that night...

as i lay down here in my bed i always remember the night that we met again you were so emotional and down that night with the feelings, you can’t even control it right

as you came to see me all i knew is you feel something because i feel it too as you enter the room, i pull you back it was silent when you got in you pull me in as i put my hand on your waist

you put my hand on your neck as you lift me high with a tight hug i miss that feeling i just don’t want to release myself to you i wish we could be this forever

as our skin touch each other that hug become something else as your lips meet mine i could not resist anymore, i know we miss each other

as you touch me as i comfort you as we feel everything as we touch each other

i wish that night never ended. even if i say that this was the last time i love you with all my soul i’m always here for you

i will always wait for you I will never forget the night that we met again.

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LETTER NO. 111

Dear You,

Hi, I know it’s been a while, I never write again since the last time we get our feeling for each other again. I thought I can handle this situation with my own but I was wrong after all. Last year has been a tough year for the both of us but what happen that time happened. You always said to me that everything that we’ve done stays there, and everything will be alright, but I guess I was wrong again. This past few days, I always see you in the street where we use too, and you seems not okay that time and I can see it in your eyes. I thought to myself that I would forget and move on but I think I really can’t and so do you. Everyday and every night I’m still hoping for that one day that things will be better and you will ended up again to me because no matter what I will always protect you and never hurt your feelings again. Just please let me bring joy to your life. You deserve better than before and I can see it to you that you want and missing that kind of bond of us. No matter what happen I’m always here for you. 

Love, queen write

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LETTER NO. 110

Dear You,

Hi, I’m listening to the Avril Lavigne playlist and it’s kinda good. But, anyways how are you? Belated Happy Birthday but before your birthday I saw you with my friends and I saw you actually looking at me and hey it’s just fine and the afternoon that same day I saw you walking alone and I was afraid to say hi to you or maybe because I’m kinda shy that time. The next day came, it’s your actual birthday and I didn’t even get a chance to greet you because I know that your spending time with your girlfriend and friends and I don’t want to ruin that moment. It’s like every year we grow and we change digit. But anyway I also saw your girlfriend greeting you on her Instagram story and I’m not comfortable at that time I feel I’m sad or happy I don’t know it’s kinda mixed up. Next day came, I saw you again and I have no idea why I keep seeing each other in the same place but never get a chance to say to each other. Then every day I always see you riding a bike with your friends who are my friends too, and I was happy seeing you happy with them. They're also times that I saw you looking at me or making eye contact with me but I was the one who is ignoring or stay off with you.   And then I ask God to give me a sign if this is a sign of having a chance for the both us, I prayed to god if I saw you at the same place again there's a chance. And what do you know I saw you and we looked at each other. But you seem not okay at that time and I was worried because I have this feeling that you're not fine.   The next day came, and I'm pretty sure that I was drunk at that time so I tried to text somebody to pick me up and I didn't even know that I send it on the wrong number.  And that wrong number was yours. It's late when I realized that I send it to you. So I try to contact my friends that I send it to the wrong number. And when I got home I message you and said "Hi, I'm sorry it was a wrong send message" and you said you don't know if what number did I send it to it. And then the next morning when I woke up I explained everything to you that I was drunk that time and and I also knew that you and your girlfriend broke up and I felt bad for that. You know, what is the truth, that I will always be here for you no matter what. Just always be happy it will passed. I'm here, and my feelings will always be same since then.

-Love, Queen Write.

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LETTER NO. 109

Dear You,

I hope you still remember me? Anyways, how are you? Maybe it's kinda weird that I've been writing you letters for a year now, and I know that because you don't have Tumblr and you don't even know me by this name but I know that you know me well me in real life. so here is the thing, I know that it's been 2 years now since the day I met the real you, how you show me the loved that I never had before in my life. Even though you have another one that you can spend your time and feelings with and I know that I'm not part of it anymore and she is my friend too. You know what, it is so hard seeing you around with your girlfriend and also with my friend who is also your best friend, I always felt that what happened maybe because from that day I wasn't ready to take the situation to another level. But on the 2018 summer, I enjoy spending around with you especially when we're dancing that was one moment that I felt again that I was an important person but then again I was wrong. Then there was a time that you texted me if I still using the same number and I said yes, and your we're on the beach that time spending time with your teammates and I know that you were sick. And lastly the day of my 18th birthday I asked you, if why you didn't make it, and the last conversation of it was laughing and I was such an idiot the I didn't respond to that message and lately, I was wondering, what if I respond to that message? What will happen now? Do we still be friends? Maybe this is the time to tell you that I still love you no matter what. Because you are the only one that I feel the same feelings before, and until now you're still the one that I loved. 

I know that you're happy right now with her, and I'm still wishing that if only I can turn back time to make things right but it won't happen. I hope you read this letter one day. If you read this, contact me you know where to find me. 

oh and ps. I always look back at our old conversation.

Okay, bye.

 -Queen Write

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Happy April Fool’s Day

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LETTER NO. 108

Dear You,

Hi, you may not know me by this name but you know me at my real name. But I know you. I’m a closed person to you and I’m a nice person too.

Anyways, I know you're having a rough time because the thing of you and your partner is facing right now has been difficult for both of you. But don't worry I'm just want to tell you something that may help and push you up from this kind of battle. So here it goes. I know you and your partner very well since the day, you've got his surname and he is now willing to let you go and erase his surname to your full name. But I don't know why do men keep cheating to his partner if her partner doesn't do bad or anything at all. Someone says that there not contented, their not happy, they need someone to talk to and others run home to put things properly. And in this situation, your partner has found someone to get his attention that's why he's been cheating on you. I don't want to be involved in your situation but as of now the girl that your husband that is been sleeping with these past weeks is not she wants to look forward to. 

I know that you are great at having a really good and happy family but who knows, maybe one day your husband might bump his head and realize that after all this time he was wrong. And that day will come, don't ever lose hope, I know that your faith is very powerful, and I believe in that. If you need someone to talk to I'm always here you know me really. Always take care, focus on your family, relieve is the answer to all.

-Queen White

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LETTER NO. 107

Dear You,

Hey, sorry if I’m too annoying person to you that I kept reacting on your stories which is such a dumb one for. I now that we’re not really close that much and I don’t know who cares right? This has been my 107 that I made and one of those letters is yours. I know also that you have a girlfriend and I don’t want to ruin your relationship with her. But why the hell that when I see your name I always say that I like you and why you? I have been asking myself for 2 years that I really falling for you again and again and again but you’re just ignoring me this whole time. All I wanted is to someone who will appreciate me and will always there for me to talk to and maybe I was wrong. So I’m sorry, it won’t happen again.

-Queen White

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LETTER NO. 106

Dear You,

Hi, I know it’s kinda boring these past weeks/days because of the quarantine and I’m glad other people stay at there home for them to be safe especially YOU. Anyways, these past few days was a very memorable day for me. I know we're not that closed but who cares right the important detail here is that we communicate with others with the help of your story again and Netflix I guess. I know it ever since that you love watching movies but this one is different, we also both love Sex Education how Maeve and Otis love each other but hell bitch and fucking Issac. Anyways I hope you also love the movies that I suggested to you because you also ask me to suggest some movies so I did. The following day was more kind, we chatted again and I attempt you to drink wine and also told you that I also drink alcohol and it’s always good for me and then it stops because you never open my message again. But I’m beyond happy talking to you, you were a nice and very gentleman and I like it. I hope that it won’t be the last. Stay safe.

-Queen White

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my god i feel you maeve

I messed it up with you.

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LETTER NO. 105

Dear You,

Hey, you seem fine right now. I saw your story on Facebook that you already watched the Tall Girl movie and it was really a good movie. I would like to suggest some other movies that you might want also. I had lots of movies here, don’t be afraid to ask me if what can be the best movie, because for me my favorite movie was Five Feet Apart it was the best movie ever. And hey, I also that you and your girlfriend got back together, and yes, I will always accept the fact that I will never have a place in your life especially in your heart, but don’t worry I will always be here. Just always take care of yourself.

-Queen White