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Please tell me what to do with my body.

I recently got diagnosed with epilepsy and I'm 22. Apparently ive been having seizures my whole life which I've simply not recalled the actual seizure and my stubborn family will wait for a meteor shower before they claim emergency so we've never gone to a hospital at the right time and my mother wasnt a very nice woman so she wouldnt want to say certain things to me or doctors and ive simply been told I'm just nervous my whole life. Recently I've had a lot of stress and anxiety out of nowhere and I had a big bad completely memorable seizure that scared the shit out of me and I felt a little sore afterwards (while I was seizing I was in a lawn chair convulsing inwards with my mouth open and head back) but no one ever asked if I was in amy pain and i was too out of it at the time to really even noticed but after I was discharged I started on a new medication called levitracitam (sub for keppra) an anticonvulsant. As the days passed I noticed some growing back pain that no matter the stretching would only fade a handful of minutes at a time. I felt like a grandma who couldnt bend but i powered thru and ate potassium and good food and stretched and slept for ages then my cat got stuck in a tree and shortly after he ran away and low amd behold I have what I felt like is another seizure except I wasn't shaking like before. My breath fell short and my heart went kooky-bananas and vision all blurry and I felt like I cpuldnt move tho I was alone I couldnt tell you what happened after I closed my eyes. When I came too from my incredibly long nap my back felt terrible chalked it up to my cryostasis. So I stretched amd went outsode and did everything I could to recenter myself and i flash forward I went on a very relaxing vacation with my brother at a retreat for people like me and on our way home we were hit with a family emergency that by a chain of events led us on a walk in a part of town ive never been in the middle of the night to cry out some pain and found a park with a swing set. I was the only one enjoying the swings and my group of sad people took a phone call and walked off without me into the night. I was thinking of a way to slow down fast on a swing on which i couldnt touch the ground and wound up sliding my butt too far to the front of the swing. Naturally at the apex of my swing (on the wind up) I felt unintentional liftoff and panicked grabbing onto the chain hooking my middle fingers inside of the loop and pulling my full body weight down to the ground (and hit the ground like a ton of 206 bricks) I know what youre thinking (go to an urgent care) but the situation is too delicate one of my group is coping with a suicide and I hurt myself fucking around I can wait. I slept that night on her floor and after assesing the family and children I then asked to go to a clinic and they fixed my broken middle fingers with a splint and sent me home quickly and again no one asked if I had any other pain and as I spoke i felt rushed by the nurses and doctors and my pain didnt feel too much worse than my hand so I wasnt worried. Flash forward I got home a got a little medically recreational for the pain and even got a fancy cbd beverage that day for pain in general. This is the day after I got home from my vacation of which i broke my middle fingers and finally slept in my own bed but when I woke my back pain was pretty extreme. It was hard to get out of bed but with some help and stretching my back could operate now my lower back hurts lake crazy and there's and sharp sting that prevents mr of certain movements and just sting in my left lower rib area in general am I paranoid and what should I do about my back pain? Should I see a doctor or ice it out?

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by Ron English

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By: Marta Bevacqua

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Another weekend full of birthday and cake on the coast 🎂🎈❣️ from my ig @yayjords

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courage was named courage even though he was cowardly bc he still did what he had to do despite being scared and that’s true courage

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i read it for the articles 

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