abbysirlwife

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my second favorite thing in Nosferatu (1922) is when it cuts to the "werewolf" and it's a hyena with the saddest gentlest eyes you've ever seen

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a friendly reminder that cinemas give you posters if you ask for them !!! i went to see nosferatu (2024) today and it was sososo good (might do a post on it soon) and i got a massive a2 poster. it now hangs peacefully in my room and it was only £1. literally love it here.

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on pearl, the second film in the horror trilogy X

i literally just wanted to comment on the fact that I see so many posts saying that pearl only tried once and then resorted to killing people. although i understand that this is mostly said out of humour, i just wanted to say that i think it's so much more than that. pearl did not only try once; she only had one oppurtunity. you have to understand that pearl trained and practiced her whole life for an opportunity like that to come up. although it is true that she did have violent tendencies, we also know that she was good at hiding and controlling them prior to being rejected 'that one time'.

i think that people forget that she is from a rural town in the south, in the second world war as a german woman. she probably faced a bunch of discrimination (even in the audition scene when they said she wasn't american enough), and was definitely isolated not only because of the epidemic that had hit her town but because of who she was. so failing at that audition and not being picked wasn't just a fail, it was her one chance out of a life she hated. she had no money, or resources and she was a caregiver to someone who depended on her. it was literally inescapable. harold was supposed to be her way out - he had money, he had resources; but he ultimately refused because he claimed to enjoy the life on the farm. that's why i think that pearl didn't actually want to be famous, she wanted to be a star because it would finally be her way out.

i also think that's why harold didn't leave her. i believe that even when seeing his mother and father-in-law dead and sat at the table, he didn't leave because he felt guilty. he finally realised how he had broken pearl down. in order to get the happy rural family he wanted, pearl had to sacrifice everything. her joy, her hobby, her wonder for the world outside the confines of the farm - he destroyed it all. you see in X even, how pearl is allowed to do what she likes with the protection of harold because that guilt carried on.

continuing, even if (in the future) she had gotten more oppurtunities she would have been too old. she would have been past her prime, which is why she had to kill her sister-in-law. because in that brief moment of not knowing whether or not she had gotten the role, pearl had a chance of being picked again. no matter how small those chances were, she needed to take the risk, because above all else pearl desires the freedom that the life on the road would have provided. she killed her one nightstand because she felt used. just like harold, he had promised her the world only to retract it immediately. even in the past she was constantly rejected by her mother, she was bound to her duties of taking care of her father, and she was trapped in the confines of her marriage.

i don't know, maybe i just relate to her because i also grew up as an immigrant in a rural area that doesn't have many oppurtunities or things to do. but i truly don't think that the scary part of the movie is not the physical violence; i firmly believe that it is the idea that pearl was never and will never escape the place and life she hated.

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i love reader. idc if she’s a bimbo or a crybaby or a little unhinged. good for her tbh. i love her in all shapes and forms. she is barbie. she is a doctor and a student and a barista and she can take five dicks at the same time. what a beautiful world we live in.