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“I thought he was different” babe he’s a man.

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I can’t listen to music right now, all the music I listen to is bringing up memories, not necessarily bad ones but I want to just have a clean slate rn. I want to listen to something new but love it and I want to buy new boots but not suffer the blisters of breaking them in. I want to cut my hair but keep the length. Idk what I want

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Might be entering a new era rn? I cut off a lot of people so I’m kinda back to the start, it’s summer and I’m about to go beg for my job back. I’m gonna start driving again, might cut all my hair off too who knows

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It’s so weird to meet people as an adult who you would have idolised as a child or even when you were like 12-13 and the person I am today is somebody my child self would look at and think “wow they’re cool” maybe a bit scary but still, child me would idolise me rn and how far I’ve come and all the people I surround myself with.

Is this what it means to heal your inner child?

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Actually losing the will rn

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Okay I’m completely rethinking what I want to do in university, my application is already away but I can change it in July but if I change it then that’s my final decision

I really love film and tv, I’ve applied for film studies but I’m thinking it’s a stupid decision now. I know I’ll get the grades for basically anything I want, so it’s not about grades. It’s just now I’m thinking about doing law or criminology instead, or maybe social policy and human welfare. It’s a huge difference from film, but I think it’s a more sensible option. Everybody says doing something like film or art is a waste, maybe it is.

If I do law or politics then It will be easier to get a job and it’ll mean I won’t be jobless and have wasted a degree and be thousands in debt. But idk

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I had this realisation today about something that happened months ago and it’s kinda bothering me now even though I can’t go back in time to change it.

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Booked another tattoo because I felt a little sad

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I’m in a pickle

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Just handed my notice into work, officially in my last week woohoo

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Im getting an arctic monkeys tattoo next week and I’ve fully decided on what I’m getting but I don’t know where to put it on my arms, I already have one tattoo on each arm and plan to get more but idk where to get this😭

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I just failed my driving test and this is such an awful feeling, this might actually motivate me to study now because I can’t cope with failure, if I opened the envelope on results day and seen that I didn’t get into uni I don’t know what I’d do, it would feel like this x100 and I don’t think I’d be able to cope with that.

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What do I do if not post about the secret history, music or teenage girl problems? Okay so today it’s a teenage girl problem.

I really really like this boy, and I’ve been talking to him the past few days. But not “talking” talking, just talking like normal talking. My friends think it’s gonna become something and it’s kinda feeding my delusions 🥲 I don’t want to completely get my hopes up but everything he is doing kinda points to something happening between us but at the same time, what if he doesn’t see it like that? You know? I don’t want to be so excited and like tricked into thinking this will be something when I’m just going to be let down in the future.

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Bro is sending videos? Damn

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Hahahahahhah not me. Not at all

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it’s finally happened again. You know that feeling when you see somebody’s name pop up on your phone, or you see them in work or in school… you hold one conversation with them and you are literally on top of the world.