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First Ketamine infusion experience was rough

Hello I haven’t used this blog for years but I might as well typed out all what happened somewhere.

After a 3 month wait I finally had my first infusion and to put it lightly it didn’t start well. I have a phobia of veins and needles together, that I’ve mostly worked through but I’d never had an IV which I knew was gonna be the hardest part because of my phobia.

And I was exactly correct that part went horrible and they couldn’t get a good vein. My only guess is I didn’t drink enough water the day before because they could not find a vein for the life of me.

Attempt #1 was in my right arm and hurt like hell and failed resulting in me almost passing out. So my doctor looks around more but couldn’t find any so he leaves to get an ultrasound sound

Attempt #2 different doctor comes in to check around while my doctor was getting the ultrasound, the other doctor couldn’t find any good ones so he tries my right hand, which hurt a bunch and didn’t work.

Attempt #3 they do the ultrasound and found a vein right by my armpit tries to do it there, it didn’t hurt but the vein blew out so that didn’t work

Attempt #4 my doctor is looking on the ultrasound in my other arm, and is almost thinking about doing one in my foot (thank god they didn’t) but decided on my left hand the worst shit of my life. The second doctor did it and tbh fuck him he was so mean. It hurt so bad and he kept digging around in my hand with the needle. I was getting extremely dizzy and telling him I need to breathe for a second. It finally works with that attempt and as I go to lay down cause I can tell I’m about to pass out, I do.

Thankfully I was already sitting but I ended up slummed on the wall and hospital bed railing behind me and convulsing until I came to about a minute later. I didn’t know what happened cause I felt like I blinked and next thing I knew my ears were ringing and I was against the wall. Now the staffs freaking out calling my doctor in asking my fiancé if I have a history of seizures. He doesn’t know the answer cause he’s never seen me have them before.

The short answer to that is no I don’t have seizures a lot of times when I pass out I convulse until I come to no longer than a minute or 2 later. which hasn’t happened in a while usually 1 or 2 times a year and it’s only when I pass out. I’ve had it happen a few times over my life when I’ve been super sick or stressed to the point of passing out. My guess is the amount of pain and anxiety going on got to be too much and caused it.

But now they’ve put a hold on my next 2 treatments until they can talk with me so see if the infusion actually gave me any pain relief and why that happened as I couldn’t tell them in the moment cause by the time I put my words in a sentence the infusion had already started and I was asleep again.

The rest of the infusion went pretty smoothly and I don’t remember much cause I was out of it or even much after until I woke up at home. My fiancé stayed with me the whole time and said I was saying weird things and kept asking if the IV was in because I was conscious for about a minute after waking up from passing out before they started the infusion.

With all that it did give me a lot of pain relief which is something I haven’t felt in so long so I want to continue with the treatment and I’m hoping they’ll let me I just really hope I don’t get the same doctor that did the iv because I feel like a lot of the issues could have been avoiding if he hadn’t stepped in.

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fibro thoughts 1#

i wish you could see the exhausting i’m going through

the pain and strength it takes to pull myself out of bed

no matter if its 8 hours sleep or 11 it feels like 3.

i’m so exhausted and i wish others could see it

i wish i didn’t feel lazy for the being chronically ill

logically i know i’m not, but so many make me like i am.

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so we’re watching shrek because it’s wednesday my dudes and we have taste and when they get to duloc there’s a sign that says “you’re parked in ‘lancelot’” but (!) as we all know it’s established in shrek the third that the arthurian legend hasn’t even occurred yet in the scu (shrek cinematic universe) as arthur and his knights (including lancelot) are still in high school so @dreamworksanimation

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tumblr two days ago: we’re going to remove all forms of nsfw from the website and from the words of our ceo, if you dont like it, fuck you. also fuck sex workers and artists and also if you’re a woman no nipples

tumblr yesterday: also our new bot is going to do the work for us and make literally everything flagged nsfw

tumblr today: also now your posts won’t show on your blog

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okay im going through the rules and stuff on matsodon rn and

sexworkers are good here as long as what they post is tagged. the gore thing is :// but like the person said sexworkers are supported here.

all of this. all of this is hot as hell. 

they actually have specific rules disallowing pedophiles and nazis+the terfs from the last screenshot.

dogpiling and harrassment and stalking is listed as a no go thank fucking god??

there is not one specific staff account as each member of staff has their own thing so it’d be most likely easier to get in touch with them

and the best part

a peek at the list of blocked domains?

ive legit been on this site for ten minutes and i feel safer on this site than ive ever been on tumblr. again im not like, leaving tumblr but this place is nice as hell.

the site itself is https://mastodon.social/  and im @extinction on there lets get this bread in a safe and orderly manner gays

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Well, at least we still have Mario-presenting nipples

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Marks and Rec: Misc #1493

(Got me there.) (If this gets flagged I’m going to lose my shiz.)

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written nsfw is still allowed because its a proven fact that no one on this site can read

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I’m making bread

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Results so far

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Please don’t fucking log off tumblr on the 17th as a protest. All that’s going to do is give tumblr more reason to shut this place down because of revenue loss.

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when a deadline is looming but the stress still isn’t enough to motivate you into doing something:

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It’s October! You know what that means... 🎃 (via kxvo)

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if you arent someone the church wanted dead 300 years ago are you really living

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here’s some cat beans