3dkaykay

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binged !! KILL ME

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How will I be able to romanticize school if I'm not at my ugw???

[3dkaykay]

Gym bros 🤝 ed girls

This is the same mentality as wanting to get kidnapped so you can starve and drop 20 lbs

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To the ana girls who think they're better cuz they are skinny:

You are not kate moss, bella hadid, or the next-it girl. This isn't "Mean Girls", this is real life. You don't get to bully fat people cuz you're skinny. No, you're not being 'real' you're being a loser.

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weightloss is slowww lately. needa stop eating oml

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pov my nightmares

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i can’t wait for school but i’m also scared i won’t lose enough weight before it starts 😭😭

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If it tastes good, it’s trying to kill you. Calories CAN NOT make you happy.

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how i force myself to fall in love with my ed

-reaching my gw won’t automatically make me attractive so i spend time & money i could be using on food to improving my physical appearance instead. Nothing extra i buy that mascara to make my lashes look better or that concealer to even skin tone. i wash my face, brush my teeth & moisturize. changed my hairstyle to something trendy but fitting. buy a piece of clothing i feel good in every once in a while.

-reward myself for every milestone & not with food but something i want desperately no matter how big or small, cheap or expensive.

-got a gym/exercise buddy. i don’t want to be seen slacking by someone else it’s embarrassing. i don’t want them to think im lazy.

-surround myself with unsuspecting people usually i’m more likely to have some class & not be seen stuffing my face in public.

-subtly let a few people know im “dieting” imagine how shameful it’ll be the next time they see me & i haven’t changed one bit.

-update my blog everyday with every bit of information regarding my diet & exercise. stay consistent or embarrass myself for days on end in front of others.

-Im so desperate for a treat? I can omad it if I walk to the store & get it. and I can only have one & don’t get ahead of myself. better that one treat than a full on binge later.

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got some gum finallyyyy

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Ed tumblr is like a cozy blanket that I can wrap myself in.

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thinking about doing a workout program or something before school too?? i have a little over two weeks left

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getting my school stuff ready and begging for it to come faster :))

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got 7.7k steps so far + omading + drinking helllllaaaaaa water rn

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been so off track recently and my deficit for the past two days is so low i’ma kms. i need to fix this before my routine gets fucked and i have to restart AGAIN. god.

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if i don’t get my shit together by tomorrow i’m gonna cry

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i have a bad habit of staring at skinny girls in public like they’re th1nsp0 😭