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Need to tattoo this one on my eyelids

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misha auctioning off a bunch of stuff and stripping

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I’m so normal about this

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Must-read Destiel fics - my superduper Nov. 5th rec list

Three years ago, on the blessed day of November 5th, 2020, I had:

never seen an episode of SPN,

only had a vague inkling of what the two pale coconuts were on about,

and I hee-heed and ha-had with the rest of Tumblr about the love confession scene and the Internet errupting in an unparalleled craze

At first I thought, that's it.

Then ... I got curious. I watched some YouTube Destiel supercuts. I read some fic (I think @andhumanslovedstories beautiful Cas/OC fic was my entry point?). I read meta. I watched some more YouTube scene packs. I read even more fic. I watched some of S4, some of S1, some random fan fav episodes. And then Destiel lodged itself so deeply, thouroughly into my brain that it took over and hasn't relinquished control in the last two years. The most tenacious, pervasive brain worm to date.

This ship got it all, and this fandom got it all, and there's such delightful, powerful, batshit crazy, romantic, expertedly crafted fanfic out there, it's like being a starving child in the world's biggest candystore.

So without further ado, here's some of my very favorite fics from this infinite trove, with all my thanks to the wonderful writers who keep delighting and awing me with their dedication and craft. There'll of course be some recency bias at play but you can browse my bookmarks over here to chose from over 100 excellent and well-curated SPN stories.

💕CATEGORY: SWOONWORTHY💕

Wildly romantic fics that warm you up from the inside.

It Won't Be Perfect by someonetoanyone (10K words) Summary: Dean daydreams about what it'd be like to let himself love Cas freely.

Why I love it: the humor, the spot-on characterizations, and the quintessential late season Destiel-ness of being so deeply love with your best friend that it's too big to actually do anything about. Just. So warm.

Rock Lobster by Ginger Fail (13K) Summary: Cas decides that the lobsters Dean planned to cook need to get back home. Impromptu beach vacation ensues!

Why I love it: This road trip story is fresh and invigorating like a sea breeze! Fun, entertaining and full of deep, deep fondness.

Seek to Know You Better by ahurston (32K)

Summary: On a road trip, Dean and Cas play the 36 Questions That Lead To Love.

Why I love it: They’re so deliberatedly, carefully starting a relationship here. They try so hard to bridge the gaps and meet each other halfway. A very mature take on love that feels nourishing.

☢️CATEGORY: BRAINWORMS GALORE☢️

Fics that make you go BARK BARK BARK.

samson went back to bed by piesexuality (9k, @twoheadedcas) Summary: Cas strikes a deal with Chuck - keeping his family together comes at the price of their free will.

Why I love it: What if Cas got his revenge for the Mala'ak box? What if love came at the price of everything you've been fighting for? What if a story twisted the knife oh so sweetly? Each word of this one lands a punch. Made me insane in the best of ways (cue pinned fanart).

In sickness by @saintedcastiel (41K) Summary: S4 redux but Castiel has a fetish: giving Dean the sniffles.

Why I love it: This one is soooo. Can barely find words for it. It taps into Cas' early season alienness and psychosexual obsession with Dean, brilliantly demonstrates Casdean vs Samruby parallels, and each word is just. Perfect. ARGH!

so much smoke in a hall full of mirrors by AreYouReady (6K, @autisticandroids ) Summary: Godstiel is losing his heavenly war. Crowley provides a compliant Dean-doll for him to release his frustrations upon.

Why I love it: Urgh, this one is sooo dark. Taps into the scary, intimidating and alien aspects of Godstiel so well. Gore, consent and psychosexual issues galore. Delicious.

Special mention: In a Parked Car, Exhuming Ophelia by @an-android-in-a-tutu (17K). Still need to comment properly ;)

💣CATEGORY: EMOTIONAL WRECKING BALLS💣

Angsty fics that tear you to pieces to remake you better.

What Used To Be Mine by someonetoanyone (48K words) Summary: Dean never makes his apology prayer in Purgatory - Cas dies, Dean mourns.

Why I love it: Oh god, this is a heavy hitter. Just, straight up insurmontable grief, packaged in poetic, raw language to make you shed tears and tears. Loved it so much.

Ignite your bones By ilovehowyouletmefall (67K, @angelinthefire) Summary: Dean accepts Chuck's deal: killing Sam to save the world.

Why I love it: Cruuuuel cruel premise for a story that doesn’t pull its punches. It gets dark in Dean’s head and everyone around him suffers. Wonderfully written. The ending set my brain on fire.

Right Where you Left Me by outdean (93K, @armandgender)

Summary: Cas comes back from the Empty after 10 years to find Dean married to another man.

Why I love it: This one is a riiiide. When grief has become a part of you but your love comes back… When you return from the dead and have to carve a new space into the world for yourself... nothing is easy here, but the emotions are INTENSE. Also, autistic!Cas for the win.

Special mention: Who Ya Gonna Call? by saintedcastiel (50K) and Clear skies in spring by enochianprayer (WIP)

💥CATEGORY: EPIC RIDES💥

Expansive, wild adventures with lots of ups and downs

Spirit of the West by teen_dean (140K, @urne-buriall)

Summary: An 18y old Dean grew up on a horse farm – cue veterinarian Castiel. The summer of a lifetime ensues.

Why I love it: So this is one of my very favorite stories, ever ever, and I cannot recommand enough to immediatedly suscribe to the author’s Substack to be able to follow it in „real time“ next summer. It’s cinematic, rich, full of darkness and light, it’s everything a story can aspire to, I’m just. I just really love it.

Second Verse, Same as The First by LaLaCat1 (135K)

Summary: Endverse!Cas is sent back to the start of S1 and is determined to make things right this time round.

Why I love it: a desperate and badass Cas, unfridging everyone, a thrilling plot, moments of awesome for the entire cast, gripping action scenes, a romance for the ages… this is a genuinely amazing story.

back road, black road by eden22 (167K)

Summary: 18y old Sam gets kidnapped by Hell on his way to Stanford. Dean tries to deal.

Why I love it: So this one’s not Destiel-centric but does have wonderful Destiel moments. It’s also very heavy on the gore and the angst (NOT for the faint of stomach), but expertly crafted, fascinating and frankly it deserves more love. Held my breath for half the read and never knew where it’d take me.

Special mention: It's The End Of The World (As We Know It) by tiamatv (140K)

🤪CATEGORY: DESTIEL INSANITY🤪

Uproariously funny stories about the intricate rituals these two weirdos get up too.

Life Skills by ilovehowyouletmefall (26K)

Summary: Dean teaches a newly human Cas how to be „a real man“.

Why I love it: Dean coming to Big Self-Realizations while trying to have platonic threesomes with Cas is so perfect. Very endearing, tender and funny. Also, smoking hot sex.

the cheapest room in the house by biggaybenny (89K)

Summary: Dean downloads Grindr for Cas

Why I love it: Just. Late season Dean being deranged about Cas’ sexuality while everyone watches on in utter confusion. Equally hilarious and deeply moving

according to all known laws of life by @sobsicles (29k)

Summary: Cas comes back from the Empty to a Dean who won’t stop playing gay chicken.

Why I love it: They are both such petty, insane weirdos in this one. They said „can every situation be turned into a squabble“ and didn’t wait for an answer. So funny, so tender

Special mention: Wedding Vows and Negotiations by GingerFail (6K)

That's it, enjoy and leave your writers some much-deserved love!

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Matcha Cream Puffs (Choux au Craquelin)

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Thinking about this for some reason. 😍

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so i drew them just for today instead of doing my schoolwork

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ok. it's so much funnier that misha /chose/ to write the straight thread. like nobody told him to do that. he was TOLD NOT TO.

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Can Misha like stop being so handsome 💖

WHY

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different ways to say ‘i love you’. 

‘i’ll make you something, yeah? your favorite dish, just for you.’

‘let’s get you back to bed.’

‘shh, it was just a nightmare.’

‘you like this, don’t you? i remember you saying that.’

‘i drew up a bath for you.’

‘you need rest.’

‘you ought to be asleep.’

‘i bought two.’

‘here. you can have the rest.’

‘i thought of you when i saw this.’

‘i like your smile.’

‘you have a cute laugh.’

‘stay there. i’m coming there to get you.’

‘it’s okay, i’m here, we’re okay.’

‘be careful.’

‘look both ways.’

‘you mean so much to me.’

‘i can’t lose you.’

‘i thought i might have lost you.’

‘how to you feel about the nickname, (insert nickname)?’

‘it looks good on you.’

‘i’ll make you soup.’

‘ah-ah-ah. you’re sick. you need to stay in bed.’

‘are you okay in there?’

‘that’s it, that’s it. get it all out. shh.’

‘it’s a remedy i knew. helps with your throat.’

‘it’s a lullaby. would you like me to sing it to you? would that help you fall asleep?’

‘i’m worried about you.’

‘what do you want to watch?’

‘where would you like to go for dinner?’

‘close your eyes and hold out your hands.’

‘we’ll figure it out.’

‘oh, it’s not big deal. you’re fine.’

‘i brought you some medicine for your cold.’

‘you’re important to me.’

‘this is your favorite song, right?’

‘you’re like a son/daughter to me.’

‘good luck!’

‘you’re like a mom/dad to me.’

‘don’t say that about yourself.’

‘want to come with?’

“wow! you look really nice.’

‘goodnight, (insert term of affection).’

‘it’s okay. i couldn’t sleep anyway.’

‘you can have half.’

‘come here. let me fix it.’

‘your tie is crooked.’

‘c’mere. shh, it’s okay.’

‘i’m not going to hurt you.’

‘can i touch you?’

‘can i kiss you?’

‘can i hug you?’

‘promise.’

‘would i ever lie to you?’

‘i think you’re very beautiful/handsome.’

‘hey, good-looking.’

‘of course i care. you’re my family.’

‘one more chapter.’

‘i love you.’

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I can’t write a story. But my finale fix-it is that Steve does go to New Jersey eventually. Danny is well healed by now, so naturally he has to come with as a guide. And they just miss each other so much… There is pizza. Sightseeing. Less stress, away from missions. And much needed affection. Staring: hotel room with only one bed.

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Steve has to adjust himself when they get out of the car.

Can you blame him, though? Just imagine the view he gets when Danny exits the car like this…

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Steven J. Mcgarrett’s guide to your Tru Loves heart (as per S7E23)

-Help Tru Love decorate future step-son’s room (especially the walls because Tru Love is a smol bean but don’t tell him or he’ll get angry)

-Repeatedly stress the importance of being included in your Tru Love’s retirement plan (stress the importance of doing it together)

-Assemble step-son’s bed because Tru Love is terrible at D.I.Y projects and a dummy who throws away important manuals.

-Keep calm as you look for Tru Love despite him beING IN SUPER DANGER!!! 

-Assure Tru Love that you’re coming to help him

- Drive your car through a motherfucking house to run over assholes who dared TO SHOOT AT YOUR ONE TRU LOVE THE GODDAMN NERVE FFFFFFUUUUU

-While your Tru Love is angsting (poor bby) for a while, tuck step-son into bed after proving you are a fun step-dad

-Tell step-son about how AMAZING,BEAUTIFUL,GOOD,AWESOME his dad (and your Tru Love) is

-secure future meetings with step-son

-OH.Don’t forget to say ‘I love you’ to him

-Wait for Tru Love to come back so you can cuddle him.Tru Love had a bad day.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Hawaii Five-0 (2010) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Steve McGarrett/Danny "Danno" Williams Characters: Steve McGarrett, Danny "Danno" Williams, Lou Grover, Adam Noshimuri, Junior Reigns, Tani Rey, Quinn Liu, Charles "Charlie" Williams Edwards, Sam Hanna Additional Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Nightmares, Panic Attacks, Asthma, Angst with a Happy Ending, Post-Episode: s10e22 Aloha (Goodbye), Fluff, POV Steve McGarrett, Hurt Steve McGarrett, Hurt Danny "Danno" Williams, Getting Together Summary:

A documented list of conversations between Steve and Danny via text and phone call following the events of 10x22 "Aloha." (Where, even thousands of miles apart, Steve and Danny can't go without talking to each other.)

I have no words to describe how much I love this fic. This fic is Steve and Danny meaning everything for each other, fighting with everything they have to find their way home when “home” is not a place or a building but the person you love the most in the world.

I cried and laughed and cried again, this fic made me love my boys even more. 

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I read this fic some time ago and it's still one of my favorites. Danny lost his sight during an explosion and he needs to understand that even in the dark he is strong and he is not alone. 

The characters are amazingly written, a lot of feelings are involved, action, Ohana. 

Give this fic a chance :) 

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Chapters: 50/? Fandom: Hawaii Five-0 (2010) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Steve McGarrett/Danny "Danno" Williams Characters: Steve McGarrett, Danny "Danno" Williams, Chin Ho Kelly, Kono Kalakaua Additional Tags: One Shot Collection, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Comfort, Sick Danny, Domestic, Pampering, Date Nights, Getting Together, Friends to Lovers, Idiots in Love, Short & Sweet, Sweet, Fluff, First Kiss, First Time, (rating and content varies by chapter) Summary:

A series of one-shots, with the general theme of Steve doing something nice for Danny.

All the stories by this author are amazing, pure, simple, and lovely fluff. This one in particular is one of my favorites. It is still a work in progress but as the description says most of the chapters are standalone one-shots. I encourage you to read them all but if you only have time today for a short story you should read chapter 32 (Tittle: Notes) you would not regret it.