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Starting over. I've started my gym routine all over again starting right from scratch at the very beginning and I've got to be honest that is part of the reasons why I didn't even start again in the first place. The years I've been used to lifting quite heavy weights and having quite a vigorous gym routine that the thought of going back to the beginning didn't fill me with much confidence. I should be lifting more than this... I should have bigger muscles in this....BLAH fucking blah. It's all fucking ego. I was stuck behind an ego which was trying to keep me safe but it was keeping me stuck in fear. So I'm back in the gym. At the beginning and it's not so bad. So what I'm not doing what I WAS doing, doesn't mean i can't do that again. This time around it's a different journey. I'm at peace with myself. At least I'm in the gym. I got there. #gobeastgo #backinthegym #musclerehabilitation #physiotherapy #student #training #musclebuilding #youvegottostartsomewhere #instafitness #fitnessinthemaking #mentalhealthmovement #bodysculpt #gymlovers https://www.instagram.com/p/B4j-ZdZpsda/?igshid=1xqpigelid2v0

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Baby come back 💕 I can't believe that I'm finally back in the gym after 9 months out. It's not really because of any other reason other than I'd just lost my spark.... Although it wasn't lost... My beast was just hibernating. Scared to come back out. The world seemed scary. But it's not. ☺️👌🏻 My beast has been reignited! And @lisashabbas the wonderful beast herself helped to coax her back out. Oh baby she is back. Watch me! #shesback #babycomeback #aintnostoppingusnow #beasttobeing #beastmode #babygotback #arbonnegymgear #arbonneconsultant #phytosport #gymrange #somethingsgottochange https://www.instagram.com/p/B4b8EmNJP6b/?igshid=1o4rzjooqk8pu

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Accepting myself. I have my first session of EFT last night (boy that was powerful) following on from a weekend of submerging myself into extreme heat and cold, it's safe to say I'm shifting. So much is coming to the surface for me! I'm finding that the last few days have forced me to look at areas that I have been running from for years, running from my darkness, my pain. I abandoned my pain and therefore that means I abandoned myself... I abandon the girl inside who didn't receive what she needed growing up just like the people who raised her. I've treated myself like others had treated me and in turn have caused even more of my own suffering. I abandoned myself. I ignored my cries, my yearning, my desire for connection. No more can i run. Nor want to. I'm finding the fragmented pieces of self I've discarded and welcoming them home to my vessel. I'm turning in. I'm turning on and moving past the girl i thought i was.... #growing #beasttobeing #eft #cptsdrecovery #empoweringwomen #silence #being #findingpeace #nomorerunning #iamsafe #trauma #healingjourney #healingtrauma #helpingmyself #innerpeace https://www.instagram.com/p/B4UfBu3JdgY/?igshid=1vfa318hka2vk

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Bringing it back to the present moment. There are times when I forget that I have c-ptsd (not that I'm becoming a fan of labels) and I feel like a normal human being (whatever that is) and then there are times when I am triggered by something in my present reality and I'm sent into a a period of flashback which can sometimes last for days. #exhausting Today I'm starting to feel a little bit more like me and starting to be able to think clearly. (THANK FUK) In those periods everything is clouded negative and overwhelming, and sometimes it feels like it's going to last forever and that there is no way out. #isolated And then there were moments like today when you meet with a kind friend who shows you compassion, or you sheepishly open up about out some of the ways and which you've been acting up and not serving yourself well #honesty which then allows your eGo to chill and the real you can come to the forefront.🤩 I found this book today and every day I'm going to write things to reflect on, things that I'm proud of, it's a small something that will allow me to keep me living in the present moment. #stuckinthepast I find it really hard not to live in the past especially when things in my present reality triggered me to feel something which feels very real in that moment, but ultimately it comes from a past experience. #timewarp I'm entirely grateful for the people that I have in my life and I'm ready to move forward even if it does mean taking baby steps. I've been MIA since the wonderful #beasttobeing retreat I attended this weekend, following on from that it led me to purge and let go of a lot of painful emotions that I didn't even realise I was still holding onto. One thing I've been realising about healing is that each time that you cry, release, do the inner work or shadow work, you get the opportunity to grow and to to remove a layer of the Onion that no longer serves you well. Reflection not perfection. #gratitude #gladtobeback #ptsdrecovery #flashback #denial #werisebyliftingothers #selfhelp #recoveryfromtrauma #iamenough #imonlyhuman #stayconnected #shadowwork #innerwork #reflectionnotperfection #humbled #egodeath #cycles #lettinggo https://www.instagram.com/p/B4NSK4hJJ2I/?igshid=1u7rg2g5u1wjw

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Took the opportunity to train with my team tonight. When you start business, you're in it for yourself but not by yourself. You have me and the rest of our gang in your corner... cheering you on to achieve your goals. Telling you YOU CAN. Cheering you! LOVING on you. Sprinkling you with BADASS fairy dust and telling you not to feed into your doubt. Together we are a family. Together we can build a life of freedom and fun.... If you are brave enough. Do you trust me to never let you down and to always be in your corner? Join us babe! You know you want to 😝👌🏻 So freeking greatful to the people to uplift me daily and are always fanning my flames instead of pissing on my fireworks! 💕💚 https://www.instagram.com/p/B4CcHeBpg9y/?igshid=s8trwmp0iskb

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How it feels after you've just had your afternoon fizz stick. You know what it's like the afternoon slump when you're desperately seeking the coffee and the biscuit break the downside is that is that it's not something which is sustain your energy.... It's only going to give you another slump! No joke I've never felt energy like it. 1 fizz stick and you're laughing. Or dancing Or running around after your kids Or more productive at work 🔥🔥 Hmu for yours!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/B391wUmpN3C/?igshid=1b4uiysczkskg

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Healthy eating is my new best friend. I used to pick food based on on what I wanted to eat not on what was going to be the most nutritional for my mind my body and my gut. What I'm finding is this plan is really teaching me me on what my body thrives on I no longer feel I'm just surviving on food but I'm literally thriving. I've always been quite a happy positive person but these last two and a half weeks has seen my energy levels skyrocket and I can't wait to share this gift with as many people as possible!!!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/B39hWMeJATO/?igshid=10vjuibeyd0i6

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Setting goals Is crucial for your success (and mine) I'd never got clear on what I wanted, I just knew I wanted more. More money. More respect. More time. More FUN!!!! I'm going to be 30 next year and I thought that I would always have life figured out by then lol not even close But one thing I do know is that if I want to create a life that I'm proud of and that I'm excited to wake up for every day I have to do the work and I have to create it and had to get clear on my reasons. So I've taken myself out to have a #steamedcoconutmilk with cinnamon 🤤🤤 and to get focussed. To be a leader, I have to be able to lead myself to my goals so I can show others how to do the same. It feels scary at first but it proves to be so much fun the more you do it!!! YES the Mercedes is what I want! I see it daily. It will be mine. Just watch. No. Don't just watch..... JOIN!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/B37aaxVpV-A/?igshid=ipp11xnfscr0

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Over the weekend I had the privilege of trying some fantastic food from a wonderful vegan cafe in Crawley. @sagecrawley After staying in a wonderful place with a wonderful person in the morning it was time for breakfast but not wanting to scrimp on my 30-day plan #30DAYSwithemily We both wanted to make some conscious healthy food choices so decided to try out this little gem. The atmosphere was wonderful the star for really pleasant and it smelled beautiful in there from the wonderful array of food they were cooking. I started off with a detoxifying green drink followed by gluten-free mushroom and avocado on toast. Safe to say that I was feeling more than satisfied and I am going to be going back here on a very regular basis! #sagecafe #crawley #veganfood #glutenfree #nutritional #plantswithemily #plantbased #plantsonly #foodsensation https://www.instagram.com/p/B36sC9wpaKd/?igshid=wfu4fjk4vc3g

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Side hustle family! Many of you have probably seen a lot of your friends and acquaintances startup side hustles working from their mobile phones. What is your initial opinion of this? What do you you really believe about these businesses? Do you criticize? Judge? Laugh? Or do you know applaud, empower and encourage? Starting a side hustle isn't a get rich quick scheme. The company (at least the one that I I am an ambassador for) don't market it it in that way at all. Starting a side hustle or an online business is probably one of the most admirable things I think a person can do. It is an investment in yourself. It is a long-term plan for personal development and growth. It forces you to grow in confidence and if you grow in confidence it has a knock on effect and every single area of your life. It's not easy but it is simple. And I know that if I carry this on in 3 months time I'm going to be further developed that I am now. In 3 years time I know that I will not have to work in the normal nine-to-five because I would have built enough confidence and created a business that gives me more money than I ever could earn in a 9 to 5. Starting a side hustle is a commitment to yourself and it should be applauded and encouraged. Don't go with the crowd. Walk in the other direction towards time freedom and before long the crowd will be following in your footsteps. #entrepreneur #timefreedom #9to5 #ihatemyjob #noconfidence #confidentwomen #confidenceboost #1ntentionseeker #getbizywithemily #networkmarketing #personaldevelopment #youcandothis #fuckthesystem #gogetit #badass #breakthemould https://www.instagram.com/p/B34yJWcpF-X/?igshid=s2gruu8ipx3x

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Loved seeing my family today. It's been years in the creation. Of removing all the barriers I had created to love. You've always loved me, even when at times I couldn't see it. You are my family. You are my home. I'm so happy to be able to create a new level of relationship with all of you. Home is where the heart is! 💕💕💕💕 @turvey_93 https://www.instagram.com/p/B3zaMaWJjj5/?igshid=dvaypdwxp9hu

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The face I pull when I see my manifestations coming together. If you dont know much about manifestation yet, stick to me sweetheart, you will be BLOWN away! Last few weeks of seeing me really shift my focus on the creating a life that I want and in order for me to do that I've had to let go of the person I thought I was in order for me to create a new narrative. What could you achieve if you were to stop believing that thing.... * I'm too fat * I'm too much * I'm not smart enough * I don't have enough time * I am not good enough. If you got rid of your bullshit beliefs what kind of life would you be living? What would you be doing? How would you be feeling..... https://www.instagram.com/p/B3zVlvxJpKK/?igshid=4i9ccvseg0fy

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Let go of what is not serving you! Letting Go can be a really difficult thing whether that be letting go of a person a memory or maybe that dress you've been hanging onto since 1997 that you hope it's going to fit you one day. Hanging onto something that doesn't fit your values all the direction that you're going ultimately is just holding you back and most likely causing you some kind of conflict in your mind. Sometimes we hold onto things subconsciously and we have no idea how we are limiting our progress in our present. I've had no choice recently but to really assess the things that are in my life and the reasons why they're in my life if so that I can can really move in the direction that I want to. For me the things that I was holding onto will not items of clothing or people but rather ways of thinking and believing. Believing that I was not good enough. Believing that I wasn't talented enough. Believing that I am too much. Believing that I don't have enough time to do the things that I want. And believing that my life is always going to be the way it is because of my upbringing. All things that I am learning to let go of and reframing my thoughts to create more space for good things to grow. 🙏🏻💕🙏🏻 https://www.instagram.com/p/B3u_qHSJ_8O/?igshid=1h9quajq80bhx

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Bare face with a little highlight from the starlight glow palette. I have been eating incredibly well this week and the amount of nutrition is not only showing in my waistline but it's also showing in how great my skin looks and feels. I'm finding a way more confident without makeup on and today too to show off my new found confidence I added a little bit of the Starlight glow highlighter to my cheekbones and its safe to say it has a lovely glow 😌🙏🏻 Feed your skin from within! https://www.instagram.com/p/B3rV78fJnA1/?igshid=101m02xt5t8wk

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Hot hot hot 😝 You know your bath water is too hot when your face mask won't set 😝 This face mask will set and dry a totally different colour where there are excess oils! You can see the mask pulling out the #crap Now I am no longer drinking, this has now become my go to Saturday night mask! 🔥Detoxifying 🔥Rehydrating 🔥Retexturises your skin! #winning #skingoals #newskin #newsaturdaynightsin #changinghabits #newroutine #alcoholfree #changeisgood https://www.instagram.com/p/B3j05Gbp0S7/?igshid=1k00t0wifu7s4

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STOP & THINK If you spend the next 40 years of your life working 40 hours a week to retire to live off 40% of your earnings are you ever going to have enough money or enough time to do the things that you want to before you die? 🤣 morbid right but think about it.... When are we ever going to earn enough money to actually do the things we want to - take that vacation - buy that house - go on that trip - buy those new shoes you need - Spend time with family and friends creating the most valuable thing of all MEMORIES. I'm scared that by the time I get to retirement age I'm not going to have a pension and I'm not going to be able to survive! I'm taking matters into my own hands and it might be flipping crazy and it might not be the norm, but hun.the norm isn't really working out for me! I'm 30 next year and I'm no better off then when I was in my early 20s and that ain't because I didnt work hard. I hustle it's what I do! I work damn hard and I've not much to show for it! Other than some mental health concerns 😝 JOIN ME! BE THE WEIRDO! GO AGAINST THE GRAIN. Imagine if it works..... https://www.instagram.com/p/B3XYu5UJX7H/?igshid=wilmh0s6a8fl

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💫 Upgrade your frequency 💫 I don't wake up in the morning with loads of energy and raring to go in fact it's quite the opposite. You see life hasn't always been kind to me and I'm sure it hasn't always been kind to you and I'm certain that you've probably learnt some not so empowering ways of thinking just like me. Most mornings I struggle with my negative self talk. Everyday I work on my mindset and try to retrain my brain into better thinking. One of the best things to shift your mindset and to reenergize and refocus your direction is dancing. I personally have a playlist that turns my mood around! It makes me feel alive!!! Try it out. Put on your fave song and get your dance on!!! Switch it up a bit!@! https://www.instagram.com/p/B3WsAHfph7t/?igshid=1mcrvekogacix