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writing writing writing

this story continues to baffle me. the are words coming out, yes, but I have no idea if they're good or if the narrative flows and makes sense or if any of this is even readable.

still, I've struggled with it for so many years at this point that I think just getting a whole draft done is the only option now. I can't edit the living daylights out of it until it actually exists. then we'll really know what we're working with.

[shrug]

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more than 2k words done today! god help me but I think this story might be finished some time this year

wrote a few hundred words yesterday! am now currently situated in the early morning sunlight, dressing gown on, iced coffee in hand, determined to finish this scene.

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scene(s) done! also coffee done

wrote a few hundred words yesterday! am now currently situated in the early morning sunlight, dressing gown on, iced coffee in hand, determined to finish this scene.

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wrote a few hundred words yesterday! am now currently situated in the early morning sunlight, dressing gown on, iced coffee in hand, determined to finish this scene.

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currently working on my long-suffering draft while partner sits on the floor building a futon

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just a heads up: I deleted my twitter account and this tumblr is now the only place I can be found on social media

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had actual fic dreams last night

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wrote about 1000 words the other day (yay) but it seems the longer I write this story, the more confused I get about its tone/direction/everything. starting to wonder if this thing is ever going to sort itself

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355 words today ✅

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somehow wrote fic in my dreams last night

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Hi Bell!

I just randomly discovered your fanfic Sliver and i absolutely devoured it! You wrote a beautiful story!!! Amazing work!

Hello!! I'm so sorry it took me literal months to answer this. 😭 I am not on top of things it would seem.

But thank you so much for a) taking the time to read my story and b) reaching out to let me know you enjoyed it! It really does mean the world to me and every comment/ask/bit of feedback brightens my day.

Hope you're well!

bel

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a personal update

I don't usually share much about myself on this blog, but it seems that writing Silver has changed the trajectory of my life in a way I never foresaw and it feels appropriate to mark that here somehow.

read more because this ended up longer than I intended but

tl;dr I got a visa to move across an ocean and live with one of my readers

In November of last year, while in the throes of finishing my longest story ever, I got a kind ask from @starsoforionwrites. Without going into it too much, I did not have much going for me at the time. I'd just quit my master's degree after only a semester, had to move back in with my parents, couldn't get a job, etc. I wasn't doing well.

But then I got this friendly message! And as I was sitting there at my local cafe, trying to escape my chaotic family and wracking up more credit card debt paying for a chai I couldn't afford, I decided to reach out.

So we started chatting. At first it was about fandom and our stories, but fragments of real life began to slip in. And starsoforion is just so much fun to talk to. I started looking forward to the time of day when they would finish work and we could talk, staying up until ridiculous hours because we just didn't want to stop. Learning morsels of information about who they are, piecing together all the bits and pieces into this person I liked so much.

By mid-December, we'd gone from joking about meeting to buying airfares. I finally got to hug them for the first time at the international arrivals door at the airport at the end of January.

We spent a wonderful 10 days together and by the end of it, we decided we were going to try to be together.

Which, as far as immigration goes, is (thankfully and surprisingly!) not terribly difficult for us, given our particular combination of citizenships and residencies.

So I doubled down and got a job to start saving as we made plans for our future. After six months apart working hard, we saw each other again, this time with me visiting them just to make sure I could see myself living in the UK before I dropped money on the visa application.

And then... everything's worked out. I got the visa. I'm in the midst of packing up my things and leaving my job to move overseas before the end of the year.

I can't believe how writing fanfiction has brought this special person into my life and given me this incredible opportunity, or how different my future looks from just one year ago. I'm doing so well, I'm so proud of myself, and so happy.

so there you go, kids. follow your dreams. comment on your fav fics. date the authors! who knows what could happen 💕

p.s

if you're interested in the logistical/immigration side of this story, I have been blogging about it at @bels-adventures

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I need everyone to know that not only did I have the pleasure of witnessing this process, but that said process included getting out a tape measure to test if exactly 4 feet is a good height for a floating object

+1600 words that came literally out of nowhere and I did not plan for

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I am ✨ writing ✨

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big believer that writing doesn't always have to be writing. sometimes writing is going for a walk. sometimes writing is rehearsing your characters' dialogue in the shower. sometimes writing is putting a song on loop and staring at the carpet. sometimes you need to hang out with your story instead of writing it

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I've noticed a bit of an influx of new readers/commenters on Silver in the past week or so and I just want to say (again and again and again) how much I love hearing your thoughts 🥰 getting those ao3 emails during long workdays brings such a smile to my face. y'all are the best.

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Hey just came here to say I really loved An Exercise in Seriously Poor Judgement (And Easily Removed Shoes)! It was so wonderful!

Hi! Thank you 🥹 Your comment brought such a smile to my face. Thank you for taking the time to read and leave your thoughts! I'm glad my raunchy adventures are being so well received 😂