110-by-august

[110-by-august]

I’m just… so tired

[110-by-august]

ah yes, here we are again. How long will it last? I need to drop a good chunk of weight by October. Maybe I can be below 200.

Please

[110-by-august]

I really need to get back into therapy and fast. My ED is acting up, my dysphoria and dysmorphia are super bad. I can’t see my true body and the progress I’ve made I’m just seeing gross bs.

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Mmmmm welcome back relapse desire.

I’m a little over 2 years clean with a new partner and good friends, so I’d appreciate if you would kindly

Fuck Off

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Got the morbs. Don’t know if it’s better to isolate or to force myself out

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Ahahahahahahahahahaha

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It’s amazing what can happen in a matter of months. I’ve grown so much, and every once in a while even medicated and in therapy I still find myself slipping here and there.

Just know I’m doing better. And hopefully I won’t be back on this blog long.

[110-by-august]

Same shit different year

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I was fucking fine but no, now I’m seeing pictures of them at his house and the two of them together and it hurts and I wanna scream but I’m on the phone with the person I’m talking to and I shouldn’t be upset I shouldntbeupsetishouldntbeupset but it’s fucking k i l l i n g me

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And here I am. Haven’t touched this blog in almost a year. But here I am on New Years feeling lower than I have in a very long time.

No where to go but up I suppose.

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May the addiction screaming in your ear taper to a whisper.

May the urge to take die down to a passing thought.

May death call to you softer than it ever has.

And May hope light up in any embers you didn't think you still had

[110-by-august]

Me: So somehow I only feel worthy while having Sex, have a low weigh or get good grades.

Family: How bizarre

Me: How bizarre

[110-by-august]

let me be very clear that if you voted for donald trump or support him in any capacity you are not welcome here. my blog is not the place for you and i do not want you interacting with me. 

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When talking about stigma around mental illness, we need to remember that people with psychosis, schizophrenia, dissociative disorders, and/or personality disorders tend to receive the most abuse and violence because of the false, harmful stereotype that people with these disorders are actively trying to hurt others, even though they're far likely to be hurt than to hurt someone else. That paired with the ableism they face constantly increases the suicide and self harm rates among people with these illnesses. Please include them in your conversations about mental health, they're some of the most vulnerable and are too often forgotten. People with these disorders are all around you, they deserve support too.

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[110-by-august]

me, as a kid: i can’t wait til i’m an adult so i can stay up late EVERY NIGHT

me, as an adult, crawling into bed at 6:30 pm: oh thank god

[110-by-august]

Ah here comes the alcohol effects