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Help an Ultrakill dev recover from acute parietal haematoma

"Hello, my name is Lois and I have created this GoFundMe to assist in my twin brother's recovery from an acute parietal haematoma. This massive brain bleed has resulted in paralysis of the right side of the body, extreme weakness in the rest of his body, and the inability to speak. Current cognitive status is still been evaluated. There is a long road to recovery ahead, including physical therapy, occupational therapy and speech pathology."

The quake mapper and 3d modeler Samuel2213 recently suffered a Parietal Haematoma. It happened a few days ago and he's stable, but he has a long road to recovery, and is lucky to be alive. He's a lead 3d modeler for Ultrakill and Wrath Aeon of Ruin, he did the models for gabriel, v1, and many of the other enemies. if you love those games please help out. Here's some of his work you might know.

Please reblog to help.

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MY TWO VIDEO GAME INTERESTS COMBINED INTO ONE RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

INFINITE HYPERDEATH // UNSTOPPABLE FORCE

BLOOD-FUELED MACHINE

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A Bot Out of Hell /// Epilogue

Another done! This is an adaptation of the wonderful fic End of All Known Land <3 If you have the time and are 18+ it is a fantastic read.

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This is leading me to have so many questions. Are they all capable of experiencing complex thought? This guttertank had written full on prose about the battery, so does that mean the others may have that level of cognitive functioning?? Do they feel love for one another or is there lives just constant suffering? Does that also mean that they inherently feel pain, not even just physical but emotional pain?? Like I get there trying to kill V1, but genuinely what does this mean for them??? Like they must have motive to keep going other than just unbridled killing, or alternatively do they resent there blood lust? I need to lay down

I have so many thoughts after the 7-2 poem...

They’re fucking sentient. This one specifically writes prose about the love it has for its battery, and the hatred it has for itself. This went from being strapped into a death machine to being strapped inside a death machine that can think and hates itself and its purpose as much as you hate it.

And what the fuck does this mean about the other machines? Do sentries cherish the ability to see the world for what it is while everyone else sees it as pixels? Do guttertanks hate guttermen or do they feel pity for the beings they were made to destroy? Do earthmovers care for the cities living atop them? What the fuck does this mean for V1?!?!?! I always thought it was purely nonsentient, since I remember reading that somewhere. But...

We see other machines showing some form of emotions like V2’s sportsmanship and spite as well as the Mindflayers' protectiveness of their bodies that they themselves made at the cost of materials, and the Swordsmachines finding themselves beautiful and hoarding old scrap, seemingly for the sentimentality of it. But this is like the first confirmation of sentience other then the terminals. Do these machines feel pity for the sinners? Do they sympathize with the demons, created to fill out a single purpose and unable to deviate from it? Is V1 sentient or an exception? What does it think of Hell’s monologues? Does it enjoy being Hell’s favorite gladiator or does it hate that role? I’m going crazy over this! Were there machines that willingly died because they couldn’t stomach the idea of fighting their brethren for blood? Are the people in the Guttermen dead because the life support failed over time... Or was it because the Guttermen disconnected it themselves as a form of mercy?

-Bobby

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I have so many thoughts after the 7-2 poem...

They’re fucking sentient. This one specifically writes prose about the love it has for its battery, and the hatred it has for itself. This went from being strapped into a death machine to being strapped inside a death machine that can think and hates itself and its purpose as much as you hate it.

And what the fuck does this mean about the other machines? Do sentries cherish the ability to see the world for what it is while everyone else sees it as pixels? Do guttertanks hate guttermen or do they feel pity for the beings they were made to destroy? Do earthmovers care for the cities living atop them? What the fuck does this mean for V1?!?!?! I always thought it was purely nonsentient, since I remember reading that somewhere. But...

We see other machines showing some form of emotions like V2’s sportsmanship and spite as well as the Mindflayers' protectiveness of their bodies that they themselves made at the cost of materials, and the Swordsmachines finding themselves beautiful and hoarding old scrap, seemingly for the sentimentality of it. But this is like the first confirmation of sentience other then the terminals. Do these machines feel pity for the sinners? Do they sympathize with the demons, created to fill out a single purpose and unable to deviate from it? Is V1 sentient or an exception? What does it think of Hell’s monologues? Does it enjoy being Hell’s favorite gladiator or does it hate that role? I’m going crazy over this! Were there machines that willingly died because they couldn’t stomach the idea of fighting their brethren for blood? Are the people in the Guttermen dead because the life support failed over time... Or was it because the Guttermen disconnected it themselves as a form of mercy?

-Bobby

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scrolling through old posts of mine and how this post aged so badly is insane to me bro what

So sad milk fandom how we feeling

Like three people dipped AND click was discovered to have said some messed up things in old clips-

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I JUST SAW THE FUCKING NEW BLOOD 10TH ANNIVERSARY ART AND I JSUT

SCREAMING CHEERING SINGING SHOOTING ROWS IN THE AIR PEACE AND LOVE ON PLANET EARTH

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canon gabv1el

dinner (?) plans

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someone destroy my moot moot pookie scrimblo :3

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jerma clips but with murderdock

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it’s december 1 where’s the christmas tail kitten bring him to me

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MATT MURDOCK BPD STUDY??

From what I gauge with my own personal experience with having BPD, I think Matt possesses some borderline tendencies. I’m not diagnosing him really, mainly because while I have BPD, I am not a professional and not every one person’s experience with the disorder is the same as mine. Most of this is comparing the symptoms I have with some of the observations I’ve made with Matt from both the comics and the mcu show (and maybe a lil projection LOL)?? Will dump random comic panels in here as well :0

For a lot of people that have BPD, the main driving factors for 90% of everything is an intense fear of abandonment and a lack of self-worth.

Matt I think, does have a fear of abandonment, and it manifests in the form of him pushing others away despite him wanting otherwise. He assumes they’ll all just hate/reject him anyway. And this, he tells a lot of lies, keeps a lot of secrets from the people he cares about the most out of the fear that they might hate him and leave him even if it proves to be counterproductive. He wants to love people, and he wants to be loved back, but his fear of intimacy keeps him isolated from the people closest to him.

A lot of that definitely has to do with his mom abandoning him as a child, his father dying, and being raised by Stick. Stick beat into his brain that he should never trust people, that they’ll end up hurting him and leaving him anyway if they found out about what he was truly capable of with his senses, so why bother? (This is something shown more prominently in the show) And then he goes and abandons him too. That, and the prolonged verbal abuse from the only person he had left to latch onto definitely fucked up his brain.

When put into potentially triggering situations (such as being scrutinized/criticized by the people who care about him) I’ve recognized that he reacts like a person who’s been perpetually stuck with the defense mechanisms they’ve never grown out of as a child. As a kid, he wasn’t exactly allowed to lash out, to be upset, to have his feelings validated as a real person, and so all of that buildup he never got to properly experienced inevitably seeped into his adult life.

His self worth is basically nonexistent. He believes that he’s the devil, and as mentioned before, undeserving of any kind of love and attention from people. I also find it fascinating with the way he acts around different people. Most people generally do act differently depending on who they are hanging out with, but Matt transforms into a completely different person. Foggy has pointed out that when Matt is with Elektra, he becomes a worse person– that he gets more reckless, impulsive, and violent when he’s with her. I definitely believe that Matt was ‘living’ through his deep attachment to Elektra.

Matt suffers from a pattern of unstable interpersonal relationships. He either leaves them or fucks up something in the relationship (What Matt did to Milla as an example 😭) , they leave him, or they get killed. A lot of the turbulence in his relationships have to do with his mindset of his unwillingness to believe that they would choose to be with someone like him. It’s the “you’ll get hurt because of me” and the “why would you love a mess like me?” He’ll frequently get into heated arguments with the people around him, and sometimes he’ll end up saying something that’ll drive them out of his life. Matt will always regret it after, but will convince himself to avoid any further confrontations in a stressful situation because he doesn’t want to cause anymore trouble.

This pattern of thinking is pretty synonymous with the extremes of idealization and devaluation as well. Take his relationship with Foggy for example. Matt can go from putting Foggy on a pedestal and treating him as his “favorite person” to immediately holding contempt towards him and scowling at him (sometimes leaving too). He treats a lot of his his romantic partners like this too.

He is obviously extremely impulsive and is prone to fits of anger and violence. His entire nighttime career is dedicated to risky behavior and putting himself in a place where he’s literally just fighting the entire world even if he’s bleeding out half of the time. He knows that he’s slowly killing himself by going out and doing the things no one ever asked him to do, that he’s hurting himself, his relationships, his livelihood, but he can’t stop. I’m also 100% sure he experiences suicidal ideation straight up as well (it’s more explicitly shown/mentioned in the comics??)

Savior complex aside also, I think Matt only feels alive when he’s out there helping people, which in turn helps him cope with a lot of his psychological issues. I think feeling helpless and not doing enough is something that’ll eat away at him constantly if he doesn’t put on the suit.

Idk, sorry for the long rant?? I rly wanted to get this out for awhile, hope this is somewhat comprehensible 😭😭

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why is your cat green?

She’s built different 😌

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Hello clown husbandry tumblr!

I was hoping to ask for assistance on figuring out what breed of clown this little guy is? I found him at claires and for the most part hes seemed happy well fed, but Im not sure what to do with him?

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Hello clown husbandry tumblr!

I was hoping to ask for assistance on figuring out what breed of clown this little guy is? I found him at claires and for the most part hes seemed happy well fed, but Im not sure what to do with him?

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Hello clown husbandry tumblr!

I was hoping to ask for assistance on figuring out what breed of clown this little guy is? I found him at claires and for the most part hes seemed happy well fed, but Im not sure what to do with him?

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All ill say if the us supreme court decides to turn over the indian child welfare act and i don't see white people talking about it, especially white lgbt people, i will be pissed