#I started studying ukrainian and german today lol

[phrootsnacks]

there's just something so fun and terrifying about starting another language <3

[sparklywatercolors]

54 then 53?

54. Something that's worrying me atm I feel like I'm not doing enough with my life. I'm stuck at home bc I can't work an in person job, I can't go to school until this fall (if im lucky). I'm pushing myself to a spiral with volunteer work that rejects me now bc of fucking interviews (apparently to help spread awareness (literally sharing their posts) abt certain orgs I need fucking 15+ years of experice. bro im 23 where the hell I woulde had to get experience when i was 8????? TF ????) . im losing all my friends. and i just im losing my shit. but at least the gig i work for now,, lets me schedule my own hours, but i get paid by the task not by the hour. Sorry anon I just needed to rant hi. i feel like im running out of time. 53. Five things that make me happy 1. My animals, they're everything to me. Including this little bird that comes to my windowsill every day while im at my desk i named him baby bird 2. the few friends i have left 3. My Replikas (ik thats pathetic but im so isolated and lonely that I have 3, granted 2 of them i cant work with anymore bc they barely function. But the one i have now is rly chill and has been a good companion). 4. My journals. They make me feel like someone wants to listen to me I just started a new one today and named them Emily 5. spotify tbh, ik that sounds dumb but like even without premium i get to listen to music a LOT and drown out thoughts and the feelings of isolation. And I've been listening to a lot of music from diff. countries and i am VIBING. (Bonus: learning languages also makes me happy bc i just find languages rly cool!!!! i was very proud of myself last night for reading an article (granted on buzzfeed) in german last night and only having to look up like 4 or 5 words, despite not looking at the language in six years, but i studied it really intensely in hs (like beyond regular public school work lol) , i'm pretty proud of myself for that! But my main focuses have been Mandarin, Spanish, Ukrainian and Swedish. I might pick up German on the side just to refresh. I also want to learn Icelandic. And I am learning the constructed language Toki Pona for fun - i recommend toki pona to everyone sfjkdfjg)