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need to be beaten so hard my face is soaked n blood, littered in cuts, and painted with bruises, and the person who did it caresses my face just to tell me i did so good

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I lwk need someone to beat the shit out of me right now

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i'll get back to blood factory freakiness later i have nicola mom stuff to think on

CW: sexual abuse towards partner and child. non explicit but still discussed

i think amara's (nicola's mom) sexual abuse wasn't specific to just nicola.

danilo (nicola's dad) was also subject to it a lot in a "have sex with me or we're over" "i'll cheat on you" "i fucking hate you" way. to him it was part of his 'job as a man' to fulfill his woman's needs and kinda shamed himself for not being masculine enough via not wanting to have sex sometimes. probably had some friends who commented on amara's sexual attractiveness and talked about how lucky he was, and so that probably added to the "why won't i do this, am i not attracted to her? what's wrong with me"

to others that'd be clear sexual abuse but to him it was just the consequences of his failure in being a man, and so he never assumed it was a genuine problem on her end. anything happening to nicola was never something that could ever come to mind. you don't often assume someone you loved could be capable of something like that

SEVERE TW: talking about nicola here and his mom's fixation on him. talks about why she started it, how she perceives him,and the effects the abuse had on her. in depth discussion on her paedophilia

admittedly nicola also looks a little bit like his dad and that kinda fuels a bit of her perversions towards him. to her he's easier to control and malleable to what she wants, so she finds him to be a quick and easy fix to the sexual highs she chases

she has also always been attracted to younger men, probably, tbh. like as a kid to teens it's usually people her age, but as she turns into an adult she still has an attraction to men in their late teens and early 20s. when she gets older this doesn't change, and eventually she develops some sort attraction to nicola, disgustingly enough. she understands it's wrong but is basically addicted to the high thrills she gets off younger men and boys, like kinda chasing that teenage party girl life because it made her feel at her best. i don't think she's into children nicola's age 100% but he's a really easy target for her

to me nicola and his dad are both "i could've prevented this" towards each other by not existing. like his dad thinks he could've saved nicola all the trouble with his mental health & neurological problems if he just didn't exist or didn't meet amara, and to nicola his dad would've never shot himself if he was a better son and never was born to begin with. if only nicola knew there was nothing he could've ever done to change his parents mental health problems, because it goes so much deeper than him

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dexter strangling neo long enough to have him on the cusp of passing out. dexter strangling neo hard enough to make him cry. dexter strangling neo through a headlock and getting rougher when he hears neo struggling to breathe and feels him struggling to get out of the hold. de

sighs and stares into the void, clutching dexneo in my hands

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sighs and stares into the void, clutching dexneo in my hands

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randy sexcanons (sex headcanons)

▪︎extremely dominant verse. has never been submissive once and the closest he gets is just being a brat, he'll power bottom someone to death

▪︎is into hair pulling, spitting, licking, biting, bruises & hickies, choking, slapping, degrading, etc. he likes it rough for the most part but can be a little more easy depending on the person

▪︎lowkey talkative. enjoys teasing and degrading his partners n doesn't care much to hear that same treatment dished back to them. he just has a particular affinity for watching people melt under his touch n his words

▪︎one night stands forever. he hates people who stay past when he expects them too it's annoying af and he'll genuinely just go "ok get out ^_^" when he's at his limit

▪︎likes gun and knifeplay. sue me. he doesn't care about cutting someone open or anything he just likes the thrill of the threat. he loves some good pistol whipping, licking the blade/barrel, etc.

▪︎really good hands ngl. like he's good at putting them to work and they're just aesthetically nice

▪︎likes to smoke n drink while he's getting at it. especially enjoys sharing a cigarette, drink, blunt, etc.

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thigh hickeys.

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choked the turkey and then passed out for a second

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that being said. how many times can i overwork my mortal coil until i one day collapse to my knees and struggle to hold myself up, breathing heavily and trembling a bit under the pressure. my entire body exhausted and ready to give up. how many

god punishes me for having sex as a chronically fatigued constant body pain loser by giving me the worst most diabolical pain of backshot aftermaths

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god punishes me for having sex as a chronically fatigued constant body pain loser by giving me the worst most diabolical pain of backshot aftermaths

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Self destruction is hot, attractive and addictive. I just need it to be more toxic, more damaging. I want it to hurt.

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making a boy sob and cling onto you shakily is necessary for your health sometimes i think

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the stomach churn when the tip of the gun grazes your head. the holding your breath and shakey exhale when you can hear the light fidgeting of the trigger. the begging to be shot because you're so close to death. the sickening pleasure of imagining the feeling of the bullet shooting through your skull

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idek but he's been on my fucking nerves recently. keeps saying progressively offensive shit

when you tell a guy about your cocsa experience and the incestual intrusives you developed because of it and he makes jokes about how your sibling must've "wanted to be dominated by you" and insinuates they must've sexually enjoyed the physical abuse you'd subject them to as a kid

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not to mention the most uncomfortable complaints he makes about his ex in regards to their sex life. vent about the emotional complications but stop saying you're "fine not having sex" and then ranting about being blue balled the next. stop telling me you think sex is an emotionally involved experience. stop telling me what body parts are ugly and attractive. just stop fucking talking

when you tell a guy about your cocsa experience and the incestual intrusives you developed because of it and he makes jokes about how your sibling must've "wanted to be dominated by you" and insinuates they must've sexually enjoyed the physical abuse you'd subject them to as a kid

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when you tell a guy about your cocsa experience and the incestual intrusives you developed because of it and he makes jokes about how your sibling must've "wanted to be dominated by you" and insinuates they must've sexually enjoyed the physical abuse you'd subject them to as a kid