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Someday we can reunite and think about the past. For now we will live on with our life’s and randomly think about each other.

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I never thought I would have this warm happy feeling again!!!

I can’t help but stare at you and smile.

I enjoy spending time with you.

I love you!

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Slowly kissing me and telling me u love me, it’s the best💕. Letting me ramble on about my thoughts and emotions and then sharing and listening with me means a lot. Spending time with me is all I ask for but instead u gave me more💕

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“Sometimes I find myself thinking of you. But then I feel stupid but what can I do.”

4 years wasted huh. I appreciated every moment I was with you because I didn’t know when I would be able to see you again. I held on to our stupid relationship cause I thought that everything would be better at the end. I tried okay. I tried not to cry every night about the fact that your not here with me. I didn’t want to stay up and crying over everything wrong with our relationship. Instead I would distract myself with our future. OUR FUTURE! I love you, I always will. And just saying I’m thankful that you sat next to me in the bus. You were the reason I would look forward to school. I would see you every morning and every day after school. You and Emily were my only friends then, I lost both of you. So yeah I’m the bad guy. I’m the bad guy for having feelings. And you can go fuck your self too cause it’s your fault too.

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Little moments with you💞

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Omfg I feel like crying my eyeballs out! I feel so sad and I’m trying so hard not to cry. I’m holding it in showing a smile above it. I swear to god I feel like dying and it hurts me so much.

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I’m really sorry I haven’t been active and responding. I just feel like disappearing. I know it’s all bullshit but I’m sorry to any people who talk to me for pushing you away. I promise I will respond and give my you my full attention... life is just getting kinda sad again.

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“ I don’t belong here.”

“Why did I think this was going to be fun?”

“They don’t care about me.”

“Just leave they wouldn’t notice”

I say these things way to often when I’m around people.

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I feel like crying almost every day. When I want to cry nothing happens. It’s 3:31 AM and I feel like shit. I can’t sleep, I can’t cry, and I’m making myself more depressed with my thoughts. I wanted to run away just to see where it takes me. Just for a little bit.

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You know that one person sitting alone at parties. Or maybe you’ve seen that person looking all alone even though they’re with someone. That person will listen to anything you have to say because they care. They don’t say anything back because they think what they have to say is irrelevant. It bothers them talking to you because they feel like they are disturbing you. These type of people may seem happy but on the daily they want to burst into tears. Telling themselves things because they’re confused and depressed.

“You don’t belong here.”

“Why are you so weird?”

“Stop being shy and talk!”

“Why did you come here in the first place?”

“They wouldn’t notice if you left.”

“GET UP AND DO SOMETHING!”

“SAY SOMETHING Y YOU DUMB ASS!”

“They don’t care about your bullshit.”

“Just leave already.”

(This one was private because it was kinda confusing but it should be given a shot)

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I hate that feeling of not being wanted, not fitting in or cared about. When something astonishing happens to me I want tell someone but have the feeling that no one gives a shit. I don’t like the fact that I have to keep to myself and listen to others and care for them. Why do I even hang with people that treat me like shit? Some of them are nice people, I just feel uncomfortable with them. I guess it’s my fault.

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D o y o u e v e n l o v e m e ? ? ? ☼

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Your eyes get watery but you forget why?

You start to cry and cry.

Everyone looks at you.

Why are you refusing to tell them why you cry.

Tell them how you feel.

How empty and lonely this body and mind have turned.

Just please do something about this pain and sadness, it hurts.

No, instead you stay quiet.

You decide to keep everything to yourself.

Yourself is all you need, right?

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I feel comfortable in my own dreams