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Green-eyed French boy got me trippin' How your skin is always soft How your kisses always hit How you know just where to Green-eyed French boy got me trippin' On that accent off your lips How your tongue do all those tricks? How you know just where to

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I'd rather take my whiskey neat My coffee black and my bed at three You're too sweet for me You're too sweet for me

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I dreamt about Lee Changsub

I dreamt about Lee Changsub in a nap. He was my boyfriend in that dream. Lee Minhyuk is my ex-boyfriend. I distinguished in the dream that having Minhyuk as a boyfriend is kind of all out there. Having Changsub is laid-back. It's like with Minhyuk, he can take care of himself, that's why I let him go. I am with Changsub because I need to take care of him. That's how my love goes for both of them.

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“you’re my best friend, now i’ve got no one to tell i’ve lost my best friend.”

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20 Breaths

Meditation is simple. It is so simple that we invent all kinds of complications to make it more interesting. In zen, we like to get dressed up in robes, chant, bow, drink tea, and then sit in rows, on cushions, on mats, facing a wall. To meditate though, all you need is a mind and a few minutes to check it out.

A simple meditation technique involves counting breaths. The breath is a great focus for meditation, because it is always there. Whether we are meditating or not, we are breathing. In breath counting meditation, we notice our breath going in and going out and at the end of each exhale, we count. It takes about two minutes to breathe in and out twenty times. So, for a two minute meditation, simply count twenty breaths. Breathe in, breathe out, one. Breathe in, breathe out, two, and so on up to twenty...read more

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Controlling Anger

To control anger you have to pay attention to anger. It is a hard emotion to control because when it arises it takes over your mind, cutting off your reasoning ability and pushing you into angry action.

Angry action is generally destructive action, so a big part of controlling anger is controlling what we do when we are angry. We have to try to limit the destruction and harm our anger does to us and to others. It is like anger makes us radioactive. We need to limit how we expose others to our radiation and how long we endure it ourselves.  Recognizing the toxicity of our anger helps us to break its spell.

When you are under anger’s spell and you want to let it go, you can channel the angry energy into helpful actions. You can write about whatever is making you angry,  go for a walk, do some physical labor, do something constructive to burn it off. Figuring out where to channel your anger is the immediate safety plan. Changing your anger habit is the long-term approach.

To change your approach, pay attention to how much time you spend angry each day. From one day to the next, you spend a consistent amount of time being angry. Once you get a sense of how much of your life you spend angry, you can work on lowering it. Lowering the amount of time you spend angry is like quitting smoking. Your body will crave anger like a smoker’s body craves nicotine. The world will provide just enough problems to get you however much anger you are used to.

Also, pay attention to the situations that get you angry. As you become more familiar with the kinds of things you use to get angry about, you will be able to see them coming and make an effort to respond differently.  Anger seems like an involuntary response to situations, but when you learn how you get angry and become curious about how it arises, you will find that there is a brief opening, between when something happens and when anger begins. That opening allows you  to come up with a more aware response. For example, if you get road rage, you can notice when another driver makes a bonehead move and, instead of becoming enraged, notice the fear you feel for your safety. Instead of screaming, take a breath and wish for everybody on the road to be safe from accidents. 

With a strong anger habit, anger becomes an overused emotional response that overrides more subtle emotions. Anger often arises from feelings of fear or helplessness. As you practice approaching your anger with awareness, you will get better at feeling the more subtle, less comfortable emotions. Feelings of vulnerability may be less comfortable than flying off in a fit of rage, but those feelings are necessary and are less destructive to you and the people around you. 

When you act angry at people, defenses arise and they try to protect themselves. When you become sad around people, compassion arises and they try to comfort you. It is a great life skill to be able to control anger because, without that skill, anger will control you.

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Ride with me Slowly Kiss me dear Yeah I've been thinking 'bout you girl Just lean and $ip my Lip gloss girl

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tiktok is such an awful app, it's almost designed to feed you misinformation and expose you to insane discourse. unlike beloved tumblr, the app that feeds me misinformation and exposes me to insane discourse

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Kiki's Delivery Service | 魔女の宅急便 (1989) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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I found that the road leads home to you

I think I got it all from town to town

But I won't be comin' home to you

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if youre reading this then i havent deleted it from my queue which means ive succeeded in killing myself

lemme give you a moment to like put your hand over your mouth or cry or smth i dont know

okay this post isnt about my reasoning for taking my life and all its ~~potential~~~ im letting my reasons die with me, cause im afraid of being judged for them h aha how messed up is that this is all being typed just for the sake of it

mom + dad: i wish you wouldve noticed. but its not your fault, i promise. i know you loved me, and i love you too. im sorry for doing this to you guys.

elissa: i love you. youre my best friend and youre such an amazing person and youre going to be so successful and i love you. never stop writing, please, please. never forget to treat yourself with kindness.

jamie: i am so sorry we wont have our apartment together. that we wont run to each other in an airport or something, that i wont sing you to sleep again or snapchat you ridiculous things at 5 AM. you give me such happiness and i really really love you. thank you for being my QP, no matter how short our time was together.

hope: im so sorry. you were always always there for me when i reached out to you, you always knew what to say, and for that i thank you. you are so lovely and dear to my heart and you possess such incredible beauty. i adore you. ive always adored you. im sorry i wont get to see you be a mother, get your phd, im sorry well never drink together. you know i love you.

to those lovelies in hsph; thank you for everything. good group, best family.

to those who will say, “i wish i had gotten to know them better”, and to those who might romanticize me and erase my flaws because im dead; ew no dont.

my name was julia louise buencamino and my gender neutral name was lee. i was 15, assigned female at birth, and i identified as nonbinary(surprise mom and dad ive known i was trans since i was 13). panromantic demisexual, as of this moment, so yes dad i made out with a girl. (two. hi kristin and cheese!) (yall can bury me as a girl because i know how queerphobic this country is but know that i was never comfortable with being seen as one.)

i loved the ocean. i made glittar jars to calm myself down. i loved my hair and my laugh. i loved to act and sing. i started tumblr in 2012, roleplaying for rise of the guardians as sophie bennett. i loved, i loved, i loved to read. sometimes i was happy with my body, sometimes i hated it with every fiber of my being. i was not a girl. i cant pick a favorite character in haikyuu because i loved them too much. i stayed on twitter until 3 AM at least three times a week. i self harmed. i was here. i was too cowardly. and now im gone.

be kind to yourselves.

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Play Chess Online for Free with Friends & Family - Chess.com

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Resolutions for 2024

Leave disgusting behaviors behind, such as always checking social media accounts of people in your past. The past will stay in the past.

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Resolutions for 2024

Do not tolerate deluluness.

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If you ever go

All the songs that we like

Will sound like bittersweet lullabies

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Resolutions for 2024

Do not provide financial assistance anymore.

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Resolutions for 2024

I will not tolerate insensitivities. I will call out people posting, reposting, or sharing insensitive content. I know what it is insensitive because I am one myself.