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Happy

hi! owo i commit post and run good bye! ahahahha!

truthfully, this fic has been in my phone since before i even switched to a new one (so uhhh three years ago i think?). I only found it recently while cleaning up and rewrote it a little bit owo so enjoy my past obsession!

Pairing : Asra/Reader || Fandom : The Arcana

Word count : 675

Warning : Very!! Spoiler!! Heavy!! For Asra's Route!!!

Summary : Asra ponders about the past, the present and everything that is transpiring in his heart.

You were always a light sleeper.

At least, you used to be.

He didn’t know what was harder for him- losing you? Or having you here, when nothing could ever be the same as it was before?

You’d lost yourself when you went into the fire.

When he did what he did to make sure you came back. 

He dragged you out of the fire and back into the living world.

Only Asra didn’t realize that the one coming back wouldn’t be the whole…. you.

Of course it wouldn’t have been. He was naive to think otherwise- the whole you died in the fire, afterall.

The you who was with him - even with the same face, the same voice, the same appearance - the you who was with him just simply… wasn’t… you. Physically and outwardly, it might have been. A perfect replica even. But personality-wise? And on the inside? You were… different.

Different from what you used to be.

The puzzle pieces weren’t quiet there.

He could see so much of the you from before the fire, in the you that lay beside him every night but it wasn’t the same. Try as he might, it just wasn’t the same.

Sometimes he’d lay awake at night - his mind far too jumbled to allow his headspace to clear. The thoughts and theories in his head struggling to find a home for themselves - constantly buzzing and moving and regurgitating in and of itself. 

It wouldn’t allow sleep to claim him. 

And so on those nights, Asra would simply lay beside you - wanting nothing more than to reach out and tuck the stubborn lock of hair behind your ears, to wrap his arms around you as he sought refuge in your warmth, to whisper words of affection into your ear that would ultimately lead to your waking -

But he never does that.

Instead, the man simply lay there, observing the sleeping you who was oh so familiar and yet so different from the person who existed in his memories.

He missed you sometimes. Not you who was in front of him, but the you from the past.

The you who would startle awake when he was forcefully dragged from his slumber- nightmares nipping at his reality and causing him to be thrown into panice.

He missed the you who would wrap your arms around him, whispering soothing words into his ears until his breathing evened and his heart rate calmed.

He missed the you who would pamper him, pushing him back under the covers as you busied yourself to take over his task for the day. Sweet smiles and heavenly laughter falling from your lips as you handed him a cup of warm tea. Murmurs of affection, a press of the lips and the drifting scent of your shampoo as you headed to open up shop.

It was unfair.

Truly, wholly and wholeheartedly unfair.

Not only of the world for taking you away from him - but of him to you; for his constant comparison of who you were in the past and who you are in the present.

You were still you, after all. Regardless of how you looked or how you acted, everything was still tied to you. After all the pain and trouble the both of you had went through, you were here and he should be happy.

He should be happy.

Asra reached a hand out, brushing your bangs away from your face as he stared at your sleeping visage. He didn’t know how long he was staring for - the prick in his eyes and the ache in his heart both not being an indicator of time. His eyelids - heavy with sleep and mired with fatigue- however, was.

As he slowly closed his eyes - as he slowly let his arms fall - his last thoughts echoed once more in his brain.

He should be happy.

Shouldn’t he…?

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BunLi

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On the topic of

Yahooo! Its been a while :DD I kinda fell off the writing wagon so that explains why I haven’t been around- don’t know when and if I’ll be back for good but for now :DD I come bearing a long ass headcanon brainrot post! Enjoy!!

Also,,, //waves vaguely at Kaeya’s part// idek what happened there i blacked out and it was done so uhhhhh enjoy??

On the topic of :

[ Touch ] ft. Zhongli, Xiao, Kaeya

Song(s) listened to while writing : Tokyo (instrumental) by RM, ECHO cover by Mafumafu ft. Nqrse

Zhongli

* I firmly believe this man is touch starved you cannot convince me oTHERWISE

* He fully leans into this trait of his, not shying away from physical affection even when the two of you are still friends

* Whenever you’re with him, you’ll find his hand gently circling your wrist - guiding you forward to a place that he wants to show you. A hand on your elbow as he gently pulls you up from  a rocky cliffside climb. A hand on the back of your waist, careful not to lose you in the crowds of Liyue.

* Zhongli is and has always been gentle with his touches - a trait that collided with his archon title but it was a pleasant surprise nonetheless.

* His favourite way of greeting you is torn between pressing his lips on the back of your hand or kissing strands of your hair as he smiles up at you

* The love this man holds in his heart is simply too much for him to bear alone so every chance he gets, he expresses his affection through physical touches - even before the two of you were an item

* It gets worse (?) once you become his partner though

* He’s clingy when the two of you are in the confines of your own home - preferring to have you in his lap as he presses his lips against your skin

* its nothing sexual really- he just likes the feel of your warmth against his. So much so that he sometimes just speaks against your skin, hoping the words are audible enough so that he wouldn’t have to part from your warmth

* He likes having you in his lap - its easiest for him to bury his face in your neck and circle his arms around your waist, posture relaxing as you run your hand through his scalp.

* he wraps around you so much that when he has to go a certain period of time without your touch or your presence around, he starts instinctively reaching into the spaces where you would be; looking around the crowds to see where you had gone, waiting for you to wrap your arms around him whenever he came home early from work, expecting you to be in bed when he came out of the shower-

* Needless to say, you’re not gonna be leaving his embrace for a while after :’) just until he gets his fix :’)

 Xiao

* Xiao, like Zhongli, is also touch-starved but, unlike the old archon, he does not lean into it. Or rather, he thinks he hates being touched but he subconsciously does lean into it and if your eyes are sharp enough, you can pick up on his little habits.

* For the longest time, Xiao wont want to bother with things like affection or physical touches. He prefers to keep his hands to himself and prefers you do the same.

* It isn’t until one day, when you forcefully grabbed his hand to give him the little merchandise you picked up on your travels that reminded you of him, did he got thrown for a loop

* the feel of your warmth seeping through the fabric of his gloves has him????

* But alas, the feeling was fleeting and Xiao didn’t get the chance to process his feelings right up until you fell asleep against his shoulder

* Xiao stares at your sleeping form, hand subconsciously moving to brush the hair out of your face - the back of his hand slowly gliding across your cheek and, again, the familiar warmth of you seeping into his skin

* and then he freezes.

* Realizing that he, perhaps, likes the feeling of having you close a little too much.

* He’s so caught up in his own turmoil that he doesn’t notice you waking - you opening your eyes to the sight of him staring directly at you, hand on your cheek and head leaned close.

* He tenses when you call his name, pupils dilating as he stares into your eyes. A beat. Two beats. He mumbles a quiet apology but his movements is sluggish - almost reluctant to part from your warmth as he sits back and clears his throat.

* Things change slightly after. He becomes more open to physical touches - never initiating, but always lingering. Slow parting movements, eyes staring a little too long, very very subtle hints of acceptance.

* It’ll take a while for you to pick up on the change but please shower this man in affection when you do - even if he denies that he wants such a thing :’)

 Kaeya 

* The definition of the “At first I was like mMmHhmM physical affection as a joke but bro….I don’t think its a joke anymore,,,,,” meme

* Unlike the two, Kaeya is indecisive on where he stands. Its hard to grasp what he really wants unless he’s the one initiating it and even then you still have to decipher what it is he wants

* Playful, fleeting touches - touches that are meant to draw attention and to invoke a flutter in your chest is Kaeya’s game. He knows very well how to use his charms and will use it when necessary - so it isn’t a surprise that he would do this with you at the beginning of your acquaintanceship.

* “its to get you to warm up to me” he says, cheeky smile on his handsome face and your heart just jumps to outer space rip you

* He’s super casual with how he touches you - respectful, yes, but still very casual. And if you squint, very suggestive.

* a brush of a hand against your thigh, fingertips dancing across your skin as he moves your hair away, pulling your closer to his person by the waist - every touch of his is calculated so that he can make you the most flustered he can while feigning innocence

* it isn’t until he realizes his feelings for you does he put on the clown wig and reels his touches back

* Suddenly he’s aware of every brush of your skin against his; losing his composure and his sanity everytime you accidentally brush against him

* He doesn’t realize this, but sometimes his gaze lingers on your hand - its his most favourite part afterall. He wonders how close he could stand beside you while the two of you walked - just close enough so your hand would brush against his. Close enough so he could grab them and intertwi-

* “Kaeya?” he blinks. Oh. O h. He was already standing at your front door. When did that happen?

* “You okay? You’ve been dozing out the whole time,” you reach out to touch his cheek, wondering where his mind went to. His eye - eyes that were hazy with thoughts of you - suddenly cleared and Kaeya felt his muscles tensing at your touch

* He inhales shakily, staggering backwards as a he presses a hand to his lips - he’s losing his composure he’s losing his composure he’s losing his composURE

* Gone is the charismatic cavalry captain - the person who stands before you is none other than Kaeya - sweet genuine Kaeya whose heart swells with affection for you. So much so that he couldn’t stand it

* He leaves, a stuttered ‘good night’ falling from his lips as he basically ran away from the scene; he disappears for a bit after too and when he returns, he disregards your yells of concern and just-

* falls

* falls into your arm and into you embrace, burying his face in the crook of your neck and holding you impossibly close to his own person. A mumbled confession, a sheltered apology, a gentle press of his lips-

* Kaeya finds himself seeking your touch afterwards - flickers of hesitancy colouring his actions at times, but easily mend-able once you reach out for his hand

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Friday! I'm enjoying the new events. I got tartag day one :)

wAIT THIS IS OLD IM GOMEN I DIDNT SEE THIS BUT AAAAYYY CONGRATS ON THE CHILD!!! :DDD did you pull from the new banner too? 👀👀👀 

i kinda wanna save for pretty boi kazuha but hhhhhh zhongli const,,,, and eula my queen god my primos are in danger TT TT

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Not quite here anymore but I dropped by and saw Friday needed some coin!! Gomen this is late but aaaaaa everyone help out if you can!! and that includes reblogging too, thank you!!

I am opening my commissions for the first time now. Encountering some crappy financial distress (about $300 short for my upcoming bills, moving into a new apartment so everything's expensive as hell), so I've got quite a few slots open. DM me for information, or email me at babyjones789@gmail.com.

Thanks for the consideration! 🥰 Please reblog this around.

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Friday here. My thoughts and prayers are with u lmfao I hope u get himmmm 🤣😭🙏

OH- I FORGOT TO REPLY GDI FSDHJNGDS

so update : i didnt get vents. i’m also not hoping for a childe but i got c3 benny earlier this week so i’m not gonna be pulling until next week i think pft- i wanna pamper my baby more before i have to focus on someone else uuwuu

how are you finding the new event, friday? 👀👀

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Friday here. Just wanted to update u. Last we spoke, I have Venti (no constellations). I had a miracle 3 5star pull and a spare $30 after that, and now I have Venti c4

C?? C4??? VENTI??? CONGRATULATIONS BUT ALSO FRIDAY OPEN YOUR LOCATION, I JUST WANNA T A L K !!!!

hhhhh all around me are venti havers oh my god- wish me luck onegai TT TT im gonna attempt my last pull for vents and if he doesnt come home,,,,, its childe’s pity then f you ventilator-

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lumi💜

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Hola! Could you do being razors best friend? 😻

aaaaAAAA IM SORRY I TOOK SO LONG!! and its short too cause im actually finding it hard to write for Razor i?? who knew!! anyways, enjoy! :D

* Lupical? Lupical.

* Contrary to Kaeya’s bestie’s confusion, Razor is the one confused about your relationship with him - especially at the beginning!

* He lives?? so far away?? and this human person is making all this (honestly dangerous) effort to befriend him here?? wow he protecc!!

* the two of you kinda just rely on each other?? like razor isn’t all book smarts but he’s street/survival smart!! so whenever you two hang outside, he’s going to teach you whatever he can!! and he’ll keep you safe! uwu

* on the other hand, razor kinda sorta relies on you to learn how to function while around other people- he hasn’t really spent much time around others and he’s still learning the ropes so he appreciates having you around :’)

* also picnics are a regular thing!! sometimes its just the two of you- sometimes its with Bennett and Barbara- either way!! Razor just likes to spend time with you outside,,, chilling, rolling in the grass and eating- what a good way to bond :’)

* if you ask him to, Razor will bring you to all the pretty spots around Mond’s outskirts :DD he knows all these places like the back of his hand and would gladly bring you along!

* if he finds a place that he thinks you’d like to visit, he’d also ask if he could bring you there because our bby is respectful asf uwu

* he makes tiny gifts for you now and again :’) almost all the time, its food. sometimes its a bracelet. sometimes its flower crowns- he picks up things quite well so it only takes one time of teaching him something for him to be able to do it so :’)

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headers from xiao’s story domain, feel free to use them however you want

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Friday here

I have Hu Tao C4, Xiao c1, Ganyu c1, Qiqi c4, Jean c1, Bennet full c, Mona c2, and Keqing c1. Venti & Zhongli are no c :( but I have them. When will Diluc join the family? :(:(:(

th-thats a lot of constellations i-??? what kind of luck do you have oh my god fRIDAY SPARE ME SOME PLEASE!!! VENTI REFUSES TO COME HOME AND IM ON MY KNNEEESSS AAAAAAAA

and!! i hope you get deewook soon ;; ;; please pull him for the both of us, i want him to come home too TT TT

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Hu huuu~ Friday stalks you from blog to blog

welcome to the new home, Friday!! enjoy me crying over the genshinies once every full moon fgdhsfdsg

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thoughts of the day:

razor loves making friendship bracelets. ever since someone taught him how to make them, he’s been making them on a daily basis. for who, you ask? anyone who wants them — bennett and klee, chongyun and xingqiu, and of course, you.

zhongli can immediately tell when hu tao hasn’t had a good day. she’s unusually quiet, and the light in her eyes has dimmed. whenever this happens, he’ll quickly steep a pot of her favorite tea and hand a cup of it to her wordlessly, the warm kindness in his eyes not once breaking.

bennett likes to sleep with at least three blankets covering him — the more, the better. he’s not necessarily cold, he actually tends to run a bit warm. the extra warmth just gives him a sense of comfort he’s been seeking for a long time.

xinyan and fischl get very close after meeting just once. they have numerous similarities, after all — both being judged for how they speak, both being outcasts, both lonely. with each other, though, there’s no judgement — only laughter and broad smiles.

venti likes to watch the sunrise once in a while, wistfully playing his flute as the birds seem to sing along with him. his song is emotional, full of longing; a certain adeptus listens in the shadows, unknowing that he is the one venti is playing for.

every year on his birthday, kaeya finds a neatly wrapped gift on his doorstep. it’s always something simple, something he knows he’ll use — one year it’s a new quill for writing, the next it’s a golden compass. whenever he’s asked about it, he’ll shrug and claim he has no idea who sends them. he laughs and says he must have a secret admirer. the mysterious gift giver is quite obvious to him, though — the wrapping always has a faint smell of wine and smoke. it smells like home.

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i wonder how many of you are aware of the blog change and decided to keep following anyway fbdsghgds

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since you wanna write for Obey Me, how about some fluff on mammon and MC dating, but she's decided to stay on the human world? 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

dgvbshfjsdfd this was from before i changed my blog to genshin so anon, if you’re still around, i hope this satisfies you 🥺🥺 i definitely didn’t just look through my older drafts and found this completed nope nuh uh-

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* you bet your ass there’s gonna be a lot of calls – video calls, voice calls, any calls honestly!!! Sometimes mammon just calls to hear you going about your day (because yeah he misses you, so what?!)

* sometimes, when he thinks you’re asleep or not paying attention, mammon will murmur things of affection like how he misses having you around and how he can’t sleep well these days because you’re not here

* “hm? Should I arrange a trip back with Luci?” “w-w-WAIT YOU HEARD THAT-???” “Mammon, its not like I’m sleeping with my workload, yknow?”

* and you’d laugh and god he missed your laugh – he wanted to be in the same room as you so he can soak in the warmth of that laugh and watch how precious you are while you had your head turned away from him

* mammon doesn’t do good with long distance relationships- he craves physical affection so not having you by his side so that he can drape himself over you whenever he wants takes its toll on him

* the boy gets into more trouble without you around and its definitely because he’s trying to distract himself from the absence of you

* even though the both of you arranged to meet at certain times (eg. Once every two weeks or once a month etc), mammon will come up with whatever excuse he can to pop by your side (“It’s because you’re not sleeping well that the Great Mammon had to come here and take care of you!! dumb human!!”)

* on the weeks that you do arrange to meet, Mammon would be beaming the entire week. He’s like a kid that gets told they can have anything they want from the candy store gfgdhgsd

* the whole time the two of you are together, mammon has his hands on you at all times – whether that be around your waist as he guides you around, hugging you when the two of you meet, holding your hand as pull him in whatever direction you want, whatever!! He’s there for the physical closeness babeeeehhh!!

* probably gave you a promise ring of some kind tbh- maybe even one of the rings on his finger so you “can remember the great mammon!!”

* mammon just!! Likes having you wear something of his okay!! it makes him feel connected to you even with the distance and the pact

* He’ll probably charm the thing too- so that its connected to him somehow because he gets lowkey anxious when you’re away umu how can this tiny human protecc themselves without the great Mammon around??

* having something of yours is also a bonus because mammoney will cry lmao soft ass demon boiyo-

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I forgot to post it here, but Xiao came home three times. Maybe he feels happy with his party.

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#E3A13F | ZHONGLI.

genre | angst, platonic relationship

word count | 1532

warning | mention of death, mention of blood, mention of injuries​

note | practicing angst because i am not good at it.

second to your death, watching liyue harbor fall apart is certainly the worst despair zhongli has felt in a long while.

disregarding his deteriorating health, one which he could feel along his veins where his blood was having immense trouble pumping to fuel his heart, zhongli limped his way through the destroyed city once warm and harmonious.

he looked through his scraped eyes—one hit by an arrow made out of peculiar red blocks, which he pulled out, and the other barely allowing him vision due to his dying body. fallen buildings, injured people, fire and debris, crying children, dead children, the blood of monsters slain by the adepti; to a certain level, bitter and haunted his heart was becoming, he was glad he could not see very well the destruction an unknown power, an unknown god has brought upon liyue harbor.

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