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Rumor: Yeo One Angst

A/N: Here’s a request for a Changgu one shot with the prompt “I want an answer Goddamn it” 

OOH sounds like some angst is about to go down! I hope you like it! I’m so sorry it’s taken me so long as well. I have been dealing with some medical stuff but hopefully I’ll be getting back into the swing of things soon!

Warnings: Cursing

Clothes were scattered across the room. The flowers Changgu had gotten me earlier in the week were now on the floor, littered with glass shards that once formed their vase. What started as a normal night in changed drastically when Changgu asked me why I was being so distant. I wouldn’t tell him, and kept skirting around the subject, which only made him frustrated and upset.

I wasn’t ready. The rumors made me angry. I needed time to process what was going on, and I still wasn’t ready to confront him with how I was feeling. I needed time, and my distance from him made him so upset that we got into a screaming match.

“Why wont you tell me why you’re being like this? What have I done to you to deserve the cold shoulder?” He asked, almost pleading at this point.

“Changgu, please don’t” My own voice cracking at the end of the phrase. My emotions were all over the place and I was exhausted from the fighting. Tears stung my eyes but I held them back and stood my ground “I refuse to do this with you right now”

He paced the floor, his hands in his hair before he finally snapped. “What the fuck do you want from me Y/N? I have done everything in my power to be good to you just to get tossed aside. What the hell is going on? I want an answer Goddamn it! I Deserve that much!”

I shook my head in disgust and lowered my tone. Instead of screaming at him, I was going to tell him exactly what he wanted, and I was going to leave. I had enough.

“Fine. You want an answer? Here’s your answer. Two weeks ago, I was informed by a close friend that had heard rumors that you cheated.”

I watched his face fall. He looked as if he got punched in the stomach, but instead of giving him a chance to speak, I continued.

“I’ve been distant these last two weeks because I needed time to process what happened. I kept telling myself that you didn’t do it. I kept telling myself to just let it go, but the more you were around me, the angrier and more depressed I got. I needed time before I was ready to talk to you about it.”

“Y/N, Please. I didn’t…”

I held my hand up, because at this point, I didn’t care if he cheated or not. I needed to go. I needed to get away from him even if it was just for one night.

“Changgu, right now I don’t care if you did or didn’t. I am far too upset to rationalize anything with you right now.” I walked to my room and grabbed my overnight bag, stuffing some sleep clothes and other necessities into it before zipping it shut. I threw it onto my back and grabbed my purse. Changgu was still standing in the middle of the room, tears brimming his eyes. He didn’t know what to do or say, and as much as I loved him, I knew I had to leave.

“I’m going to my sisters for the night. I need to clear my head, but if things are better for me tomorrow, I’ll call you and we can talk. I love you, but I can’t do this tonight.

Without giving him a chance to reply, I walked out, leaving him with his thoughts. I hoped things would be better tomorrow, but for now I needed time and so did he.

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Distant-Wooseok Angst/Fluff

A/N: This is a request from the prompt list with numbers 40 and 26.this got way more angsty than I thought it would but I hope you like it!

Warnings: very mild drinking mention. 

I shifted in my seat, attempting to get comfortable in the small theater chairs. The movie was about to start, and I was uncomfortably squeezed between Yanan and Shinwon. I loved them to death, but since they’re both so broad, they take up a lot of space. I thought that Wooseok was going to sit next to me, but he let everyone else into the aisle after I walked in, and somehow, I got stuck in the middle.

I looked down the aisle at him and raised my eyebrow and he just shrugged in response. We’ve been best friends since we were kids, but lately things have been weird between us.

Little touches and cuddles that we used to have don’t happen anymore, he stops texting me half way through the conversation and I don’t know why, and lately he will only go out and do stuff with me if we are with other Pentagon members. It’s so frustrating because I feel like I’m losing my best friend and I don’t know what is going on.

I turned my attention away from him and watched the movie, but my thoughts were swirling in my mind and it was making it hard to focus on the film.

We all went to dinner after the movie and the same thing happened. I went to sit next to Wooseok, only this time he made some kind of lame excuse and ended up trading seats with Yuto.

I sighed loudly and rolled my eyes.

“What’s wrong Y/N?” Yuto asked as he placed his arm around my shoulder.

“Nothing important.” I replied, casually shrugging him off of me. I looked down to the end of the table and noticed Wooseok staring at the interaction Yuto and I just had. He looked like something was bothering him, but when he made eye contact with me, he quickly looked down to his menu. I was getting very annoyed by this point and glared at him, which caught Hui’s attention.

Hui cleared his throat and looked at me, a confused look plastered on his face as if to ask me what was going on. I shook my head and looked down at my menu to decide what I was having.

Dinner went by without any incident, and we all headed back to the dorm to hang out. Kino and Hongseok decided they were going to play bartender and make us some drinks while we sat around and talked.

Drinks were flowing, and everyone was laughing and telling stories. I was listening attentively to the story E’Dawn was telling. Apparently one day, a few months ago, Yeo One was sleeping and Wooseok put a fake cockroach in his bed. When he woke up, he screamed at the top of his lungs, fell off the bed, and cried. Everyone thought it was the funniest thing, so they all started cracking up laughing.

I looked around the room and noticed that my best friend was missing.

“Hey where did Wooseok go?” I asked, scanning the room

“Oh, he went to his room about 20 minutes ago. I don’t know what’s gotten into him lately.” Jinho replied, shrugging his shoulders.

I don’t know why I let that get to me, but it did. Why didn’t he want to be around me? What the hell was going on? I was frustrated all over again, but this time I’m doing something about it.

I excused myself from the group and headed towards Wooseok’s room. I stopped and took a deep breath before knocking on the door.

“Come in” I heard from the other side of the door, so I opened it.

“Hey, can we talk?” I asked, standing in front of him.

He was sitting on the edge of his bed and nodded when I asked him. He patted his bed to gesture me to sit then moved to the far end giving us ample space.

“Why do you do that?” I groaned, annoyed at the situation.

“Do what?” He asked timidly. He was acting so strange around me and it was starting to worry me.

“That. Where you always make sure there’s a ton of space between us. You’re my best friend and we would always either hang on each other or sit next to each other or cuddle. What is going on? Something is different, and I can’t say that I like it.” I explained, letting my frustrations out.

He laughed at my questions and shook his head, which only made me more agitated.

“I’m glad you think this is funny, because I certainly don’t. I feel like I’m losing my best friend and you think it’s a big joke.” I scoffed, crossing my arms in front of me.

When Wooseok saw how hurt I really was, he stopped.

“Wow, you really don’t know, do you?” He asked, his demeanor softening a bit.

“Know what? All I know is that my best friend has been avoiding me for the last few weeks. What else is there to know?” I retorted as I uncrossed my arms and placed my hands in my lap.

Wooseok looked at the ground and rubbed his temples before continuing.

“I never stood a chance, did I?” He sighed before looking at me.

“Wooseok what are you talking abou-”

He placed a hand in front of him to stop me from speaking

“I saw you and Yuto earlier, the way he had his arm around you, and how close you were talking. I thought that would be me, but I guess that you didn’t love me the same way I loved you.” He shook his head and placed his hands on his knees, acting like he was going to stand.

I felt like my heart was in my throat. So many thoughts were going through my head at one time that I couldn’t think of what to say fast enough. All I could do is hold out my hands and stop Wooseok from getting up and leaving.

“Wait!” I practically yelled, “W-what?! You love me? Like, in l-love with me?” I managed to stutter out.

“I thought it was obvious. The only reason I was so awkward was because I knew you didn’t feel the same way.”

I don’t know why, but for some reason a wave of emotion took over me. How dare he assume that I didn’t love him back. How dare he not know that I was madly in love with him.

I stood up and paced the room for a moment before responding.

“You knew I didn’t feel the same way?! Damnit Wooseok, why wouldn’t you just ASK me?” I yelled in frustration. Tears were threatening in the corners of my eyes, but I tried to keep my composure.

“We have been best friends since we were in diapers. You should know me well enough by now to know that I don’t like Yuto that way. He’s another one of my really close friends, but I don’t feel that way about him. There’s only one person I’m in love with, and I’m looking right at him.” I said, staring him in the face.

A look of shock was plastered across Wooseok’s face as he was processing the information.

“You… You love me?” He asked softly, like he was having a hard time processing the information.

“Of course I do. I’ve been in love with you for a long time now, I just never admitted it.” I said sheepishly, looking down at my hands. “It was you the whole time.”

I waited for a moment to see what Wooseok would say, but instead he took one of my hands in his and with the other hand, he gently lifted my chin to get me to look at him.

My heart was racing as he tucked a hair behind my ear and ran a finger along my jawline.

“I love you too.” He said softly before he leaned in and kissed me gently. I quickly reciprocated, deepening the kiss a little, taking him by surprise. We broke the kiss after a few moments so we could catch our breath.

“Woah” He breathed, placing his forehead against mine. “That was better than I could’ve ever imagined”

I giggled softly as he interlaced his fingers with mine.

“What are we going to tell the boys? We’ve been in here for a while now.  I’m honestly surprised they haven’t come knocking on the door.” I asked as I walked towards the door.

Suddenly we heard shuffling on the other side of Wooseok’s door and could hear the boys as they headed back towards the living room, obviously eavesdropping on our conversation.

“It sounds like they already know” Wooseok laughed before hugging me from behind. He kissed my temple and we stood there for a few moments before heading back out to the living room.

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Lie to me-Kino Angst

A/N: Here’s a request from the writing prompts for Kino! I hope you like it! 

Warnings: None Word count:1038 

I sat at the table, blankly staring into my coffee cup. The world was bustling around me, but all I could focus on was the remaining foam atop my latte. I didn’t really want to be here, but I made a promise to someone that I would meet them. I arrived early so I could have time to think about the words I wanted to say, but nothing seemed to be playing out right in my head.

I’ve been trying the last few weeks to wrap my head around everything that has happened recently. Between the fighting, asking for space, then inevitably the breakup, things have been extremely difficult.

I’ve forced myself to come to terms with a few things that I never expected to, replayed old arguments in my head over and over, wondering what I could’ve done wrong, and beat myself up over things I shouldn’t have.

My thoughts were interrupted by someone pulling out the chair across from me. I was startled for a moment, but when I looked around and realized where I was, I settled. A pair of kind eyes and a soft smile greeted me as I looked at the man sitting across from me.

“Hey” He said softly.

“Kino. It’s good to see you” I said with a small, hopefully convincing smile.

“How have you been?” He asked, tilting his head to the side and reaching his hands out for mine.

I withdrew my hands and fiddled with my coffee cup on instinct. I didn’t want to mislead him, and I honestly wasn’t sure how things were going to go during this meeting.

“I’ve been better to be honest, how about you?” I replied. We were quickly interrupted by the barista as he called out Kino’s drink order.

Kino quickly excused himself to go get his drink. He came back to his seat and we picked up the conversation where we left off.

“I’ve been really good, busy but good. I’m sorry things aren’t going as well as you would’ve hoped. I’ve missed you though, a lot.” He replied before taking a sip of his americano.

“I’ve missed you too, and it’s okay, I’ve just been working through a lot and it’s been frustrating for me. It’s taken me a lot more time than I expected, but I’m slowly getting better.” I explained.

He reached his hand across for mine again, and this time he succeeded in grabbing my hand. My heart began to race like it used to, and I really did miss him, but I’m just not ready to get back into a relationship with him again. My thoughts began to overtake me and I panicked, pulling my hand away from him .

“I’m making you uncomfortable, aren’t I?” he asked, a frown replacing the smile that was there just moments ago.

“No no it’s not that it’s just… I’m nervous.” I explained, trying to save face.

“Why are you nervous? You’ve known me a long time.” He asked, trying to make sense of all of this. “I’m still the same Kino.”

A heavy sigh left my lips. “I know, and that’s part of what I’m afraid of. We didn’t end things well. I blamed myself for a lot of things after we broke up. I still blame myself for a lot of it actually.”

He closed his eyes and shook his head. “Why are you blaming yourself? You didn’t do anything wrong. Between my hectic work schedule and the stresses of the job, I didn’t treat you fairly. We would probably still be together if I didn’t treat you the way that I did, and I’m so sorry I was like that. I’ve been going to therapy to help find ways to manage the stress and the members have been helping me get through a lot as well. That’s why I wanted to meet with you, to apologize for the things that I’ve put you through. I’m so sorry.”

A wave of relief washed over me when I heard him say those words. I was still apprehensive about everything that was going on, but to hear him admit fault for some things that happened helped.

“I also wanted to ask you what you thought about trying this again. Maybe hanging out more often, going on dates, starting over?” he said, almost making me choke on my latte.

“Kino I…. I don’t know”. I responded, looking away from him.

His brow furrowed in confusion.

“I just don’t know if I’m ready yet” I shrugged.

“Baby, I know things have been hard, but we can get through this. Please let me show you how much I’ve changed. Let me take care of you the way you deserve.” He almost begged. I could hear the pain in his voice, but I was still hurting too much.

I thought about the life we could have. All of the cuddles, the kisses, the time we could spend together. It all sounded wonderful. A small smile stretched across my face as I imagined it all, but I was quickly brought back to reality.

“I can’t Kino. I’m sorry, I just need a little more time.”

He nodded, but he was visibly upset. “I understand.”, he uttered. “Can you just think about it and let me know?”, he asked, hopeful for a positive response.

“I can’t promise that we will ever be the same after what happened. I can’t promise I’m going to come back to you.” I explained, tears stinging my eyes.

“Lie to me then. Tell me that you’ll think about it and that you hope we will be together soon. Tell me you loved me. Please give me some kind of hope, because I’m miserable without you.” He begged, placing his head in his hands.

I stood up and walked over to where he was. I placed a hand on his back to console him and he looked up at me.

“I did love you. Part of me still does. I just need more time. When I’m ready, I’ll call. All I can do is hope that you’re still there waiting for me. I’m so sorry Kino.” I said before walking out the door and getting in the taxi to take me home.

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Bookstore Encounter-Hongseok Scenario

A/N: Here’s a request for a Hongseok scenario from the prompt list. I hope you like it! Thank you so much for being patient with me! 

Warnings: None Word count:1124

“Thank you” I said to the cashier as I grabbed my bubble tea from the counter.

My best friend and I were spending some time together in the park and decided to stop to get some bubble tea before she had to leave. She stole my drink, taking a sip of it before letting me try hers.

“Damn, I should’ve gotten what you have. It’s so good” She said, trying to take another drink of mine.

“Hey, I told you, Taro is absolutely the best one they have. You should’ve listened to me.” I replied, snatching my drink back from her.  “Just make sure you get it next time, so you aren’t stealing all of mine.”

She laughed and brushed off my remark. We chatted for a few more minutes and said our goodbyes, then she left to meet up with her boyfriend.

I sat and enjoyed my bubble tea for a few more minutes before venturing back out into the park. I had walked for quite some time, but the sweltering heat was starting to get to me. I knew I needed to go somewhere cool, so I found a nearby bookstore. Spending some time reading in the cool air would be a great way to spend the day.

I walked in, the cool air creating an instant rush of relief. I spent some time browsing the shelves before finally settling on a new release that caught my eye. I purchased the book and headed over to the large section of comfortable seating and found a spot to sit.

I got comfortable and started reading. I was about four chapters in when I heard a familiar voice nearby.

No. It can’t be.

I peeked overtop of my book, using it as a shield as I looked around the room for him. Unfortunately for me, I wasn’t sneaky enough, and he spotted me.

“Damnit” I mumbled under my breath. Why couldn’t I just keep my head in my book. Why did I have to look around?

He headed over to where I was sitting, a large smile plastered across his face.

“Y/N? How have you been?” He asked as he ran his hand through his newly dyed silver hair.

Ever since Pentagon announced their newest comeback, that’s all I’ve seen. Hongseok’s face plastered on multiple billboards, buses, and subway stations with the rest of the members as well. I’ve tried like hell to avoid him, but apparently the universe has other plans.

I saved my place with a bookmark and sat my book on my lap. I smiled at him, trying to be nice.

“Hey Hongseok, how are you?” I said enthusiastically, but internally I was anxious.  

“I’ve been doing well, how about you?” he said, his tone reflecting mine. “Do you mind if I sit next to you and chat for a while? I was hoping we could catch up.”

I hesitated for a moment “I don’t know if that’s such a great idea.” I mumbled. I started to pack my things to leave, but I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard the tone in his voice change.

“Y/N Please, please just stay for a few minutes. If you don’t like what I have to say, you can leave. But please just hear me out.” He begged.

A loud sigh escaped my lips, and I caved. I always caved when it came to Hongseok. That’s why we are in the situation we are in now.

I gestured him to sit in the chair next to me and turned to face him.

“Okay fine, lets hear it” I said, probably sounding more annoyed than I actually was.

“I’m sorry things ended the way they did. I should’ve taken your feelings into consideration instead of just leaving. I thought I was doing what was best for the both of us, but I couldn’t have been more wrong. Nothing is the same without you around.”

I scoffed. I was about to say something in response, but he kept explaining.

“I can’t sleep. I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in months. I haven’t been eating well. Hui forces me to eat most of the time, just so I can function. The smell of your perfume lingers in my brain, and some days I swear I can still smell it.  I still remember the way you taste. It’s maddening.”

“Then why did you leave?” I asked, “and why are you telling me this now, months later?”

He sighed and ran his hands down his face before he answered. “Because I’m a coward. I left because I thought that it would make things easier. I knew that with my busy schedule I would barely see you, and I didn’t want to put you through that kind of hurt. I just wanted you to be happy, and I didn’t think that me being gone all the time was going to make things easy, so I left. I thought I would spare you the heartache.” He explained as he looked at me. “But apparently I hurt you more than I thought.”

He reached out a hand and touched my face, wiping away a tear from my cheek. I didn’t even realize I was crying until that point.

“I am willing to do whatever it takes to fix it. And I’m so sorry I hurt you. Would you give me another chance?” he asked, his eyes filled with sorrow.

“I have been miserable for the last 4 months, and you’re just now telling me all of this? Why didn’t you call? The only goodbye I got was a note on my kitchen counter and my spare key. How are you going to fix it?” I asked, unconvinced that he was going to be able to fix anything between us.

“I don’t know all of that yet, but If you give me another chance, I’ll do everything I can to make it right. No more running. No leaving you behind. If we do this, we do it together. Please, please give me another chance.”

I gathered my things and placed them into my bag. I pulled out a pen, and on the back of my receipt I wrote down an address and handed it to Hongseok.

“What’s this?” He asked, a confused look plastered on his face.

“Meet me there at 8pm tomorrow night. You get one date. We will talk about things from there if it goes well.” I said before I stood up and headed for the door.

“It’s a date!” I heard him call out behind me as I walked away.

A small smile creeped across my face as I opened the door to leave. This could be the start of something amazing. Only time will tell.

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Masterlist

🔞-smut  ⛈-angst 💓-fluff

Jinho- Trapped ⛈💓

Hui

Hongseok-Bookstore Encounter ⛈ , Part 2(Coming soon)

E’Dawn

Shinwon

Yeo One

Yanan- New Arrival 💓 Yes,Mommy 🔞

Yuto- The Beast 🔞

Kino- Lie to Me ⛈

Wooseok- Distant ⛈💓

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New Arrival- Yanan Fluff

A/N: Here’s a short Yanan fluff  for you. I hope you enjoy :)

Word count: 483 

I opened my eyes to complete darkness. I had no idea what time it was, so I reached for my phone.

“Ugh 3:30 am” I grumbled, squinting my eyes from the brightness of my screen.

I rolled out of bed with great difficulty and stood up, when a sharp pain shot through my abdomen.

“I know baby I know, please stop kicking my bladder baby boy” I complained, rubbing my large belly in attempts to settle my unborn son.

It had been a long day and I was hoping to get a full night’s rest, but little man had other plans. He had been kicking until about 1am when I finally dozed off, only to be woken up two hours later.

I slowly waddled to the bathroom when I noticed the light was still on for the nursery.

My first thought was to check and see what was going on, but I desperately needed to pee, and if I didn’t go right away I knew I’d end up peeing myself.

As soon as I was finished I headed to the nursery. The walls were now a beautiful light gray with a turquoise accent wall behind the crib. Decorations adorned the walls that weren’t there before and the rocking chair was put together in the corner with a blanket covering the back.

I was so enamored with how good the room looked that I didn’t notice my husband curled up in the middle of the floor, arms covered in paint and snoring lightly.

“Baby” I said softly, trying to nudge him with my foot.

“Yanan” I said a little louder this time, in hopes of waking him up.

After two failed attempts I carefully leaned down and shook him awake.

“Huh? What’s going on? Are you in labor?” Yanan asked in a panic

“No labor. We still have a few weeks until that’s supposed to happen baby. You fell asleep working on the nursery. You probably should’ve come to bed sooner.”  I scolded lightly

“I know but I wanted to get this done. I wanted to surprise you.” He said with a pout.

“You did surprise me baby, and it was a beautiful surprise. You did an amazing job. Now let’s get you to bed, it’s late.” I replied, hugging him tightly after he stood.

“Okayyyy” he whined, his sleepy voice causing me to melt.

I turned off the nursery light and we got into bed. He curled around me and placed his giant palm on my belly, talking to our little man before he went to sleep.

“I can’t wait to meet you” He mumbled, rubbing my belly gently “I love you so much already, and I love your mommy just as much.”

“I love you too” I quietly replied, placing my hand on his.

A few moments later he was drifting off to sleep, mumbling incoherently before he finally started snoring again.

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Masterlist

🔞-smut  ⛈-angst 💓-fluff

Jinho- Trapped ⛈💓

Hui

Hongseok-Bookstore Encounter ⛈ , Part 2(Coming soon)

E’Dawn

Shinwon

Yeo One

Yanan- New Arrival 💓 Yes,Mommy 🔞

Yuto- The Beast 🔞

Kino- Lie to Me ⛈

Wooseok- Distant ⛈💓

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I promise i havent forgotten about yall. Between work and traveling and my best friends upcoming wedding things have been super crazy but once the wedding is over im gonna try to be on here more. I miss writing and i need to get back to it. I also started a website for my artwork and that took up a very large chunk of my time (if you want to check it out you can here it would be greatly appreciated)

I ALSO found out ill be meeting pentagon in dallas in september with hi touch and im STILL freaking out about it because Yuto is an ult and pentagon are my babies and i couldnt be more excited! Just wanted to give you guys an update and i hope to see you all very very soon and im sorry ive been so MIA.

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Masterlist

🔞-smut  ⛈-angst 💓-fluff

Jinho- Trapped ⛈💓

Hui

Hongseok-Bookstore Encounter ⛈ , Part 2(Coming soon)

E’Dawn

Shinwon

Yeo One

Yanan- New Arrival 💓 Yes,Mommy 🔞

Yuto- The Beast 🔞

Kino- Lie to Me ⛈

Wooseok- Distant ⛈💓

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Bookstore Encounter-Hongseok Scenario

A/N: Here’s a request for a Hongseok scenario from the prompt list. I hope you like it! Thank you so much for being patient with me! 

Warnings: None Word count:1124

“Thank you” I said to the cashier as I grabbed my bubble tea from the counter.

My best friend and I were spending some time together in the park and decided to stop to get some bubble tea before she had to leave. She stole my drink, taking a sip of it before letting me try hers.

“Damn, I should’ve gotten what you have. It’s so good” She said, trying to take another drink of mine.

“Hey, I told you, Taro is absolutely the best one they have. You should’ve listened to me.” I replied, snatching my drink back from her.  “Just make sure you get it next time, so you aren’t stealing all of mine.”

She laughed and brushed off my remark. We chatted for a few more minutes and said our goodbyes, then she left to meet up with her boyfriend.

I sat and enjoyed my bubble tea for a few more minutes before venturing back out into the park. I had walked for quite some time, but the sweltering heat was starting to get to me. I knew I needed to go somewhere cool, so I found a nearby bookstore. Spending some time reading in the cool air would be a great way to spend the day.

I walked in, the cool air creating an instant rush of relief. I spent some time browsing the shelves before finally settling on a new release that caught my eye. I purchased the book and headed over to the large section of comfortable seating and found a spot to sit.

I got comfortable and started reading. I was about four chapters in when I heard a familiar voice nearby.

No. It can’t be.

I peeked overtop of my book, using it as a shield as I looked around the room for him. Unfortunately for me, I wasn’t sneaky enough, and he spotted me.

“Damnit” I mumbled under my breath. Why couldn’t I just keep my head in my book. Why did I have to look around?

He headed over to where I was sitting, a large smile plastered across his face.

“Y/N? How have you been?” He asked as he ran his hand through his newly dyed silver hair.

Ever since Pentagon announced their newest comeback, that’s all I’ve seen. Hongseok’s face plastered on multiple billboards, buses, and subway stations with the rest of the members as well. I’ve tried like hell to avoid him, but apparently the universe has other plans.

I saved my place with a bookmark and sat my book on my lap. I smiled at him, trying to be nice.

“Hey Hongseok, how are you?” I said enthusiastically, but internally I was anxious.  

“I’ve been doing well, how about you?” he said, his tone reflecting mine. “Do you mind if I sit next to you and chat for a while? I was hoping we could catch up.”

I hesitated for a moment “I don’t know if that’s such a great idea.” I mumbled. I started to pack my things to leave, but I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard the tone in his voice change.

“Y/N Please, please just stay for a few minutes. If you don’t like what I have to say, you can leave. But please just hear me out.” He begged.

A loud sigh escaped my lips, and I caved. I always caved when it came to Hongseok. That’s why we are in the situation we are in now.

I gestured him to sit in the chair next to me and turned to face him.

“Okay fine, lets hear it” I said, probably sounding more annoyed than I actually was.

“I’m sorry things ended the way they did. I should’ve taken your feelings into consideration instead of just leaving. I thought I was doing what was best for the both of us, but I couldn’t have been more wrong. Nothing is the same without you around.”

I scoffed. I was about to say something in response, but he kept explaining.

“I can’t sleep. I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in months. I haven’t been eating well. Hui forces me to eat most of the time, just so I can function. The smell of your perfume lingers in my brain, and some days I swear I can still smell it.  I still remember the way you taste. It’s maddening.”

“Then why did you leave?” I asked, “and why are you telling me this now, months later?”

He sighed and ran his hands down his face before he answered. “Because I’m a coward. I left because I thought that it would make things easier. I knew that with my busy schedule I would barely see you, and I didn’t want to put you through that kind of hurt. I just wanted you to be happy, and I didn’t think that me being gone all the time was going to make things easy, so I left. I thought I would spare you the heartache.” He explained as he looked at me. “But apparently I hurt you more than I thought.”

He reached out a hand and touched my face, wiping away a tear from my cheek. I didn’t even realize I was crying until that point.

“I am willing to do whatever it takes to fix it. And I’m so sorry I hurt you. Would you give me another chance?” he asked, his eyes filled with sorrow.

“I have been miserable for the last 4 months, and you’re just now telling me all of this? Why didn’t you call? The only goodbye I got was a note on my kitchen counter and my spare key. How are you going to fix it?” I asked, unconvinced that he was going to be able to fix anything between us.

“I don’t know all of that yet, but If you give me another chance, I’ll do everything I can to make it right. No more running. No leaving you behind. If we do this, we do it together. Please, please give me another chance.”

I gathered my things and placed them into my bag. I pulled out a pen, and on the back of my receipt I wrote down an address and handed it to Hongseok.

“What’s this?” He asked, a confused look plastered on his face.

“Meet me there at 8pm tomorrow night. You get one date. We will talk about things from there if it goes well.” I said before I stood up and headed for the door.

“It’s a date!” I heard him call out behind me as I walked away.

A small smile creeped across my face as I opened the door to leave. This could be the start of something amazing. Only time will tell.

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Masterlist

🔞-smut  ⛈-angst 💓-fluff

Jinho- Trapped ⛈💓

Hui

Hongseok-Bookstore Encounter ⛈ , Part 2(Coming soon)

E’Dawn

Shinwon

Yeo One

Yanan- New Arrival 💓 Yes,Mommy 🔞

Yuto- The Beast 🔞

Kino- Lie to Me ⛈

Wooseok- Distant ⛈💓

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Lie to me-Kino Angst

A/N: Here’s a request from the writing prompts for Kino! I hope you like it! 

Warnings: None Word count:1038 

I sat at the table, blankly staring into my coffee cup. The world was bustling around me, but all I could focus on was the remaining foam atop my latte. I didn’t really want to be here, but I made a promise to someone that I would meet them. I arrived early so I could have time to think about the words I wanted to say, but nothing seemed to be playing out right in my head.

I’ve been trying the last few weeks to wrap my head around everything that has happened recently. Between the fighting, asking for space, then inevitably the breakup, things have been extremely difficult.

I’ve forced myself to come to terms with a few things that I never expected to, replayed old arguments in my head over and over, wondering what I could’ve done wrong, and beat myself up over things I shouldn’t have.

My thoughts were interrupted by someone pulling out the chair across from me. I was startled for a moment, but when I looked around and realized where I was, I settled. A pair of kind eyes and a soft smile greeted me as I looked at the man sitting across from me.

“Hey” He said softly.

“Kino. It’s good to see you” I said with a small, hopefully convincing smile.

“How have you been?” He asked, tilting his head to the side and reaching his hands out for mine.

I withdrew my hands and fiddled with my coffee cup on instinct. I didn’t want to mislead him, and I honestly wasn’t sure how things were going to go during this meeting.

“I’ve been better to be honest, how about you?” I replied. We were quickly interrupted by the barista as he called out Kino’s drink order.

Kino quickly excused himself to go get his drink. He came back to his seat and we picked up the conversation where we left off.

“I’ve been really good, busy but good. I’m sorry things aren’t going as well as you would’ve hoped. I’ve missed you though, a lot.” He replied before taking a sip of his americano.

“I’ve missed you too, and it’s okay, I’ve just been working through a lot and it’s been frustrating for me. It’s taken me a lot more time than I expected, but I’m slowly getting better.” I explained.

He reached his hand across for mine again, and this time he succeeded in grabbing my hand. My heart began to race like it used to, and I really did miss him, but I’m just not ready to get back into a relationship with him again. My thoughts began to overtake me and I panicked, pulling my hand away from him .

“I’m making you uncomfortable, aren’t I?” he asked, a frown replacing the smile that was there just moments ago.

“No no it’s not that it’s just… I’m nervous.” I explained, trying to save face.

“Why are you nervous? You’ve known me a long time.” He asked, trying to make sense of all of this. “I’m still the same Kino.”

A heavy sigh left my lips. “I know, and that’s part of what I’m afraid of. We didn’t end things well. I blamed myself for a lot of things after we broke up. I still blame myself for a lot of it actually.”

He closed his eyes and shook his head. “Why are you blaming yourself? You didn’t do anything wrong. Between my hectic work schedule and the stresses of the job, I didn’t treat you fairly. We would probably still be together if I didn’t treat you the way that I did, and I’m so sorry I was like that. I’ve been going to therapy to help find ways to manage the stress and the members have been helping me get through a lot as well. That’s why I wanted to meet with you, to apologize for the things that I’ve put you through. I’m so sorry.”

A wave of relief washed over me when I heard him say those words. I was still apprehensive about everything that was going on, but to hear him admit fault for some things that happened helped.

“I also wanted to ask you what you thought about trying this again. Maybe hanging out more often, going on dates, starting over?” he said, almost making me choke on my latte.

“Kino I…. I don’t know”. I responded, looking away from him.

His brow furrowed in confusion.

“I just don’t know if I’m ready yet” I shrugged.

“Baby, I know things have been hard, but we can get through this. Please let me show you how much I’ve changed. Let me take care of you the way you deserve.” He almost begged. I could hear the pain in his voice, but I was still hurting too much.

I thought about the life we could have. All of the cuddles, the kisses, the time we could spend together. It all sounded wonderful. A small smile stretched across my face as I imagined it all, but I was quickly brought back to reality.

“I can’t Kino. I’m sorry, I just need a little more time.”

He nodded, but he was visibly upset. “I understand.”, he uttered. “Can you just think about it and let me know?”, he asked, hopeful for a positive response.

“I can’t promise that we will ever be the same after what happened. I can’t promise I’m going to come back to you.” I explained, tears stinging my eyes.

“Lie to me then. Tell me that you’ll think about it and that you hope we will be together soon. Tell me you loved me. Please give me some kind of hope, because I’m miserable without you.” He begged, placing his head in his hands.

I stood up and walked over to where he was. I placed a hand on his back to console him and he looked up at me.

“I did love you. Part of me still does. I just need more time. When I’m ready, I’ll call. All I can do is hope that you’re still there waiting for me. I’m so sorry Kino.” I said before walking out the door and getting in the taxi to take me home.

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Distant-Wooseok Angst/Fluff

A/N: This is a request from the prompt list with numbers 40 and 26.this got way more angsty than I thought it would but I hope you like it!

Warnings: very mild drinking mention. 

I shifted in my seat, attempting to get comfortable in the small theater chairs. The movie was about to start, and I was uncomfortably squeezed between Yanan and Shinwon. I loved them to death, but since they’re both so broad, they take up a lot of space. I thought that Wooseok was going to sit next to me, but he let everyone else into the aisle after I walked in, and somehow, I got stuck in the middle.

I looked down the aisle at him and raised my eyebrow and he just shrugged in response. We’ve been best friends since we were kids, but lately things have been weird between us.

Little touches and cuddles that we used to have don’t happen anymore, he stops texting me half way through the conversation and I don’t know why, and lately he will only go out and do stuff with me if we are with other Pentagon members. It’s so frustrating because I feel like I’m losing my best friend and I don’t know what is going on.

I turned my attention away from him and watched the movie, but my thoughts were swirling in my mind and it was making it hard to focus on the film.

We all went to dinner after the movie and the same thing happened. I went to sit next to Wooseok, only this time he made some kind of lame excuse and ended up trading seats with Yuto.

I sighed loudly and rolled my eyes.

“What’s wrong Y/N?” Yuto asked as he placed his arm around my shoulder.

“Nothing important.” I replied, casually shrugging him off of me. I looked down to the end of the table and noticed Wooseok staring at the interaction Yuto and I just had. He looked like something was bothering him, but when he made eye contact with me, he quickly looked down to his menu. I was getting very annoyed by this point and glared at him, which caught Hui’s attention.

Hui cleared his throat and looked at me, a confused look plastered on his face as if to ask me what was going on. I shook my head and looked down at my menu to decide what I was having.

Dinner went by without any incident, and we all headed back to the dorm to hang out. Kino and Hongseok decided they were going to play bartender and make us some drinks while we sat around and talked.

Drinks were flowing, and everyone was laughing and telling stories. I was listening attentively to the story E’Dawn was telling. Apparently one day, a few months ago, Yeo One was sleeping and Wooseok put a fake cockroach in his bed. When he woke up, he screamed at the top of his lungs, fell off the bed, and cried. Everyone thought it was the funniest thing, so they all started cracking up laughing.

I looked around the room and noticed that my best friend was missing.

“Hey where did Wooseok go?” I asked, scanning the room

“Oh, he went to his room about 20 minutes ago. I don’t know what’s gotten into him lately.” Jinho replied, shrugging his shoulders.

I don’t know why I let that get to me, but it did. Why didn’t he want to be around me? What the hell was going on? I was frustrated all over again, but this time I’m doing something about it.

I excused myself from the group and headed towards Wooseok’s room. I stopped and took a deep breath before knocking on the door.

“Come in” I heard from the other side of the door, so I opened it.

“Hey, can we talk?” I asked, standing in front of him.

He was sitting on the edge of his bed and nodded when I asked him. He patted his bed to gesture me to sit then moved to the far end giving us ample space.

“Why do you do that?” I groaned, annoyed at the situation.

“Do what?” He asked timidly. He was acting so strange around me and it was starting to worry me.

“That. Where you always make sure there’s a ton of space between us. You’re my best friend and we would always either hang on each other or sit next to each other or cuddle. What is going on? Something is different, and I can’t say that I like it.” I explained, letting my frustrations out.

He laughed at my questions and shook his head, which only made me more agitated.

“I’m glad you think this is funny, because I certainly don’t. I feel like I’m losing my best friend and you think it’s a big joke.” I scoffed, crossing my arms in front of me.

When Wooseok saw how hurt I really was, he stopped.

“Wow, you really don’t know, do you?” He asked, his demeanor softening a bit.

“Know what? All I know is that my best friend has been avoiding me for the last few weeks. What else is there to know?” I retorted as I uncrossed my arms and placed my hands in my lap.

Wooseok looked at the ground and rubbed his temples before continuing.

“I never stood a chance, did I?” He sighed before looking at me.

“Wooseok what are you talking abou-”

He placed a hand in front of him to stop me from speaking

“I saw you and Yuto earlier, the way he had his arm around you, and how close you were talking. I thought that would be me, but I guess that you didn’t love me the same way I loved you.” He shook his head and placed his hands on his knees, acting like he was going to stand.

I felt like my heart was in my throat. So many thoughts were going through my head at one time that I couldn’t think of what to say fast enough. All I could do is hold out my hands and stop Wooseok from getting up and leaving.

“Wait!” I practically yelled, “W-what?! You love me? Like, in l-love with me?” I managed to stutter out.

“I thought it was obvious. The only reason I was so awkward was because I knew you didn’t feel the same way.”

I don’t know why, but for some reason a wave of emotion took over me. How dare he assume that I didn’t love him back. How dare he not know that I was madly in love with him.

I stood up and paced the room for a moment before responding.

“You knew I didn’t feel the same way?! Damnit Wooseok, why wouldn’t you just ASK me?” I yelled in frustration. Tears were threatening in the corners of my eyes, but I tried to keep my composure.

“We have been best friends since we were in diapers. You should know me well enough by now to know that I don’t like Yuto that way. He’s another one of my really close friends, but I don’t feel that way about him. There’s only one person I’m in love with, and I’m looking right at him.” I said, staring him in the face.

A look of shock was plastered across Wooseok’s face as he was processing the information.

“You… You love me?” He asked softly, like he was having a hard time processing the information.

“Of course I do. I’ve been in love with you for a long time now, I just never admitted it.” I said sheepishly, looking down at my hands. “It was you the whole time.”

I waited for a moment to see what Wooseok would say, but instead he took one of my hands in his and with the other hand, he gently lifted my chin to get me to look at him.

My heart was racing as he tucked a hair behind my ear and ran a finger along my jawline.

“I love you too.” He said softly before he leaned in and kissed me gently. I quickly reciprocated, deepening the kiss a little, taking him by surprise. We broke the kiss after a few moments so we could catch our breath.

“Woah” He breathed, placing his forehead against mine. “That was better than I could’ve ever imagined”

I giggled softly as he interlaced his fingers with mine.

“What are we going to tell the boys? We’ve been in here for a while now.  I’m honestly surprised they haven’t come knocking on the door.” I asked as I walked towards the door.

Suddenly we heard shuffling on the other side of Wooseok’s door and could hear the boys as they headed back towards the living room, obviously eavesdropping on our conversation.

“It sounds like they already know” Wooseok laughed before hugging me from behind. He kissed my temple and we stood there for a few moments before heading back out to the living room.

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Rumor: Yeo One Angst

A/N: Here’s a request for a Changgu one shot with the prompt “I want an answer Goddamn it” 

OOH sounds like some angst is about to go down! I hope you like it! I’m so sorry it’s taken me so long as well. I have been dealing with some medical stuff but hopefully I’ll be getting back into the swing of things soon!

Warnings: Cursing

Clothes were scattered across the room. The flowers Changgu had gotten me earlier in the week were now on the floor, littered with glass shards that once formed their vase. What started as a normal night in changed drastically when Changgu asked me why I was being so distant. I wouldn’t tell him, and kept skirting around the subject, which only made him frustrated and upset.

I wasn’t ready. The rumors made me angry. I needed time to process what was going on, and I still wasn’t ready to confront him with how I was feeling. I needed time, and my distance from him made him so upset that we got into a screaming match.

“Why wont you tell me why you’re being like this? What have I done to you to deserve the cold shoulder?” He asked, almost pleading at this point.

“Changgu, please don’t” My own voice cracking at the end of the phrase. My emotions were all over the place and I was exhausted from the fighting. Tears stung my eyes but I held them back and stood my ground “I refuse to do this with you right now”

He paced the floor, his hands in his hair before he finally snapped. “What the fuck do you want from me Y/N? I have done everything in my power to be good to you just to get tossed aside. What the hell is going on? I want an answer Goddamn it! I Deserve that much!”

I shook my head in disgust and lowered my tone. Instead of screaming at him, I was going to tell him exactly what he wanted, and I was going to leave. I had enough.

“Fine. You want an answer? Here’s your answer. Two weeks ago, I was informed by a close friend that had heard rumors that you cheated.”

I watched his face fall. He looked as if he got punched in the stomach, but instead of giving him a chance to speak, I continued.

“I’ve been distant these last two weeks because I needed time to process what happened. I kept telling myself that you didn’t do it. I kept telling myself to just let it go, but the more you were around me, the angrier and more depressed I got. I needed time before I was ready to talk to you about it.”

“Y/N, Please. I didn’t…”

I held my hand up, because at this point, I didn’t care if he cheated or not. I needed to go. I needed to get away from him even if it was just for one night.

“Changgu, right now I don’t care if you did or didn’t. I am far too upset to rationalize anything with you right now.” I walked to my room and grabbed my overnight bag, stuffing some sleep clothes and other necessities into it before zipping it shut. I threw it onto my back and grabbed my purse. Changgu was still standing in the middle of the room, tears brimming his eyes. He didn’t know what to do or say, and as much as I loved him, I knew I had to leave.

“I’m going to my sisters for the night. I need to clear my head, but if things are better for me tomorrow, I’ll call you and we can talk. I love you, but I can’t do this tonight.

Without giving him a chance to reply, I walked out, leaving him with his thoughts. I hoped things would be better tomorrow, but for now I needed time and so did he.

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Aw i miss you too :( i havent been getting much in the way of sleep lately. Between my two jobs and stress its been a whole mess but im off Monday and part of tuesday do hopefully i can sit down and brainstorm some ideas for you guys :( I hope things are going well for you love 💞