yuri---jiyuki

[yuri---jiyuki]

.. Life update, I guess.

I got into some stuff on a mission... Long story short, I'm staying with akiko yosano for a while..

It's nice not having to go on missions every day. Even if I kinda miss Kyuusaku and gin, and higuchi. But life isn't that bad at the moment, in all honesty, I thought I would be dead because I've gotten caught by the armed detectives agency during a mission... Blonde glasses guy did not look happy. But I'm still alive, that's cool I guess.

But, don't get me wrong.. I don't like the agency. I don't have any opinions on any of the members, nor the agency in general. Just because I find something nice, doesnt mean I trust it.

I really can't tell if they're trying to “redeem” me, or are just being nice to me to gain my trust, so they can betray me in the future. I wouldn't be surprised if a moldy fruit is worth more then I am in their eyes.

At least I can understand that though, I don't think I'm even human in the first place. what's the difference of value between me and something people find useful for limited time then throw away when it's broken?

Why would anyone wanna redeem a lifeless puppet that lost any possible thing that made it truly "alive" the second it was gifted to the puppeteer? What is there to redeem if the one who you want to redeem, is empty? It's like trying to say you wanna make an eggshell into in omelet. There's no egg to make an omelette with, it's just the shell left.

I think they just want information on the port mafia, theyre gonna gain my trust and use me for information on the port mafia, then toss me back into moris hands. I can't say I blame them, I would do the same if I had the opportunity. Getting information on a rival organization out of a person who doesn't bother to fight, filled with information on said organization.

Being thrown back into a life with mori doesn't bother me, nor does the fact I'm currently staying with an agency member, while people try to “redeem” me. In all honesty, I stopped caring about things like this along time ago, can anyone blame me? I already came to terms I'm most like gonna be killed in some way shape or form. Whether it's on a mission, or an assassination, it'll all end with me dead. Though It confuses me why people are acting like they see worth in me that isn't just about how good I am at being obedient, they should know just like everyone else I'll end up killed. Acting like I'm worth something, or acting like you care about me in a complete waste of time.

I hope they just spit out their true intentions soon. I know they know that I don't believe a word they say when the words "we can redeem you" come out of their mouths. You can't redeem something that's empty, that's common knowledge.

They should know trying to get me to warm up to them isn't a thing that a person can achieve. A puppet can't warm up to someone when it's only use and purpose is being lifeless and controlled.

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(..I know I'm not human, so stop treating me like you care about me more then you care about an eggshell. I don't like this. I hate this. Stop acting like you care. it's idiotic, stop it. I don't have emotions you can toy with. SO JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT WITH ME ALREADY GODDAMNIT. I WON'T WARM UP TO YOU. I CAN'T JUST START OPENING UP THE SECOND I'M CARED ABOUT. I CAN'T OPEN UP. WHEN I OPEN UP IT'S LIKE AN EMPTY CLOSET. STOP. ACTING. LIKE. YOU. CARE. )

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((SORRY GUYS I FORGOT I HAD THIS ACCOUNT))

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I am currently locked in the armed detective agency.

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HE WASN'T HE WASN'T

I have been hiding in a closet for several hours now . I think the white haired boy with a bad haircut is gone now ..

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I have been hiding in a closet for several hours now . I think the white haired boy with a bad haircut is gone now ..

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The um .. The white haired one with a bad haircut almost caught me, , hiding right now ..

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I have a mission to spy on the armed detectives agency wish me luck.

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I decorated the port mafia base with my little pony merch. Don't take it down. I am one of moris favorites I will have you thrown out the window if you take any of it down

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I met a woman with a flower clip today. She was nice.

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If hell exists, of a form of hell.

Send me there.

I don't deserve to be here.

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Fair enough, I guess. But yeah never mind about the "yes"- that was just an.. Impulse answer, I think-

What if I just die instead

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. . Do you just carry a knife everywhere -

What if I just die instead

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....maybe

Yes

What if I just die instead

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What if I just die instead

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//OOC, updated this

//OOC// This blog will have mentions of Slight gore(gunshots,wounds,etc) and Svicidal thoughts.//

Guess i should make a main introduction post.. Q told me I should.

..hi? . I'm Yuri.. As I stated in my first post. Please don't call me nicknames.

This is more difficult then I thought it would be.. I see a lot of people saying they're .. Pronouns? I guess mine are she/her. I don't really care what pronouns you guys refer to me by though.

My ability is hallucinations. I'm not sure if that's important information to you all, but whatever.

(Q is currently telling me what things to put.) I like.. Cats. And roses. I guess. History is cool..

Oh!! and I really like seals and mainecoons, and black cats! I know I already mentioned cats but mainecoons and black cats are my most favorite cats. And seals are very cute. They are adorable.

That's all for now.. Bye..

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Never mind, I would probably get killed or tracked down

What if I ran away from the port mafia

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What if I ran away from the port mafia