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8

Sometimes Martin has to stay at home because of his sick mother. His mother occasionally had some annoying headaches and the doctors couldn’t point out the exact cause of the malady. Her way to cope the pain was to promenade but sometimes she was even unable to do so. On those days, sweet Martin served as the best dog in the world by laying down in the dark green fainting’ chair by side of his suffering mother. Her name was Josephine and the moments she could hold her son as a Persian was the most valuable aspect through the pain.

No matter how much Josephine was suffering from the ferocious persuasive pain, Melinda and Valentin didn’t care much about her but only missed the little boy. By meeting Martin next day at school they used to come to him to tell all the new biological data that they had discovered the other day as weird behavior of the southern ducks at the rainy day, spooky sounds of the summer bugs, orange county wild feline’s dreg’s smell or the thick and wavy unusual hair that they had found at the Valentine’s head. All of the new discoveries were something they could do together as a pack of three feathered dinosaurs. So Martin didn’t feel bad for not being able to hang out with his favorite persons. Josephine was his mother and she was always nice to him.

Josephine was important to her son. Sometimes she suffered from insomnia and used to vaguely walk around the living room and smoke cannabis. Martin asked about that when he was 8. “Mom, why do you drink smoking? that doesn’t smell tasty.” “Martin, this is an unhealthy habit and your father don’t want you to do it. But to explain, the smoke fills your lung and the perception of the world is altered.” She pointed one of the several vases that were on her husband’s desk. “See that Begonia? I perceive their leaves’ color as green. It doesn’t take much time to perceive or know that. And it doesn’t make me wonder why that is green. But after I drink the smoke, I start to admire the color, the life and the shape of their body.” When Martin remembers that moment he also remembers the brilliant color of Josephine’s dress that she was wearing that day. Begonia’s life and color were never that great compared to his mom’s body and clothing. They loved each other eternally. Even though Martin never understood how she doesn’t wonder the reason of the leaves is almost always green. It felt like to him that the cannabis was a way of her to connect better with him. He liked the altered version of his mother.

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neil hal il

go to fix your mobile plan.

fix your bike.

fix your mom’s debit.

fix your telephone bill...

done.

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captain fantastic

Um pai convencido faz um experimento pedagógico para melhorar a saúde da sua esposa. As crianças são tiradas da “sociedade crua” e vive numa “sociedade construída” frágil e não sustentável. E com as personagens lineares (tirando o segundo filho) e rígidas, dá falsa sensação que a metodologia do pai seria algo magnificamente melhor mas não é aceita pela sociedade somente por falta de inteligência e compreensão. Parece que o filme quer mostrar que o pai é uma pessoa profética e resolvida mas no final ele é um mero pai autoritário que obriga seus filhos a viver de um jeito que ele impõe. É claro que todos têm a falha. Mas o filme ridiculamente quer idolatrar um jeito alternativo de viver.

E tem milhões de coisas que acontecem porque precisa acontecer: 1. Seis crianças se adaptam perfeitamente com um convívio radical e se saem como os pais desejou. (falta de realidade) 2. O pai nunca ensinou o que é coca e nike mas mesmo assim quando quer explicar sobre crack ele só joga o pronome próprio “nike” para sua filha (somente para dar risada da deus da mitologia grega) 3. O marido com o testamento legal não tem poder contra os pais do falecido no corpo desse falecido? (E o marido inteligente faz tudo para não conseguir seus direitos mesmo querendo cremar a sua esposa)

4. Um menino que entra em todos os universidade, com a família que lê não somente trabalhos acadêmicos mas as literaturas clássicas não sabem do comportamento sexual da vida adulta? (cena cômica muito forçado) 

5. Os seis jovens ficam escondidos por dia inteiro num buraco que nunca foi exposto ou explicado antes sem nenhum motivo claro para fazer isso. (???) 

6. Os avôs das crianças depois de um dia inteiro sem eles nem vão ir achar eles no túmulo da sua filha que seria um lugar mais provável conforme os acontecimentos passados. (só para a história acontecer)

Total falta de esforço a imitar a vida real e as personagens burras e acontecimentos forçados me deixou muito enfurecido. É um conto de fada para os jovens adultos céticos a sociedade atual, e ao mesmo tempo sem ideias concretas o que é certo ou errado. Ele faz com que as pessoas menos estruturadas acreditarem que o pai é um cara fodão e as pessoas ordinais não aceitam ele somente porque são rígidas, menos inteligentes e seguidores cegos da corrente. 

O lado positivo é que o pai consegue entender que ele está fazendo as coisas erradas. Pensando somente do lado do drama do homem rígido que se aprende e adapta ao mundo, é um enredo aceitável mas o filme se empolgou para contar historinhas de herói da família perfeita. E era muito forçado. Os instrumentos eram muito pretensiosos, Gun Germs and Steel, Noam Chomsky...

1/5

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fb attempt

my post-moratorium shit is definitely "chased by a rooster" and that has been paying off a grand part of my joy these late days. If you are reading this, go find it on youtube it is such a blessed keyword.

and 2016 idol goes to Brian the Indonesian who talks with himself in the mirror. don't give a shit attitude will always be my top turn on that's what I always want to do cause I get attached very easily.

Uruguay taught me good weed and Buenos Aires, gorgeous ignorant shameful anti-democratic slavery intense big gigantic architectures. Things aren't quite better these days tho (people still build enormous erratic non-necessary religious monuments), but it really isn't just great. I feel depressed to see all the ambition of past time knowing about the present. Deep shit Argentina once had 'argents' to make a big ass buildings. At least they have them now. And it attracts tourists.

I will always remember "El Sueño de Valentin" when I think about Buenos Aires. 'Hola xo me xamo Valentin y tengo ocho años'

Valentin y Martin vais être le meilleur oeuvre de moi

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Uruguay and Buenos Aires

The time I was going back to Ezeiza airport. The journey was over and I was thinking about love. I brought a book of Murakami to the trip and read that in two days and for the last night, for fun, I had to talk with people or play some ukulele. I chose ukulele. After almost 30 years of life, I am still bad at human interaction. I was playing some songs that I used to play with guitar in the mattress. Then one French Canadian guy came to the playroom and sat next to me because I was next to the electricity outlet.

So he said to me. "you are in love! man, you're in love!"

Communication is hard and the term love is so overused. I loved Buenos Aires and Uruguay equally as a child that loves both parents. Love is a natural and ordinary thing. Don't say that as it means something.

I loved the girls that I met. All kind of smiles. Each one has a special smile. I can still reproduce the happiness of the moment picturing the smile of pretty girls. And boys. I loved them, boys, too. I wish I had more time to socialize with them. But I know that my time is over and I feel sad.

Sat next to a beautiful Chinese girl in the plane back home. She was unable to put a seatbelt on her so I reached my hands to do that for her. After some minutes, as always, reanalyzing my non-distant past, I noticed that maybe she could think that I was rude. I reached and touched her belongings without permission. But she was having trouble with the screen too. I should've just helped her but I didn't do it because I was an easily scared person. Well after her, it was kind of clear that she was having trouble with tv to gain my attention again and to start a conversation, an interaction. And I didn't do it being almost certain of the intention of the other party. I might always live alone.

In Cabo Polonio, I was watching sea lions. With a fraction of a small movement of my neck muscles, I could divide the known universe in my vision area. I was looking at the horizon of the ocean. After that, I was also looking at the end of atmosphere and beyond earth and universe. I was contemplating more than we know. The distance that the fastest known particle should spend eternity to travel. That was my eye movement. I was so happy to be able to do that.

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best song of 2016

wish I was an old man love was through with me. wish I was a baby on my mama's knee. wish I was a freight train moving down the line just to keep in track of time without all these memories.

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killer whales

Hi, 🎆! I'm 🎇, from 🖼. I'm going with a friend to take a trip to⚔. We are so excited! So, we will be needing some place to spend the night in Buenos Aires by 16/02 when we arrive by airplane, unfortunately, a kinda late by around 21:10. So I was wondering if you could bear us some place to stay? We are willing to know and enjoy the city of Buenos Aires too but since our return fly will be in the Buenos Aires, we'd like to rush to experience the Uruguay first and get back to Buenos Aires in the last days to enjoy your city with no hustle. Therefore, we will be leaving by the next morning to get in Colonia del Sacramento, taking a ferry at 8:30. I know that our schedule is kind of inconvenient, but I guess that would let us enjoy more places. :c If you could, we'd also like to hang out with you and offer some beer when we get back next week to Buenos Aires to thank you for the flash stay lol. It's my first time on an international trip and this is my first CS request, so Excuse me if I missed something that should be in this message. I don't have any recommendation yet, as I never experienced any CS, maybe this is an important factor lol Thanks for the attention, and have a good day.

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dependent person

“흔히 남에게 의지하지 않는 것을 독립적인 거라고 생각하지만, 사실은 남에게 ‘잘 의지할수록’ 더 독립적인 사람입니다.”

“언제든 날 도와줄 사람이 있다는 믿음, 실패해도 괜찮을 거라는 믿음이 사람을 더 독립적으로 만들 거���요.” (중동 기술 대학교, 엠레 셀쿡 교수)

http://scienceoflove.co.kr/%EC%97%B0%EC%95%A0/%EC%97%B0%EC%95%A0%EC%9D%98-%ED%9A%A8%EB%8A%A5/%EB%93%A0%EB%93%A0%ED%95%9C-%EC%97%B0%EC%9D%B8%EC%9D%B4-%EC%83%9D%EA%B8%B0%EB%A9%B4-%EC%9D%B4%EB%A0%87%EA%B2%8C%EB%82%98-%EC%A2%8B%EB%8B%A4/

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prop 64

I drank with friends.

“ California Proposition 64, the California Marijuana Legalization Initiative, was on the November 8, 2016, ballot in California as an initiated state statute. Supporters referred to the initiative as the Adult Use of Marijuana Act. It was approved. “

And my future is in California.

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why is it so hard to be just decent

I will listen to “I am clean now” every day from now.

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yo no sé

qu’il y a.

한국어의 친밀함이 싫어 다른 언어로 도망치고 있지만 그러던와중 잘 쓰여진 한국어 글을 보면 초조해진다. 나는 무언가를 포기하고 있는 것일까. 더 가까운 언어로 더 생생한 글을 쓰는게 더 좋은 것이 아닐까.

눈은 높고 손은 낮다. 그래도 눈이라도 높아서 다행이다.

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Fragments of Time

Remember the "Sing Street". (the first movie I cried in 2017 and one of the best movie of my life).

I wish I never get a new animal in the house. I am OK with all the good memories that I have. Some died, and I know I will be devastated if others die.

I think of LA when I listen to the "Daft Punk". The moment when the girl and I were driving back home from Six Flags. We were confused I guess. I was broken hearted with a little girl that I really got into, and for her, I guess she was having rough time tolerating her boyfriend and his comrades. I just went to her house and stayed there for weeks. Remembering the moment, I feel like I never was a good friend of her. I was just using her. I always thought her as a strong person. I regret it now that I never tried to be there to actually listen to her stories. Fierce times it was. I hope she is doing OK now.

I could not finish the "Catcher in the Rye" in 2016. I bought the book when I was in LA with that girl. It was 2013. I started reading it in 2015. I guess one of my new year resolution will be "read more". I truly want to do it.

I want to write more too. I want to cherish my memories reading my past blog diaries in the distant future. And I want to make a piece. The one with Valentin and Martin. Those cool boys with a baby girl whose name is undefined yet. All the story began because I like them both names. I cannot give an ordinary name to the perfect girl that will be the centerpiece of the drama.

I want to be more vivid. vivant. I want to talk in French and Japanese. That's something that I will do in 2017.

2017. I have to get familiar with this sequence. Two-zero-one-seven. sweet seventeen. I want to have good memories in this year as I have wonderful ones in 2012 and 2015.

Speaking of writing, I should study more techniques to not start the sentence with "I (verb)". All above started with "I something". It is embarrassing.

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Grouper Paradise Valley

It has been a week without training.

Grouper is always right.

I dreamt about a girl I met in the language school. She was a cool person I hope she is ok.

I kind of planned a new year resolution. I will stop playing video games. Drink less alcohol.

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running

I should drink more water

I should drink less alcohol

I should smoke less

I should read more

I should sleep more

I should have more knowledge of technical standards

I should hit on girls more

I should get laid more

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guidance

The most memorable experience was the Rio Olympic games. I made some travel certificate, took care of volunteers, managed kakaotalk chat room even had an interview with Los Angeles based Korean broadcast. I believe that I have qualifications and experience. I wish I could meet with your team in person. thank you.

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[중국식당]

집에서 중국음식점을 하게 되었는데 동생과 어머니가 중국어를 유창하게 했다. 중국어를 모르는 나에게 되게 명확하게 성조가 들렸다. 그리고 사귀는 친구와 같은 침대에서 자다가 섹스하려했다. 서로 호감이 이미 있다고 생각했는데 불같이 화를 내었다. 그래서 나는 그 친구에게 화가 났다. 네가 나를 좋아하는 만큼 좋아하는 사람도 없으면서 섹스에 그렇게 부정적인 이유가 무었일까. 그렇게 경험없이 다른 좋은 사람 만나면 연애하고 결혼할 수 있을까? 이런 생각을 했다. 봄날을 간다처럼 조금 더 친해지면 해요는 어떤 느낌인지 알겠지만 아예 하려하지 않는 것은 문제가 있어보인다.

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review

OK, I have been doing things wrong. In this year I have been deeply down, I totally gave up improving. I promise myself to do something then I do just exactly the opposite of it.

One of the worst bummers was to score a B2 in English. After ALL THESE YEARS! I am still not fluent yet. That was a heartbreaking result.

I failed in some subjects. Both in maths and programming. I failed to get laid, yeah, retrospecting the year, there were some signs of girls showing interest in me. And as always I let them evaporate, let them sink till the end.

Trump got elect. What a crazy world. And two impeachments. My societies are at least interesting.

I should write publicly about good music we had in this year but I am shameful to write something. I don’t want to express myself. I might just keep with myself.

Nevertheless, it is my favorite time of the year. I will be singing Mariah Carey and listening to Chromatics all along.