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sometimes i go onto this blog just to stare at the header image for a second and then switch back to main

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characters whose philosophy is “if i cannot be wanted, i will be needed and if i cannot be needed, let me be used until there’s nothing left of me.” thank you for everyone’s attention. falls off stage and dies

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yes & no by natalie wee

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i never got back into art like i said i would but this was one of the few things i drew this year and i think that's funny. the limits of my artistic ability is cdreambur barbie meme

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A character with the mentality, if I’m not dead I’m fine. They hold out under torture, go through extreme conditions like starvation and dehydration, and don’t shrink back from danger. Every time they feel themself getting scared they rebuke themself, sneering contemptuously at the fact that they would even think to act frail when they know better. Getting hurt is never a problem for them. It can’t ever be a problem for them because they have to.

Even if they do start to sniffle a little when they’re alone out in the cold, rocking while cradling a broken bone, knowing no one is coming to help them.

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wait so c!wilbur escaped the narrative at the end right, but if you'll allow me to think meta for a second cc!wilbur was in on the discussion about dsmp season 2 because he talked about it on stream and was saying dream's plans for it were really cool and he can't spoil anything and yes yes if i talk about it any longer i'll get sad But my point is, wilbur was going to participate in season 2? so that means he would reintroduce his character, right? and now i'm dying to know how he would've done that. or if he would've done something completely different?

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my c!dreambur..

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does he ever just.. wish he was fully wilbur? just a human guy spending time with dream? being able to just exist without the weight of everything the doctor is burdened with?

when dream calls him doctor, is there ever, like, just a moment of pain when wilbur has to remind himself that he's not just some silly human dream befriended but he's The Doctor. does he ever hear dream call him wilbur and wish that wilbur is all he is?

yes exactly :((!!!! he secretly wishes for a life where he met dream as a human on earth, he desires such beautiful simplicity. which is ironic because dream is living his own wish as things currently are, with all the excitement and aliens and time travel. wil watches dreams delighted amusement at things he himself has seen a thousand times and feels dreams single-hearted pulse in his wrist after pulling him away from danger and he wants so badly to just understand him like a human would, but he can only view him through the eyes of timelord. he turns "wilbur" into this idea that he's chasing, not realizing that he is both the doctor and wilbur at the same time, he's pushing away one side of himself and pulling on another pretending like they aren't two parts of the same person

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related to my last post, dream before meeting the doctor would have his little alien blog where he posts sightings and interacts with the alien enthusiast online communities. and after getting swept up in a new life of time and space travel he would have no time to be active on his blog. but after wilbur regenerates, and he's left alone again... he comes back to it, as a way to cope. he starts writing out and posting all the adventures he went on in detail, and he gains many fans of his blog. some really believe he's lived through all these things, and some just think it's well written works of fiction based on his interest in aliens. reminiscing helps him heal from the loss

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hi.. not to bring angst into your inbox.. but have you thought about what dream's reaction would be to doctor!wilbur regenerating? because I know in some of your earlier au posts, you mentioned how dream would get clingy to wil because he was worried that it wouldn't be wil who came back. so, what would happen when the day that wil leaves finally comes? (<- already crying just thinking about it)

alternatively, is it dream who leaves first? (I can't imagine dream in this au leaving like some of the earlier companions.. but maybe like Rose or Donna where he gets torn away despite what the doctor/wilbur wants, or, worse, he dies because of some danger they find themselves facing).

(crying thinking about them losing each other but also that is such a sad inevitability with every doctor and companion </3)

ah the inevitable tragedy that looms over the doctors and their companions </3.. i think they would still be together at the end, as you might imagine it would be pretty devastating to dream especially because wilbur would be accepting of it or even anticipating it. wilbur having the cosmic experience that he does, and with the help of dream being so wonderful, will be able to work through his existential dread eventually and in the end accept the way he is, the way a timelord is. and he would also earnestly tell dream that spending all that time with him was the best decision he could've made. wilbur would finally face his present reality fully instead of trying to run away from it, but the fact that it would happen as regeneration is imminent leaving him no time to exist and live with his revelations, dream recognizes how tragic it is.

in my mind dream gets a situation loosely inspired by rose's, dream can somehow communicate with alternate timeline versions of wilbur with all his new advanced knowledge of aliens and their tech that he collected "for research purposes." but of course those doctors don't know who dream is, only that he's extremely familiar and they feel instantly comfortable around him. there are other timelines in the universe where the doctor mysteriously has a human nickname for a while. dream can find peace in knowing wilbur will never truly disappear, even if his wilbur is no longer with him

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stella if you are reading this i want to answer your dreambur asks so bad but i want to actually sit down and give them thought because discussing aus is my favorite but i've been so busyy💔💔 i'm praying to the universe i just want a moment to think about dreambur please let me have a little dreambur as a treat

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hi just watched the second of the three of the newest doctor who specials w/ my parents, and, of course, my mind immediately thought to your dreambur doctor who au (sdhjkshdajksdhsjdhs the brainrot is eternal I guess)

I know you were posting about this au months ago so if you already said this and I just forgot, apologies, but how does doctor!wilbur react when dream gives him a name? because afaik, none of the other companions have ever given the doctor a human name

i've only seen the first special but it makes me sooo happy!!!! again thank you for thinking of my aus even if they're silly or not super detailed because they are all so meaningful to me 🥺 anyway i think wilbur wouldn't be too fazed by a nickname, i imagine he's gotten alien nicknames perhaps made up by other alien species as code words so they can speak about him in places where his enemies might be lurking. but a companion has never matched him to a human name before, and through some of his strange affinity for escapism and his love for humans he connects to it, like a human identity that's seperated from the burdens and obligations of The Doctor. and so he tells dream he thinks it's a nice name, and dream is pleased that he likes it so it sticks and becomes a casual nickname. i think dream would still call him doctor, but more like a formal title, or in more serious contexts

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hi just watched the second of the three of the newest doctor who specials w/ my parents, and, of course, my mind immediately thought to your dreambur doctor who au (sdhjkshdajksdhsjdhs the brainrot is eternal I guess)

I know you were posting about this au months ago so if you already said this and I just forgot, apologies, but how does doctor!wilbur react when dream gives him a name? because afaik, none of the other companions have ever given the doctor a human name

i've only seen the first special but it makes me sooo happy!!!! again thank you for thinking of my aus even if they're silly or not super detailed because they are all so meaningful to me 🥺 anyway i think wilbur wouldn't be too fazed by a nickname, i imagine he's gotten alien nicknames perhaps made up by other alien species as code words so they can speak about him in places where his enemies might be lurking. but a companion has never matched him to a human name before, and through some of his strange affinity for escapism and his love for humans he connects to it, like a human identity that's seperated from the burdens and obligations of The Doctor. and so he tells dream he thinks it's a nice name, and dream is pleased that he likes it so it sticks and becomes a casual nickname. i think dream would still call him doctor, but more like a formal title, or in more serious contexts

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The idea of something leading one to other's heart makes me WEAK 😭😭😭 man I should really watch the film,,, but I don't have the time gggrrgrgrggrrg

me too what a lovely concept 🥹 whenever you get around to watching it feel free to let me know your thoughts :D it's a beautiful film

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i got the howl and sophie ring as a gift recently (in the movie, howl gives sophie a magic ring that matches his own, if she ever gets lost it will emit a beam of light that guides her back to his heart) and !! i was thinking ah that's something i have to add to the ghibli au.. and i also thought wilbur having his heart magically tied to his castle like howl is a really good concept. something about giving dream a ring and telling him if he gets lost it will lead him home, and then the implications when he finds out it actually leads him to wilburs heart,, T__T

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"i would die for you" this, "i'd walk through fire for you that"

what about "i'd live for you" romances? what about "i never thought i'd be worth the work it would take to piece myself together"?

what about "i don't believe i'm worth it, but for you i'll try"

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Me: i ❤ doomed relationship

The doomed relationship: *fulfills the "doomed" title*

Me: