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Worthy

My names chao.. I'm in a miserhable relationship with the biggest asshole and this is not the 1st biggest asshole. I seem to make the same mistake by interpretting the arrogance and passive aggressive behavior as flawed communicaton skills and honest but unfortunately, I just choose flawed men overcompensating for their gleaming personalities. I choose liars and frauds. I choose to fall in love with their lies and begin forming a reality around those lies. Is that love? I believe that love is something that makes one question they're ideals and beliefs. Love will turn your world upside down and give you this sense of fulfillment. You see, I 've been through the ringer and after 2 years of raising my daughter well I finally let someone in, I finally had some vulnerability but I chose wrong and now I'm stuck with a person who chronically cheats and endangers me by having unprotected sex with whores. Now I fear that I may have ANOTHER std due to his infidelity. Why am I not worthy enough to love and appreciate. Why is it a constant struggle to be accepted. How long will he string me along? What is he holding on to? There's nothing left to build off of.