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"Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day, but try to hide it in any possible way. He's only a friend and nothing else-- That's the lie you keep telling yourself. But you keep on saying he's just a bud, but deep inside your falling in love. You get so giddy when you met his eyes, but kept reminding yourself it isn't right. A simple glance turns to a stare. But you pretend that you don't care. Its "not right" for you two to be. Is that why you hide it so no one would see? But how long will you pretend? Keep lying that he's just a friend? Perhaps your feelings you can never show. Perhaps its "wrong" for him to know. Your friendship can't be risked over this. So being his girl is an impossible wish."

- Momei Qu

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"If I ever offended you, I'm not sorry and its your fault."

- Unknown

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"Happiness is temporary. Death is forever. Have a nice day"

- Unknown

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My Dearest Year, 2017

Hi reader! Thank you for taking your time to read this crazy, crazy, crazy long statement of mine. I wrote this down on November 14, 2017 if you were wondering. All my means to writing this is to share my experience. So I hope you'll read all the way through as you may be able to relate.

----- January 2017 -----

It was almost the end of the school year. I was trying to cherish all of my last moments and experiences in this school year. As March was the last month of the year, it was getting closer.

------ February 2017 -----

Again like January, I was cherishing everything. But one special thing that occured was Valentines Day. I was given a bear and flowers by my crush. He had a crush on me too of course. I got that feeling that I was in love but cringy is the main thing I felt that time. I really hated that feeling. I regret accepting his gift. And then so, I gave the gift to a little girl (whom I don't know) instead and she was happy about it. Happy Valentine's Day.

----- March 2017 -----

And there so, the school year ended at the 28th Day. Some cried all ther sad souls out and some shouted at excitement. Ok no, they didn't do that. After school, I went home and I cried to my sister. And then, vacation started.

------ April 2017 -----

Nothing much happened. Just stay at home. Use your phone. Blah blah blah. Pretty boring but I guess boring is sometimes fun.

----- May 2017 ------

Its the same as April. Stil pretty boring. But then we went school suppies shopping.

----- June 2017 -----

So at June 13, the new year starts. We had 13 more days for vacation. We then went to a beach and did a bunch of fun activites and it was very very fun. Then BAM. School starts.

----- July 2017 ------

I was doing good at school. And then I got pretty used to the routine and then it repeats.

----- August 2017 -----

Time was moving pretty quickly. It was our review week and in case you didn't know, review week is the week before exams. Heyyy it was exams. But its not just that.. My step sister died (Same dad different mom: I'll then explain this story in another post) She died and she was really special to me too. I really loved her. She was a loving, pretty, caring, funny, and cool sister. Too bad its her time. Too bad she had to go. She died due to a sickness. At her wake, I met new friends, I had a pretty good time with them. I cherished my last moments seeing my sisters body. It was a REALLY rough time because since I'm family I had to go to her wake (At St. Peters) every day from afternoon to night which is like 5 pm to 12 am and my school is luckily just half day so I get home by 10 am so I still have time to review for the next exams. At her funeral, it was the SADDEST thing that occured in my life. Seriously. I watched as they slowly put her coffin underground.. As they place back all the soil back into the hole where her coffin lays.. I cried my lungs out as I watched. As I stood there and watched her get buried. I wanted to set her free and hug her again, talk with her again, bond with her again but then again, I can't. She was taken aback by the almighty. Its the will. Now she stays in my memory. Only in my memory. Never in my eyes..

------ September 2017 ------

I was starting to move on from the death. We visited my sister again at her 40th death day. It means that the the deceased soul has already reached heaven. We also started practicing for a school event. I then started losing feelings for my crush. And I found a boy. I'll codename him as TS (As in 'Tall Stick') He is tall and thin. And handsome. At first glance, I would've taught he was a friendly, serious, and charming. Though he's just like my best friend. Weird, cringy, friendly, silent, but charming. I could say, I'm starting to like him.

------ October 2017 ------

Normal Routine at school. Still have feelings for TS. Lost all my feelings for my ex crush. Then exams came again then after so, SEMBREAK WHOOO! Although it was just 1 week vacation, it was eventful. One event was me getting bangs! Yass it looks good on me!

------ November 2017 ------

And here we are. In this month. When we got back from sembreak, we had a week of classes then BAM. One more week of vacation AKA Asean Summit. Right now, Asean Summit is going on and yeah. That's all for now.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU if you reached it this far in the story! Thanks for sparing your 5- 15 minutes!

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