ylaizagayle

[ylaizagayle]

Hi

When was the last time since i visited this account? A lot of things happened. As in A LOT. I hope I can find time to share it with you, guys :)

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5/31

I can’t believe I don’t have breakdowns this month. Hindi ako sanay. Maybe I got used to it na that’s why my body has been searching for it. I’m glad tho. Ang tagal kong inantay na hindi na ‘ko atakehin ng anxieties ko. Jan-April were the worst. Ang daming beses na hiniling ko na sana mawala na lang ako because I can’t take it anymore. But God has better plans for me. Thank You 💛

I’m proud of you, self! 🥲

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I sent a tiktok video to my boyfriend and asked him to choose which characters in that video reminds him of me. He said I was Dory because I always forget things especially the house key 🥲 but he added, he reminds him of me as Belle from Beauty & the Beast, too 🥰

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“I’m going to love you better at your darkest, the Earth said to the moon. For after all this time, I’ve seen you as whole anyway.”

— Juansen Dizon

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So I was having anxiety attacks earlier this morning. I’m on the verge of breaking down pero ang daming ganap sa office kaya hindi ako nakahanap ng time para umiyak chos. I was having a rough day—actually for a few weeks na pala. Like what I’ve said, feeling ko inefficient na ko. Feeling ko hindi ko na nagagawa ng tama mga trabaho ko. But this guy right here never fails to cheer me up and assures me na kaya ko. Kapag feeling ko wala na akong silbi, he’s there to remind me of my worth. Lord, thank You for having him in my life. It’s so refreshing to have him by my side.

To my ka-chismis, bestfriend & my love, thank you for today and everyday. I appreciate you 💕

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Wearing your shirt everytime I miss you because it feels like you’re hugging me too 🥺

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It’s been almost 3 months since we last saw each other but why does it feel like a year has passed already? Missing you everyday, lablab. Please take good care of your health 🤍

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Life lately

Work. Been busy for the past weeks. So much work to do. I still have a lot of pending compliances. Ugh & some workmates are still annoying.

School. Almost done with my Civ Personnel Basic Schooling at work. Still waiting for my final grade tho. But my outputs & short exam results were quite good. Hoping for good results!

Moreover, first sem of my Masters already started last Saturday. My first class starts at 7:30am wew am not really a morning person so this is a challenge for me. Good thing is, classes are still online due to the pandemic. I don’t need to go to school lol

Lovelife. We’ll be celebrating our 1st anniv next month! Can’t believe it. Lol days passed by so quickly. Sadly, we cannot celebrate it together since he’s out of the country for work and will be coming back next year. Missing him so much 🤍

Life in general. Mental health’s not doing good. I’m feeling restless and more anxious lately. I also miss my parents so much! It’s been almost 10 months since I last saw them. My lola also keeps on asking us when are we going home and visit her huhu Damn you, COVID. You stole a lot of things from us already. I can’t wait to go home and for this pandemic to be over already.

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“That’s what people do who love you. They put their arms around you and love you when you’re not so lovable.”

— Deb Caletti

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Cried for 3 hrs straight last night (midnight). Slept at 5am. Hello, puffy eyes. Girl, what are you doing with your life? Good thing wala akong pasok sa office ngayon but I have online classes so I woke up early pa rin. I wish masurvive ko this day. Gusto ko na matulog.

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Kung kelan naman pasakay na ko ng taxi, saka ko lang narealize na wala pala akong suot na mask. Ang hirap pa kasi nasa 5th floor yung unit namin. Jusko umaga pa lang, pagod na ko. I can’t wait to go back to normal where wearing a mask isn’t mandatory. Ugh good morning

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I find the concept of growing in love so much prettier than love at first sight?? like one day you look at someone and you suddenly realize you see them in a different light than you did the night before. that’s falling.

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Ho ho ho hold me cuz I’m falling apart

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10AM thoughts

I don’t know if I still like doing my job or I’m just doing it because na nag-e-earn ako. When the pandemic started, mas lalong nawalan ako ng will to work. I became restless, anxious and frustrated.

Working with toxic people in this time of pandemic is not really good my entire health.

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a tight hug from my special someone would mean so much right now :(

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Officemates talking about their lovelives.. suddenly someone asked me if I can relate sa topic. Bilang hindi naman sila aware sa nangyayari sa buhay ko, I just smiled 😬 pinag sabihan pa ko na I should get a boyfriend na. Lol di nyo sure!! Hahaha bahala kayo. Basta ako masaya ako sa lovelife ko 🤣

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Beautiful stranger

Here you are in my arms and I know

That beautiful strangers

Only come along to do me wrong and I hope

Beautiful stranger, here you are in my arms

And I think it's finally

Finally, finally, finally, finally safe

For me to fall