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honestly reading old posts about boys i had crushes on is so cringey now lmao i had no idea what pain is until getting out of a shitty relationship of almost two years

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it’s harder to cope at night

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i’ve lost my head

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i know there is nothing i can say that can make you change your mind and soon i’ll come to acceptance with that. i just want to thank you for the last four months. they were the best and worst of my life but i don’t regret them kay. you gave me something that i never felt before. you gave me love and adoration and companionship in a way that i never experienced it and i’m grateful for it. you were the first boy who wanted to get to know me and although i tried to keep you out you still found a way to figure me out. i never got to talk to you about my passions like i should have but i’m thankful for you listening to me ramble about dumb shit. thank you for being a goofball no matter where we went. there were times where i was embarrassed bc i hated having attention drawn to us yet i enjoyed every minute of you being silly bc you were being yourself and i love that about you. thank you for being an artist and being able to create things out of nothing. falling in love with you has lead me into falling in love with music and drawing again and i can’t appreciate that enough. im thankful for all the good times we had. singing the front bottoms, making chili, going to kkk central for jack, exploring nashville, the holidays, taking care of each other while both being sick as a dog (being sick sucked mad ass but you know what i mean), us joking about nothing, to just being able to wake up and fall asleep in your arms. you don’t understand how much those mean to me. thank you for the hard times. thank you for being there for me during the hard times. thank you for being my shoulder to cry on. you’ve come so far from when we first met and i am so damn proud of you kay. you didn’t sit in self-pity man you actually went through with your plans and im glad i was able to be by your side through it all. you don’t need me as much as i need you now and i’ve realized that. with that being said im sorry for how things have turned out. i didn’t want you to give up on us. i didn’t want to be the reason why you’re not your best. i wanted to be your support system. i wanted to be the one you could talk to about anything. i wanted to be the rainbow in your sky shooting stars above you every night. (fight me for that tfb ref (ง •̀_•́)ง ) i wanted to be your best friend and lover kay. i don’t view a lot of people long term in my life, but kay i could picture us being together long enough to have a family and to be happy with our lives. the future didn’t seem so scary when i was with you. i was excited about planning road trips together, going to shows together, celebrating our birthdays together, just being with you excited me. i wanted to show you off to my family and friends bc you were the most important being in my life and you were great. i hold nothing against you. you were the cause of my smiles, laughs, tears, anger, happiness, growth, etc. i know i’ll grow from this experience whether we get back together or not. I’ll always support you no matter what you do and i just want you to be your best and happy. you’re my best friend and im thankful to had the opportunity to get to know you. you are a crying heart tattoo that i will have forever on my leg. (you can fight me for this ref bc i know it was ugly as hell) i know you say you don’t remember how most of your past girlfriends looked like but please don’t forget my face kay. (i know that’s selfish but i can’t help it smh) you were the love of my life and im forever grateful to have been able to fall in love for the first time with someone so interesting as you kay. thank you for letting me mean the world to you.

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I need boys to stay far away from me thx :~)

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you're too far away for me to kiss you ://

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I can tell my friends to ditch all the boys that do them wrong but I can't even take my own advice lol

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*bryson tiller's voice* I'm back and I'm sadder

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you left a bitter taste in my mouth

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i know relationships do not validate your worth but when you have never been in one before or even have someone show the slightest bit of romantic interest in you, you start to worry that there’s something wrong with you which sucks bc there’s nothing wrong with you the right person just hasn’t come along yet but also those thoughts won’t leave your head ://

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me: is a sad bean that is ready to be put out of her misery

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why am I still holding on to you when you left me fucked

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I did absolutely nothing wrong yet here I am thinking about all of the things I could have done better to make you stay

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bleh there are so many posts that remind me of you and all I want to do is show them to you but I can't bc you don't want to have anything to do with me :~)

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the thought of you still gets me wet..just not in the way it used to be

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I'm the biggest crybaby I know lol

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it’s not fair that i’m left struggling to keep myself together while you’re doing just fine like none of this ever happened