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Writing Prompt #1401

I was never meant to be the hero. I tried to play the part for a while, but as soon as things got dangerous, I found myself running away the way I always did.

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I’ve changee my Instagram username after like 9 years of having it, I feel weirdly emotional

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y’all saying BLM for one situation just don’t sit right with me, it goes beyond police brutality!!! it’s Black women dying at a higher rate during childbirth. it’s Black people being exposed to COVID-19 at a higher rate. it’s Black people being forced into low income communities. it's Black people being denied job opportunities due to the name on their applications. it's Black people being denied into higher institutions despite having the same qualifications as their non-Black counterparts. it's Black people having their creations and ideas stolen without being given credit simply because a good percentage of society still believes in 2020 that Black people are not creative enough or smart enough or skilled enough. it's the decrease of federal funding for schools in predominantly Black neighborhoods due to gerrymandering. it's the kidnapping and murders of Black people that don't make it on the news. it's Black trans women having a life expectancy of 23 YEARS OLD. it's Black people, especially Black trans people, being incarcerated at disproportionately high rates. this isn't just about police brutality. this is deeper than that.

All Black Lives Matter. Not just the ones you specifically are a fan of.

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Due to personal reasons,

It is now Halloween

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Generalized Anxiety Disorder Checklist

This is a checklist to help one understand Generalized Anxiety Disorder. One may use it to self-diagnose or as a worksheet to present to a doctor or therapist and better communicate symptoms they are experiencing. All information is taken from the DSM-5.

Section I Must check ALL of the following:

I often experience excessive anxiety or worry about a number of events and activities, and this has been an ongoing experience for at least 6 months.

I find it difficult to control these feelings of anxiety or worry.

These feelings cause significant distress in my every day life.

Section II Must check THREE or more of the following:

I experience restless or often feel on edge.

I am easily fatigued.

I have difficulty concentrating, or my mind sometimes goes blank.

I am irritable. 

My muscles will sometimes become tense.

I experience sleep disturbance (difficulty falling or staying asleep, or restless, unsatisfying sleep).

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Section III Common Symptoms and Behaviors (not required for diagnosis):

I avoid events and situations which may trigger my anxiety.

I have anxiety attacks.

I constantly worry about the future.

I am easily stressed by my job, school, etc.

I often become flustered an am unable to deal with the present situation.

If I get too stressed out, I feel short of breathe and need fresh air.

Sometimes, doing household chores feels like something I cannot handle, and I become stressed out.

When I’m stressed, I can become snappy with others.

I constantly worry about the quality of my performances at work and/or school.

When under a lot of pressure or stress, I can become sweaty and/or nauseous. 

When dealing with stressful situations, my heart rate increases and/or I can become incredibly dizzy or short of breath.

I get frequent headaches.

When a situation becomes too much for me, I may simply walk out. (For example, leaving work early because of anxiety.)

My anxiety can affect my appetite.

I sometimes fidget or become physically restless.

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Other disorders to look into include other anxiety disorders, depressive disorders, Autism Spectrum Disorder, and Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder.

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The Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder Checklist

This is a checklist to help one understand Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder. One may use it to self-diagnose or as a worksheet to present to a doctor or therapist  or other medical professional and better communicate symptoms they are experiencing. All information is taken from the DSM-5.

Section I Must check TWO or more of the following: 

My sense of self is derived from my work or productivity, and I may define myself by my accomplishments in these activities.

I have difficulty completing tasks and realizing goals because of the impossibly high standards I set for myself and for others.

I have difficulty understanding or relating to the ideas, feelings, or behaviors of others. (low empathy)

I have difficulty maintaining relationships because I put them second to my work.

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Section II Must check TWO or more of the following:

I have cognition problems and difficulty perceiving myself, other people, and events.

I have affectivity problems and difficulty controlling the range and intensity of my emotional responses.

I have problems with interpersonal functioning and being aware of my own actions and feelings.

I have difficulty controlling my impulses.

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Section III Must check THREE or more of the following, one of which MUST be the first one:

I am a rigid perfectionist, and I am insistent that both my performances and the performances of others are flawless. I am preoccupied with details, organization, and order.

I am persistent at tasks, even after my way of going about things has proved to be ineffective. I am reluctant to change my behaviors.

I tend to avoid any kind of close relationships, including friendships.

I show little reaction to instances which should excite me and I have difficulty expressing myself. Some may describe me as very distant.

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Section IV Must check FOUR or more of the following:

I get so preoccupied with details and organization and schedules that I lose sight of the main task.

I am so much of a perfectionist that it keeps me from finishing work, because I need it to be perfect.

I am excessively devoted to my work, and I often exclude leisure activities and interpersonal relationships.

I am very grounded in my beliefs, morals, values, and ethics and am not easily swayed. 

I find I am unable to discard worn-out or worthless objects, even when they have no sentimental value.

I am reluctant to delegate tasks or to work with others unless they agree to my way of doing things.

I rarely spend money on anything. I tend to hoard it and save it just in case something horrible happens.

I am rigid and stubborn in most situations.

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Section V Must check ALL of the following: 

My symptoms impair my personality and social functioning

My symptoms are consistent across a broad range of personal and social situations.

My symptoms have lasted a while and started in early adulthood or earlier.

My symptoms are not caused by medication, drug use, or another medical condition.

At this point, if you have checked the minimum, you may qualify for a diagnosis of obsessive-compulsive personality disorder. The next section is a compiled list of symptoms, behaviors, thought patterns, etc. often found in OCPD patients.

If you did NOT meet the minimum but relate to many of the symptoms listed, check out Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, especially if you experience intrusive thoughts. If you feel you related to some of the symptoms, but feel many of your symptoms weren’t listed, try anxiety disorders and Bipolar Disorder. If you cleared Sections II and V but still did not meet the minimum, look into other personality disorders.

Section VI Common symptoms and behaviors associated (not required for diagnosis):

I care more about orderliness and making sure everything is done perfectly more than I do about efficiency or flexibility.

I am prone to repetition in tasks and the way I handle things.

I pay very close attention to rules and follow them closely.

I am constantly looking for possible mistakes.

I find time management incredibly difficult because I often become preoccupied. 

I get so flustered trying to get everything together that I often miss deadlines.

I am incredibly devoted to my work.

I can become stir-crazy if I spend too much time relaxing. I often feel I don’t have time to take a day off or spend time doing something fun.

I hate feeling like I’ve wasted time.

If I take too long of a break, I can become incredibly anxious.

When I do spend time with friends, it’s often an organized activity. I do not like spontaneity.

I am my own worst critic.

I am a hoarder.

I am incredibly stingy and live far below what I can actually afford. I try to only focus on necessities.

I tend to plan things ahead in meticulous detail. 

I am especially attentive to my status in relationships and knowing where I stand with people.

I am often uncomfortable with people who are very expressive.

Affection often makes me uncomfortable.

When it comes to expressing myself, I obsess over what I’m going to say until I’m sure it’s perfect.

I am competitive. 

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The Major Depressive Disorder Checklist

This is a checklist to help one understand Major Depressive Disorder. One may use it to self-diagnose or as a worksheet to present to a doctor or therapist and better communicate symptoms they are experiencing. All information is taken from the DSM-5

Section I Must check FIVE or more of the following (and symptoms must be present for two weeks or longer):

I am in a depressed mood most of the day, every day.

I have lost interest in things which I used to enjoy.

I have noticed a change in my weight (either loss or gain), or my appetite as changed (increase or decrease).

I have trouble with sleeping (insomnia or hypersomnia) frequently. 

I experience psychomotor agitation, such as feeling restless and needing to pace around the room.

I feel fatigued or like I have little energy almost every day.

I often feel worthless and/or I feel guilty about being sick or not being able to do things.

I feel like I can’t concentrate, and I have difficulty making decisions.

I have frequent thoughts of dying (either suicidal or simply imagining a non-suicidal death).

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Section II Common Symptoms and Behaviors (not required for diagnosis):

I often miss out on social events because I cannot bring myself to leave my home.

I have difficulty finding the motivation to clean or do other household tasks.

Sometimes, it feels difficult to even get out of bed.

Sometimes, I imagine myself dying in a car accident, or dying in some other way.

I imagine my funeral sometimes and wonder how people would react to it.

I am very indecisive. 

Sometimes, I feel like I’m not really depressed, that maybe I’m just lazy.

I experience a restlessness occasionally and have to move around physically, such as pacing or spinning around in a chair or changing clothes.

I constantly feel the need to apologize for being the way I am.

Sometimes, I can get moody or snappy.

I sometimes feel very numb, like I have no feelings at all.

I sometimes experience body aches and pains, despite not doing any physical activity to cause strain.

I get frequent headaches.

I pick at my skin a lot.

I often feel like I have no energy.

I feel like getting ready in the morning takes twice as long as it should.

Whenever I get sick (even a cold), I feel like it’s my fault it happened.

I often blame myself for things which could not possibly be my fault.

I have difficulty remembering things.

I often have a skewed perception of time.

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Other diagnoses to look into if you feel this doesn’t describe you are anxiety disorders and other depressive disorders. If you you relate to this but still feel it does not describe all of your symptoms, you may want to look into Bipolar Disorder.

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dark academic YA + adult books, for the reader who doesn’t enjoy the old classics:

the raven cycle — maggie stiefvater (YA)

welsh kings, magic forests, obsessive research, private schools.

wilder girls — rory power (YA)

lord of the flies retelling, all-girls boarding school, remote island.

six of crows — leigh bardugo (YA)

murder, crime, heists, magic.

truly devious — maureen johnson (YA)

murder mystery, eccentric students, elite boarding school, 1900s

the night circus — erin morgenstern (A)

magical circus, mysterious psychics, mind games, star crossed love.

the diviners — libba bray (YA)

1920s new york city, wlw + mlm rep, ace rep, occult magic, mysterious museums

vicious — v.e. schwab (A)

an experiment gone wrong, blackout poetry, rivals, strange powers

the cruel prince — holly black (YA)

FAERIES, enemies to lovers, political power struggles, another magic forest

station eleven — emily st. john mandel (A)

shakespeare, thespians, post-apocalyptic wasteland

serpent & dove — shelby mahurin (YA)

witches, french backdrop, 1880s, enemies to lovers, WITCHES

feel free to add on!

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“A masterpiece was created in the Capitol Hill Autonomous Zone today” video by Kyle Kotajarvi

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“ Whenever a Trump supporter asks you to "name one time Trump was racist," feel free to link to this....

1973: The Nixon administration sued Trump for refusing to rent to black people.

1980s: Trump's casinos were accused of hiding the black staff when Trump visited.

1989: Trump took out a full-page ad, arguing for the death penalty for a group of black men (The 'Central Park Five'), effectively putting a bounty on their heads, and plaguing them with a lifetime of death threats. He was sued by the Justice Department for discrimination.

1991: “Black guys counting my money! I hate it. The only kinds of people I want counting my money are short guys that wear yarmulkes every day… I think that the [black] guy is lazy. And it’s probably not his fault, because laziness is a trait in blacks. It really is.”

1992: Trump's casino was fined $200,000 for transferring black dealers off certain tables to appease racist patrons.

1993: Trump said Native American casinos shouldn’t be allowed because “they don’t look like Indians to me.”

2000: Trump ran a series of attack ads against Native American casinos alleging (with no proof) that they were guilty of crimes.

2004: Trump fired a black contestant from 'The Apprentice' for being over-educated.

2010: Trump argued in favor of segregating Muslims in Lower Manhattan.

2011: Birtherism. Trump alleged that Obama was Kenyan based on nothing but skin color. He never apologized nor renounced that claim.

2015 (1): Trump called Mexican immigrants "rapists" who are "bringing crime and drugs" to the U.S.

2015 (2): Trump called for "a ban on all Muslims entering the U.S."

2016 (1): Trump called for a Mexican judge to recuse himself based on nothing other than his race. Paul Ryan said this was “the textbook definition of a racist comment.”

2016 (2): Trump regularly retweeted material from white supremacists and neo-Nazis during his campaign.

2016 (3): Trump tweeted a picture alleging that Hillary was Jewish, or controlled by Jewish people.

2016 (4): The Trump campaign adopted Nixon's "Law and Order" rhetoric which was based in racial fearmongering.

2016 (5): Trump told black voters "What do you have to lose?"

2017 (1): Trump asked a reporter to set up a meeting with the black caucus simply because she was black.

2017 (2): "...some very fine people on both sides" said Trump of a violent Nazi rally.

2017 (3): Trump said people from Haiti "all have AIDS" and people from Nigeria would never “go back to their huts” after seeing America.

2018 (1): Trump called Haiti and African countries shitholes.

2018 (2): Trump referenced the trail of tears to mock Elizabeth Warren.

2019: Trump tweeted that four black and brown congresswomen should go back where they came from. Then attacked Elijah Cummings. Then Baltimore. Then Al Sharpton.

2020: Trump called black protesters "THUGS" just days after calling white protesters "very good people." Then he threatened to direct the military to shoot the black protestors in the street.”-Translate Trump

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tired of jk rowling?? sick of hp being written incredibly straight and boring, doing a disservice to the amazing concept of the wizarding world? try reading the simon snow series by rainbow rowell (book 1 is carry on)

originally a hp spoof that became so much more, you still have the chosen one to save the wizarding world but this time with representation all across the board! better yet, the final book (book 3) is currently in progress, so it'll be nicely wrapped up soon instead of being dragged on for 7 books and a billion shitty spin-offs.

stan rainbow rowell, thanks.

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hey everyone we’re in the BA test kitchen and today we’re demanding that bon appetit stops exploiting its editors of color to fake diversity and compensates them fairly for the time and labor that theyve had stolen from them

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god every day, daniel radcliffe gives me a new reason to love him. he just put joke karen rowling on blast for her shitty-ass terf beliefs.