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hello i got bored

they say it's a privilege to be bored. i still don't get why LOL.

it's still me-- your tired (100% bc of my current job), silly, emotional, edgelord who's once again turning into writing as a form of therapy. therapy whomst? i have tumblr and my english words...thing. anyway, it's already april aka my birth month! bc i wanna look tsundere or sound like one, i keep on telling people to not really give my birthday that much importance but on the contrary, i really look forward to it that i pretty much chill for the entire month. i really don't want anything else as a gift (bc minimalism, duh!) so that's good. my bf gave me a coach bag and i had asked my mom to pay 2k for the bdo cc for this month so uhh, yeah. i have nothing more to ask for. at 25, i honestly am not looking forward to doing more things (bc i get easily tired of it, be it hobbies, etc.) but i think i'd like to learn more about myself and really take it slow. tbh as of writing, i still don't know what i'd like to do in life. earning money is nice but thinking of something else i'd love to do (perhaps for the rest of my life) that could also be a form of income is hard and terrifying. for me, at least. i am also having second thoughts about college bc lol i already earn decent (??) money so why should i even bother going back? it only looks good on paper imho LMAO. but let me think about it again. also just to praise myself (praise kink LMFAO i'm embarassing) i think i've somewhat managed how to do household chores apart from cooking, which i am yet to explore. atleast i finally got something right LMAO. for my 25th birthday, i would love to find my purpose in life. i've been doing it for the past years but i really can't seem to know. who am i even? LMAO. how many times have i changed myself just to keep people? :( well, let me introduce myself again.

my name is _____ joy _____, 24 years old. i love cats and the color pink. i prefer to be quiet but when i find you cool and nice, i might open up myself (a bit) to you. i do not like inconveniences (be it minor or major LMAO) and i always find ways to make life easier for me, at the cost of...uh...things and maybe, people? :( i am a homebody and i would prefer to stay indoors rather than go outside. i give things with all my might until i'm emptied out. i also do care about how my actions impact the world that we live in so as much as possible, i really try to minimize my carbon footprint. but when i get pissed off (usually over minor inconveniences) i just release all of my wrath. i also am trying to be better at taking care of myself by releasing all the stress and negativity into working out. i have been doing pilates and i'm trying to keep at it by doing it atleast 2 to 3 times a week. and i love reading about horoscopes and all that corny shit (srsly, i should really get back to reading books be it digital or not.) i also do believe in manifestations so here's a list of what i plan to achieve/pursue and manifest:

be more grateful

be more active (physically LMAO)

be more conscious (slow-living and minimalism FTW)

finally let go of my baggages :(

save up for the future

spend more time with my mom

venture into crypto, stocks and freelancing

find a passive income/another source of income

i think that'll be all for now. heh. the ones in bold are what i'm currently anxious about LOL JK. but yeah, i really want another source of income when i haven't even saved up yet. welp.

thank you for not giving up, self.

also, thank you to those who'd always believed in me and what i am capable of.

E

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realizations @ 1 am

hi!

i feel like i should write more because i don't like talking too much nor opening up to anyone. not even to my mom or my boyfriend (yes, we're ok now.) i can't help but wonder about a lot of things- am i doing great or fine? do i have enough time? is there more to this? can i be and do more than this? sometimes, i feel like i'm not pushing (?) my self's full potential. i know i can do SO MANY THINGS, i just don't want to (most of the time. e.g. studying. not just college but the stock market, english, etc.) i always whine about how i don't have enough time but really, i'm just lazy. was i depressed? i don't remember clearly but i know for a fact that there were days i felt like shit. i didn't want to do anything- i just wanted to sleep, mope around and cry silently. i usually cry when nobody's around. but now, like right now while i am writing this post, i feel like i've gotten better and things have gotten better too. i'm only human so yes there may be times that i cry but i am trying to build myself again (me, a 24-year old office worker LOL) for a better me? i've learned how to make coffee, make time for cleaning, exercising. and i wanna do and know more. i grew up in a loving, sheltered home (to which i am thankful for, please don't misunderstand) and my mom and grandpa pretty much did everything for their unica hija; you get it the picture. i feel like i'm still a 10 year old stuck in a 24-year old person's body at times: i'm petty, i'm childish, i don't know how to cook. i want to learn more so i can take care of, not only myself, but the people around me.

now that i've figured it all out, all i have to do now is make time for everything. take atleast an hour or two for these things on a daily basis. i'll build a realistic routine for my daily life. i want to do chores at our pasay home, too. i want my mom to live a very comfortable life as she did the best that she could to give me one. for now, i keep my lists on google keeps while i try to figure out how notion works.

it does get better, no? :)

E

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new beginnings

hi! it's been so long since the last time i've posted on this blog and as the title suggests, there were a lot of changes that occurred in my life recently. i no longer work as an analyst/agent, i actually got promoted as a quality auditor so now, i do the markdowns and people get mad at me for pointing out their mistakes (LOL, /srs.) i took a salary advance (SALAD) from my payroll account to buy a loft bed which is honestly 1000000 out of 10 because no matter how tired my boyfriend and i are, this bed just miraculously makes us feel so well-rested after sleeping on it. we also adopted a cat from cats of araneta, his name is oreo but unfortunately, he got diagnosed with FIP (a viral disease in cats) so we had to give him back to them (miss luchie aka rich cat lady) so he can get the proper attention he needed. it was really expensive. the expenses from that day aside from our expenses (gas & food) added up to around PHP2,700 and that was only for the xray and blood test. when we found out about the diagnosis, the rich cat lady called me and told me over the phone that there's this wonder drug that helps cats get better however it has to be injected onto the cat's skin. well, unfortunately, since i live with my boyfriend and my mom is a scaredy cat, we had to really give him up and wait until he gets better in the next 90 days. the vet said that it was good that oreo got diagnosed early as he's still a kitten so he's got a big fighting chance. this wonder drug sure is expensive; i'm kinda stupid at maths but from what i've understood, a day's worth of the shot would cost as 500 x 90 days = PHP45,000. it was really sad and i felt so little because even my promoted paycheck couldn't afford it. and i'm having a hard time being an auditor because aside from doing audits, my supervisors also ask me to do other things like taking minutes for their meetings and doing reports and graphics. i just really hope that, at the end of the day, what i did for them was enough for them to see and decide that i deserve to be promoted as an intern and then get absorbed as an auditor for real. i even had to ignore wells fargo because of this opportunity.

onwards to better days.

E

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la union, 2019

i took these photos using my huawei p20. i remember how disappointed i was because the so-called beach view in the airbnb we had booked as not as accurate as it would be due to the typhoon and rains hence we had to go to a “proper” beach so i could see the sea properly. i personally didn’t like the waves because they were too strong but my boyfriend enjoyed surfing. 

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Resources for Mending Clothes

We toss out over 80 pounds of textiles each year. These textiles are often made of plastic materials (polyester, nylon), made in unethical conditions, dyed with harsh dyes that often get put into the rivers, etc. Even a single cotton shirt releases carbon emissions and uses tons of water. 

So the best thing to prevent the unsustainable growth of the fashion industry is to make sure that your clothing lasts as long as possible. To do so, mending clothing is a must. So here are some resources to help you learn how to do various things, such as sewing a button, to tailoring clothes, or even upcycling old clothing into new styles. 

* How to sew on three different types of button

* How to hand sew on a patch on a torn pair of jeans

* How to sew up a hole in an old shirt

* How to sew a simple T-shirt

* How to upcycle old clothing into new clothing

* More upcycle and sewing techniques

* How to repair a damaged sock

* How to do an invisible stitch

* 3 different stitches to work with for different results

* How to make a T-shirt smaller so it fits you better

* How to make repairs to your shoes

These are just a few of the things that you can do in order to make sure that your clothing lasts for a long time. Nobody wants to keep buying new clothing, as it is expensive and wasteful. 

So making alterations to your clothing, or fixing small holes hen you see them can be hugely beneficial to your wallet, to garment workers, and to the environment in the long term. 

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goodbye 2020!

hello, it has been SOO LOOOOOOONG since the last time i wrote stuff here. this year was really hard with all that’s going on around the world so i am extremely grateful that my family and i are still well and not infected with covid 19. i still have my job and i’m gonna be on my 2nd year at work this january. i was able to catch up with my bills and i even got to save a bit of extra money. we have food to eat and most importantly, i work at home instead of going to the office. i am really thankful for the opportunity and i hope that my company would continue to allow me to work at home because this setup has saved me so much energy and money. i no longer have to talk to people and i only stay at home. i work during my shift and i eat homecooked meals. my boyfriend works at home too so we really did save a lot, somehow. our internet connection also never let us down when it comes to being fast. my heart is just so full and i am scared and excited at the same time of what’s next in store for me. next year is the year the year of the ox and being an ox myself, here is a list of my plans/goals for 2021:

1. pay the hsbc card in full and never use it again

2. be more patient with people, be it at work or at home

3. be really serious with my pilates and work out everyday

4. build an emergency fund

5. pay off my ust tuition and start studying in cap again

6. invest in the stock market 

7. be intentional and mindful with my spending and choosing the items to buy

8. cook more at home hehe and spend less on milktea/snacks

9. get a side hustle and study about freelancing

to be honest, i really still do not know what i want to do for the rest of my life so i hope i get to figure that one out soon because i am not getting any younger. T3T i am turning 24 soon and i think i’s about time i know what to do with the limited time that i have here on the planet. however i am glad that i can finally say, i am genuinely contented with where i am and what i have. now i just have to be genuinely happy, huh? :)

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hi tumblr folks! am back from my uber cute pink vaio laptop :) today’s my rest day as we speak so i am at our pad *my boyfriend and i’s shared place) man, i need a new keyboard soon, this one’s in japanese and im having a hard time LOL, i havent done anything productive today (im so so sorry mr buffet TT) but i got my motivation back so dont worry ;) im planning to clean around the house from shoes to our so-called wOrK aReA :D wish me luck!

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A flower does not think of competing to the flower next to it. It just blooms.

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Your current state is a result of your past actions so don’t be discouraged if things aren’t going right. Focus on the present so you can change your future.

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“what would you really want out of life?”

i was taken aback when i was asked. i remember back then. me being an only child and honestly, i wasn’t born with much but my mom always tried her best to give me whatever i want. be it barbie dolls, food or those places to be- she always gave them to me, at a price. i had to stay the best among the rest at school, i have to be polite, i have to be the perfect daughter. looking back now, i think it worked for me but lately, i feel like i amounted to nothing even after all those trophies, medals and certificates. here i am, 12 midnight, crying while writing and making sure no one hears me because i don’t want my mom to ever worry about me. i’ve been a mess emotionally for some time now and of course, with all my might and as long as i am alive, i promise i will stay alive and i will work hard until i get to the top again. whenever i’m this sad, i try to remember all of those friends i’ve lost all over the years who always cheered me on and believed that i was the prettiest, the best and the most hardworking person they had ever met. especially, that one bts concert where i was just there crying and i made a promise that i will stay alive for maybe a couple of years more just so i can see their success and maybe their attitude will rub off with mine. and to my ever-so positive boyfriend who annoys me sometimes (but it’s okay i love him anyway).. recently, i just wanna cut people off, honestly. i came to realize that i should be alive for me and for no one else. i have to be honest though, money really is important to me because growing up, i saw people around me who had more of it and  i told myself, hey, wouldn’t it be nice if i could get some too for us? lo and behold, here i am, 21, a college undergraduate working again as an esl instructor to pay for my education, still a nobody. i think it’s funny too, because where we live, people envy us for i don’t even fucking know, was it the way we carry ourselves? was it the way i dress? or was it the sm plastic bags that we carry or my sprees from forever 21? i really don’t know why. little do they know is the hard work (and probably the depression, too haha), the OT hours that i had to bargain for just so i can afford but it’s nice to pretend every once in a while that it was easy. just nod and smile. 

a million would sound really amazing as well (HAHAHAHA) but i think i’d wanna see myself grow person-wise and career-wise. i wanna be bold and daring again- seeking new heights that i could take myself to. i wanna learn how to code, go to far flung places, build businesses, do volunteer work, be rich. fuck, this life will not be enough for what i want to be done! SMART-wise though, i know i will slowly get there. i wanna be the first programmer, esl  instructor, digital creative, polyglot, weaboo, k-pop stan, translator, proofreader, girl boss out there. it sounds tiring (and i haven’t even done shit to get there LMAO) but i will do the best that i can even if it will cost me my arms and my legs. 

to sum it up, i hope the rest of 2018 finally works for me. i promise, and i fucking swear to god this is the last time that i will sulk over these. i wish i could get my old competitive side though rather than my depressed, dreary side. that bitch almost made me reach my goals until the latter took over. as the koreans always say, to myself, whom we will call joy, you’ve done well. fighting! one day, i will be on top again and i would never ever have to worry about anything else.

until then, i can only work hard with what i have. here’s to hoping for better outcomes and a fulfilling life. 

J

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hello, michelle! i was wondering if you explain how to make your circle icons with those circle textures you included in your texture pack?

hi! of course. ♡ 

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