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When tumblr refreshes itself and the fic I was reading fucking disappears forever đ

Iâve been searching for a smau I was reading for three days đ
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Creamy or Crunchy

Pairing: Avenger!Bucky x Avenger!Reader
Summary: Bucky joins you grocery shopping to everyoneâs surprise.
Word Count: 3.7k
Warnings: Bucky hovering; Bucky knowing his favorite people; little bit of protective!Bucky
Authorâs Note: I donât know what this is but I was in need of some silly fluff. Hope you enjoy! âĄ
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Heâs been trailing after you since you left the tower, stuck to your side.
Not in an obvious way, not in a manner that would draw stares or second glances, but in that ever-present way of his - like a second shadow or an old instinct that never really shuts off.
Youâve barely gone five blocks to the nearest grocery store, and Bucky has stuck close the whole time, keeping pace without a word.
It caught everyone off guard when he volunteered to come with you.
He had been slouched in his usual spot at the kitchen counter, cradling a cup of coffee he never seemed to finish, and looking like he had nowhere in particular to be. So when he had straightened, eyes trained on how you pulled on your shoes and muttered a gruff âIâll come with you,â there was a moment of pause in the conversation between Natasha, Steve, Clint and Sam lounging on the couch in the common room.
Even you had blinked at him, thrown off by the suddenness of it.
Still, you didnât argue.
Normally, grocery shopping isnât something that interests anyone in the tower. It is a mundane, civilian thing - something of a life most of you had long since left behind.
There are people who handle it, services that deliver whatever you need at the touch of a button. But you arenât looking for efficiency. You are looking for something real - something that can make you feel like a human being again.
Youâd just gotten back yesterday from a month-long solo mission in Vorkuta, Russia. It was rather harsh. You spent those weeks in the cold, in silence, every step a deliberate calculation, every breath rationed as if you werenât entirely sure when youâd be allowed another. You operated alone, only allowed to talk to Tony once a week for updates. It was the kind of quiet that made a person feel less like a person and more like an echo.
So you need something normal now. Something unremarkable.
No mission, no intel, no carefully rehearsed exit strategies.
Just a trip to the store, because you want to pick out your own food instead of eating whatever shows up in the towerâs stocked fridge. You want to grab things impulsively - maybe a bag of chips you donât need or a carton of juice just because it looks good.
You want the simple, stupid pleasure of choosing something, just because. Of standing under the fluorescent hum of grocery store lights and deciding between brands of cereal and coffee creamers like it actually matters.
And Bucky, for all his presence, says nothing.
He just walks with you, hands stuffed into his pockets, eyes darting between the sidewalk and the people passing by. He is relaxed, but only just. There is tension in the way he moves, like he is running an assessment every few steps, tracking details of things you donât care about at the moment.
The doors to the store slide open with a mechanical hiss, spilling warm, artificial air onto the street.
Inside, there is that familiar smell of waxed floors and cold produce, the sounds of shoppers, the beeping of registers.
A cart squeaks somewhere to your left. A child giggles near the bakery section. A bored-looking cashier stares blankly at the register screen. A tired-locking employee is restocking shelves.
Itâs nothing special. But it feels real and humane in a way you need.
Bucky steps in behind you, scanning the store out of habit, then looking at you as if waiting for direction.
You grab a basket and move forward.
He follows without a word.
You walk through fruits and vegetables in bright, and glassy colors, stacked in neat abundance. The air smells like citrus, earth, the scent of misted greens, and something fairly plastic all slightly overwhelming your senses after a month of smelling mostly cold air.
You extend a hand toward the lemons, fingers brushing the textured skin of one when you feel the weight of the basket shift.
Buckyâs hand curls around the handle, pulling it from your grip and holding it himself.
Your gaze snaps up to him, but he isnât looking at you. Not directly. His eyes are fixed on the rows of produce in front of you, his brows drawn together just slightly, his mouth set in that endearing little frown.
He stands close. Close enough that you can feel the warmth of him. Close enough that, if you shifted just an inch, the fabric of his sleeve would brush against yours.
Itâs not intentional, this proximity - itâs more like a habit. He doesnât seem to realize heâs doing it, doesnât notice the way his presence expands to fill the space between you until thereâs almost nothing left.
He exhales through his nose, shifting his weight slightly, eyes sweeping the fruit display as if itâs something to be figured out rather than casually shopping through.
His metal fingers whir slightly as he flexes his grip around the basket handle.
âThis is a lot,â he murmurs, almost absently.
You keep glancing at him. It takes you a second to realize he is speaking at all, his voice being so quiet, a thought that accidentally made its way out.
âWhat?â you ask softly.
His eyes fall to you briefly, then back to the fruit. His mouth tightens, jaw working, debating whether to explain it or just let it drop.
âBack then,â he says, still not quite looking at you. His eyes scan the apples, the oranges, the rows of neatly stacked avocados and kiwis and papayas flown in from places he never got to see. âYou had your basics. Apples. Pears. Some oranges, if you were lucky. But this?â He tilts his head slightly. âThis is a lot.â
He doesnât say it with wonder. He says it with assessment, categorizing this excess, measuring it against whatever memory of the past lingers in the spaces of his mind. Like he is trying to decide if this abundance is a good thing or just another shift in the world that changed without him.
For a second you wonder, if he is talking to you at all - or just thinking out loud, caught between time periods, a man stretched across decades that wonât quite line up.
Your fingers brush the lemons again, grabbing one and carefully putting it in the basket Bucky is holding. âWell,â you mumble, keeping your voice light. âYou should see the cereal aisle.â
Bucky huffs out something thatâs almost a laugh, something genuine and his eyes land on you again.
You move and pluck what you need. Apples, zucchini, a handful of bright bell peppers. A bundle of fresh basil, its scent still on your fingertips - something Wanda has been asking for. Some mangoes, ripe and golden, the kind Sam offhandedly mentioned craving the other day.
Bucky watches.
He doesnât reach for anything himself, just keeps his grip on the basket as you fill it and trails closely after you.
His eyes track every motion - the way your fingers test the hardness of an avocado, the way you turn a tomato in your palm, the way you pause just a second before deciding on a bunch of grapes.
He simply observes.
You step over to the plums.
Their deep purple skins glisten under the lights, some nearly black, some streaked with dusky red. You pick one up, pressing it lightly with your thumb, feeling the faint give beneath your touch. Satisfied, you reach for more, slipping them into a paper bag one by one.
Bucky doesnât say anything.
But you feel him.
The attention he gives you.
His face is unreadable, expression carefully neutral, but there is something behind his eyes - something considering, something caught between memory and recognition.
You donât know if he realizes you are getting them for him.
You donât know if he remembers, or if it is just something subconscious, some buried instinct nudging at him in a way he canât understand.
But you remember. You remember the way he stared at the heap of plums on the kitchen counter weeks ago, the way his fingers had twitched with a want to take one, but he hadnât. And the way he watched Wanda as she used them to make a pie he didnât end up eating.
âDo you want some more?â Your voice is casual, warm. And when you glance up at him, he is already looking at you.
Then, almost abruptly, he clears his throat, dropping his gaze. The fingers of his metal hand flex once around the basket handle. He shifts his stance slightly but does not move away from you. When he speaks, his voice is low, almost careful, almost bashful.
âSâ fine.â
But you catch the almost-question in the way his eyes move around, how his fingers tighten and release.
So you grab a handful more and drop them into the bag without a word. Then you fold the top down and place it into the basket.
Bucky doesnât look away this time.
And he continues wandering along with you through the aisles.
The plums sit among other products and you catch him glancing at them once or twice.
You reach for a carton of eggs when there is a shift.
Not in the air, not in the store itself, but in Bucky.
His posture tightens, his grip on the basket adjusts slightly. You donât immediately know why, but then you turn your head and see a man standing a few feet away, watching you.
Itâs not overtly threatening, not enough to draw attention, but something about his gaze lingers too long, too deliberate. His eyes trace the shape of you, moving slow, assessing. He isnât leering, isnât smirking, but the way he looks makes your skin prickle.
He seems to debate if he should say something. Waiting for an opportunity.
You barely have time to move away before Bucky does.
He doesnât make a sound, doesnât say a word, just shifts seamlessly into place - between you and the man.
Itâs not a dramatic gesture. No sudden motions, no confrontational stance. Just his presence - him planting himself in the way, broad shoulders squaring, jaw setting, scowling.
That man takes his brown eyes away from you and meets Buckyâs gaze, and whatever he sees there - whatever lives behind those icy blue eyes - is enough to make him rethink his interest. He looks away, scratching the back of his head, shuffling back a step, and seems suddenly far more interested in bread.
You exhale softly. Bucky doesnât move.
He stays right where he is, a silent wall between you and whatever attention you havenât wanted. His scowl lingers for a second longer before he glances back at you, eyes sweeping over your face as if he is making sure you are fine.
You tilt your head, offering a small, gentle smile. âEverything good?â
His lips twitch, almost like he wants to say something but doesnât quite know how to form those words.
âYeah,â he mutters, swallowing.
But his stance is still slightly stiff, his fingers canât stay calm around the basket handle. And he glances, just once, in the manâs direction - making sure he stays gone.
Something warm fills your chest.
You missed him, while you were gone.
Heâs always such a grounding presence at your side.
You missed his dry, reluctant commentary whenever the team does something ridiculous.
You missed walking into the common area with him brooding in his usual chair, pretending not to listen to conversations heâd eventually grumble his way into.
He was there when you stepped off the jet yesterday.
It wasnât necessary for him to be there, it was six in the morning, after all, but he was.
He hadnât said much - he never says much - but his eyes ran over you in a way that told you he had been waiting. That there was something heavy underneath that furrowed brow and the almost too casual nod he gave you. Something like relief. Satisfaction. And something much more profound.
You remember how he was when you left.
Standing off to the side of the hangar, arms crossed, jaw pressed tight as you made your final checks. It also wasnât necessary for him to be there, but, again, he was.
He said goodbye briefly, wished you luck, but in the way you felt him watch you board the jet it seemed there was more he wanted to tell you.
And when the engines had roared to life, when the ground beneath you had begun to shrink, you caught the last glimpse of him - standing stiff, pensive, his mouth pressed into a thin line.
Now, he walks beside you, trailing just a half-step behind, his grip steady around the basket that should be in your hands, watching you more than anything youâre planning to buy.
Maybe thatâs why he came with you.
Maybe thatâs why he hasnât strayed, why he hovers close, why his eyes find you like he is memorizing something he doesnât want to lose track of again.
Maybe he missed you, too.
He is not grumpy, but there is still a tension in him. Something wound too tight in his shoulders, in the set of his jaw, in the way he glances at you like he wants to say something and then doesnât.
You canât have that.
Your eyes scan the shelves as you walk further along, knowing that Bucky will follow.
âWhat kind of soup does Steve eat?â
Buckyâs brows pull together at your casual question, as if he canât believe thatâs what you asked. âSoup?â
You nod, dead serious. âYeah. I mean, does he have a favorite? Chicken noodle? Tomato? Something tragic, like plain broth?â
Bucky exhales sharply, almost a laugh and something in him relaxes ever so slightly. He tilts his head back a little as if this is the most absurd thing anyone has ever asked him, but he humors you.
âSteve doesnât eat plain broth,â he says in that low rasp that sometimes sends a shiver down your spine. Now is sometimes. âHeâs got more sense than that.â
You hum thoughtfully, reaching for a can on the shelf, inspecting it like it holds the answer to some great mystery.
âSo what is it, then? Something classic? Or does he secretly go for the weird gourmet stuff?â
Bucky steps closer, peering over your shoulder. The fabric of his jacket brushes against your back.
You glance up at him, arching your brow.
âYou donât know, do you?â
Bucky rolls his eyes, but his face is soft. The scowl has faded. There is a tug at the corner of his mouth. âOf course, I know.â
âUh-huh.â
He huffs, reaching past you to grab a can from the shelf, fingers brushing yours briefly. âClam chowder,â he utters. âThere. Happy?â
You blink, genuinely caught off guard. âWait. Really?â
Bucky smirks, just a little, just enough to be real.
âYeah,â he says, voice a bit quieter. âReally.â
âWell, then,â you quip, taking the can off his hands and putting it in the basket. âHe shall have it.â
Bucky huffs out an amused laugh.
You walk a little slower now, Bucky falls into step beside you. He seems lighter now, his face softened as he watches a little boy excitedly run off to a certain aisle while his mother calls out for him.
You plan on keeping him that way.
You spot a ridiculously, colorful display stacked high with an array of different kinds of peanut butter.
âCreamy or crunchy?â
Bucky blinks, turning to look at you. âWhat?â
You gesture toward the display like itâs obvious. âSteve. What kind of peanut butter does he eat? Creamy or crunchy?â
There is a beat of silence. Then, something seems to turn alive in Buckyâs expression. His lips twitch as if he suppresses a smirk and doesnât want to give you the satisfaction.
âYou serious?â
âDeadly.â You fold your arms, tilting your head. âI feel like heâs a creamy peanut butter guy, but I could be wrong.â
Bucky is hovering again, looking at the shelves like this is suddenly a debate worth considering. His arm brushes against your side, but he doesnât move away.
âYouâre wrong.â
You glance at him, eyebrows raised. âOh?â
âHeâs a crunchy guy,â Bucky says, reaching for a jar with his flesh hand and inspecting it like proof. âSays the creamy stuffâs got no texture. No character.â
You snort.
Bucky hums, still holding the jar, rolling it absently in his hand. He looks at ease. The basket dangles from his metal fingers as if it weighs nothing, even though it is filled with products.
You watch him.
The tension in his shoulders is practically gone and you know you should probably leave it there, but you donât.
Because you want more.
More of this, more of him, more of that unguarded space where he forgets to be closed off.
So, you bite your lip and tilt your head at him before asking carefully. âWhat about you?â
Bucky glances at you, a small crease forming between his brows. âWhat about me?â
You gesture vaguely. âWhat kind of peanut butter do you like?â
For a moment, he just stares at you, like the question has never occurred to him before. Like no oneâs ever bothered to ask.
You can almost see the gears turning in his head, his fingers tightening slightly around the jar. The hesitation is there. He doesnât know how to answer. Perhaps he doesnât know if he has a preference. Or itâs just been a long, long time since someone cared enough to ask.
You wait, patiently.
Finally, he lets out a cough, looking back at the display as if searching for an answer among the shelves. ââŚCrunchy,â he mutters. âI guess.â
You gin. âYeah?â
He shifts his weight, looking rather uncomfortable but not in a bad way. Just unsure. This is unfamiliar ground for him, not knowing what to do with the attention.
You reach forward and pluck the jar from his hand before he can second-guess himself.
âAlright,â you say, dropping it into the basket with a decisive little thud. âCrunchy it is.â
Bucky observes you do it, something shimmering in his expression - something soft, a little hesitant, but warm. Like this tiny, seemingly meaningless choice holds a weight to him.
His jaw flexes slightly, as if he is about to say something, but he just exhales through his nose and shakes his head. âYouâre ridiculous.â
But there is no bite to it.
And this time, he is the one to start walking, making sure you come along, staying just a little closer than before.
You are nearing the checkout registers when Bucky suddenly stops walking. Itâs so abrupt that you almost keep going, but the absence of him beside you makes you pause.
You turn, finding him standing in front of a shelf, scanning its contents with a strange kind of focus, considering something.
You wait, watching the way his eyes search the options, his brows furrowing slightly. There is no tension in his posture, no obvious reason for the sudden stop - just deliberation.
Then, without a word, he reaches out, grasps a familiar-looking package, and drops it into the basket.
A soft thud.
Your gaze falls down, and your stomach does something strange when you realize what it is.
Chocolate-covered almonds.
The ones you always grab when youâre wandering the towerâs kitchen late at night, mind still wired from a mission, too awake to sleep but too tired to focus on anything real.
The ones you mindlessly snack on when youâre curled up on the couch, half-listening to, half-joining a conversation, or watching a movie.
The ones you didnât even realize you had a thing for until you see them sitting in the basket between his plums, Steveâs soup, and the peanut butter Bucky prefers.
Your lips part slightly, surprised, searching his face. âYou- Whyâd you grab these?â
Bucky doesnât even hesitate.
âBecause you like them.â
Matter-of-fact. Simple. As if itâs obvious.
Just a fact.
Like itâs something he has known all along, something he has cataloged somewhere deep in that careful, quiet mind of his without ever making a big deal of it.
The realization unsettles you - not in a bad way, but in the kind of way that makes your chest feel suddenly too full.
You swallow, the corners of your lips twitching slightly, trying to ignore the warmth creeping up your neck.
âHow do you know that?â
The words leave your lips lightly, bright with curiosity, playful in their demand. But beneath it, there is something you donât quite let slip.
Something about the fact that heâs been watching.
That heâs noticed.
That he has paid attention in a way you didnât think anyone has.
His grip on the basket adjusts for the hundredth time, but not because itâs heavy, he just seems to need something to do with his hands.
He schools his expression into something nonchalant, something careless, but itâs betrayed by the hint of warmth dusting across his cheekbones.
âYouâre always munchinâ on âem,â he says, a teasing edge lacing his voice. He tries to sound smug, like it is an observation, just a simple fact, but there is something softer beneath it. Something like fondness.
You donât even know if itâs been that obvious. If you truly eat these things out in the open that often.
Or if he just really is that observant.
That realization settles deep in your chest, warm and startling all at once.
So you just huff, pretending like your heart isnât skipping beats, like his answer isnât winding around something tender inside you.
âWell,â you remark, nudging his arm as you start walking again, ânow I feel self-conscious about my snacking habits.â
Bucky lets out a soft chuckle. And when he falls into step beside you, he leans in slightly, voice just low enough for you to hear.
âDonât.â

âThe most sincere compliment we can pay is attention.â
- Walter Anderson

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whyyy is any attempt at being productive like an endlessly dragging negotiation with a kindergardener like okay buddy we'll go to the library and put the phone in the locker okay? Yes you can scroll tumblr later okay. Yes you can watch that mildly interesting two hour long video later, now it's time to do the thing that you actually deeply care about and want to do. No it's not boring, remember, you wanted to do this, you were excited for it? Yes I know thinking about it is more fun than doing it but I promise once you do it it'll be very satisfying. I know it's already the afternoon but there's still many hours in the day so it's not wasted yet, we can still do things. No don't grab your phone again. Yes, you can have a snack too. Come on now please.
I mean I know why, it's the ADHD, but still you'd think I'd get better at this eventually
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When you're reading an x reader fanfic but suddenly your name is Rachel
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bucky has a disability??
he doesnât have an arm.
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ADHD is so debilitating and it isnât talked about enough. Imagine your body doesnât produce enough of the most essential neurotransmitter. You are constantly seeking this neurotransmitter through any way possible, and itâs why you get addicted to doing things or focusing so heavily on something you forget to meet every single basic need.
You sit there and question what the fuck is wrong with you because it was so easy to study yet you just didnât do it. It was so easy to do the things you stopped doing but you literally canât do them.
Like wtf do you fucking mean I was born with a chemical imbalance that makes me incapable of getting up??? Wtf do you mean I have to take stimulants to counteract crippling ADHD symptoms, and then those stimulants actually just make me like everyone else????
Dude. What the fuck.
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oops! all cats! đ
quickly drew this as i patiently await @pseudowho next âmrs nyanyaminâ installment
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this fandom is a prison
when you go away, i still see you
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Hyperfixations can be wonderful but be careful because if you go too deep The Sickness. It gets you. The Sickness.
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