yeahitsdevoune

[yeahitsdevoune]

forgot to take my meds oopsies

[yeahitsdevoune]

i want to thrive

[yeahitsdevoune]

my impact

[yeahitsdevoune]

i got work in the morning, love everyone who loves me, hate everyone else!

[yeahitsdevoune]

i need lil peep music to hold me not fix me cuz that cannot fix me right now

[yeahitsdevoune]

if we look on the bright side though i’m going back to college!

[yeahitsdevoune]

n then dating people sucks too cuz nobody wants to be seen with the skeleton like holy shit

[yeahitsdevoune]

another thing that’s insane while i’m speaking about my health issues is that it doesn’t help that the process to transfer ur medical information from state to state is impossible unless u create a physical fucking binder of all ur treatments scans diagnoses etc. it’s like do that n get cds of all ur scans keep all ur paperwork ORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

start fresh in a new state

[yeahitsdevoune]

my health been awful this shit this year à cherry on top then it doesn’t help thst i can’t barely eat n got fucking hsd so my joints n shit made of fucking red vines n be fuckin up. i need nothing more, no more bullshit, just hugs n help. i blocked that mf today i just need hugs n help. everything feels like too much n the worst part is i can’t even really cry about shit but the rent part cuz that’s the only thing. n then i start my new job tomorrow n i just need a moment to feel like ugh wait. just wait i need a lil relief as a breather. if i speak yo.

[yeahitsdevoune]

the fact that u have to get imaging done before you do biopsies is corporate greed like just cut my lumps out n call it a day

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cuz just the commute to the doctors is taxing then i gotta pay these ridiculous copay’s lmfao, n my doc emailing me like yoooo u still coming????? yoooo after she put the tickets in in the summer n i’m here like noooo…. no…. cuz i gotta pAy ReNt is peak adulthood.

medical care feeling like a luxury i don’t have time n money for is hilarious…

[yeahitsdevoune]

i needed nothing that happened the past four years n it kept fucking happening n happening n happening n i did my due diligence n protected people i shouldn’t have n lied for people who didn’t fucking deserve it i’m so tired

[yeahitsdevoune]

2 biopsies to schedule i can’t do either i just gotta let it grow let it grow

[yeahitsdevoune]

medical care feeling like a luxury i don’t have time n money for is hilarious…

[yeahitsdevoune]

so busy focusing on rent i still haven’t gotten my biopsies done n my doctor been emailing me to remind me of that like medical care sound like a luxury living my life like this. i’m bone thin n barely eating n walking everywhere cuz my car fucked up. i wheeze at night n struggle to breathe cuz of my lymph adenopathy or whatever n i’m still focused on fucking rent. then my fucking ex … if i speak… so it’s like yeah n i get a x-ray n yeah n i find out that the meds i was previously on give people cancer n yeah so it’s like YAY

[yeahitsdevoune]

if i speak