yanishkapandey

[yanishkapandey]

To love him selflessly without any desire to be loved back. To adore every little neuron of him. He was definitely what poets talked about, definitely the one to make me one. Owning him along with all his lapse and all his mistakes, That he shall be mine no matter what. And I’ll look after everything. Never does it seems that he has any scarcity. He doesn’t lack anything in my eyes, as he thinks he does. He was perfect for my world. Loving him and owning him with all the convictions, flawlessly. I liked him so much, i lost my whole life to him when i fell for him. I decided that i want him to be here forever just like this. Everly and eternally, his pretty little face wrapped around my arms. But then when he left me. I possibly did everything in my power. I got mad, I cried, i sang, i wrote, i begged, i prayed, i persuaded. Just to keep him a little longer, to keep his presence , until his memories became my only friend. That is when i crossed all my limits of love, all the lunatic, neurotic love and insanity ended along with the tenderness in my heart. That is when i only wanted to see him happy, safe and surrounded with love. Even if his silly little idea of being happy was in roaming around with his beloved friends in the middle of nowhere at 4 in the morning or it was talking to every other girl to exist in this world except me. To watch him grow, from a distance. To watch him become this big huge man that i wanted to make for our babies. Carrying no thought of vengeance orr him regretting, i cried alot but the thought of not liking him anymore never really ended. It stayed without any grudges. I dont want him to regret. I just always liked his little smile. The only thing that stayed with me is this everlasting hope, hope that our eyes meet, when him and i look at the same cloud. The ninth one, the prettiest one. Hope that never ends.  farewell!

[yanishkapandey]

प्रिय लिख कर लिख दू नाम तुम्हारा कुछ जगह छोड़ कर लिख दू सदा तुम्हारा

[yanishkapandey]

Kadi takre te haal sunawa,

Ve saanu rog laun waleya🏩

[yanishkapandey]

Familiar hell is the only place i can call home, but is there anyway i could get to know the unfamiliar heaven orr is it just me not wanting to choose it.

[yanishkapandey]

Shayad tu manana janta tha

Shayad mai maaf karna

Shayad mai galat thi

Shayad tu sahi tha

Shayad tu chala gaya

Shayad mai yahi thi

Shayad khadhi thi, yaha se chali jaau?

Shayad yaha fir vapis aau

Shayad tu yahi mil jaye

Shayad ye nind khul jaaye

Shayad tu yahi ho

Ya shayad khudko mana lu

Shayad mai bewafa ban jau

Shayad ye sab be-asar hojaye

[yanishkapandey]

Yaha se bohot dur

Ghalat or sahi ke paar, ek maidan hai

Mai wahi milungi tujhe

[yanishkapandey]

Sorry I came while you were beating the shit out of me that happened totally on accident

[yanishkapandey]

Jitna surkh utna nayab hai

Dekh mene tere liye laal joda daala hai

Tujhe dikha nhi paai ye kaisa azaab hai

[yanishkapandey]

I can chase you, and i can catch you but there is nothing i can do to make you mine.

[yanishkapandey]

I love him. Blocking him is not enough. I need to set my phone, my room and my window on fire. Or I’ll go crazy looking at him everywhere for this long

[yanishkapandey]

Kya tu kabhi padh payega

Kya tu kabhi jaan payega

Tere siwa har koi be-asar lagta hai

[yanishkapandey]

Tere jaisa koi mila hee nhi

Kaise milta kahi thaa hee nhi

Tu jaha tak dikhai deta hai

Uske aage mai dekhta hee nhi

[yanishkapandey]

Tu bhi chup hai, mai bhi chup hu

Ye kaisi tanhai hai

Tere sath teri yaad aayi, kya tu sach much aayi hai

Husn ke jaane kitne chehre, kitne naam

Ishq ka pesha husn parasti

Ishq bada harjai hai

Aaj bohot din baad mai apne kamre se nikla tha

Yu hi darwaza khola hai

Uski khusboo aayi hai

[yanishkapandey]

Kitne aish se rehte honge

Kitne itraate honge

Jaane vo kaise log honge

Jo usko bhaate honge

[yanishkapandey]

Yaado ka hisab rakh raha hu

Seene me azaab rakh raha hu

Tum keh jaao mujhse kuch

Bas dil me jawab rakh raha hu

[yanishkapandey]

Yu jo takta hai tu aasman ko

Koi rehta hai aasman me kya

Ye mujhe chain kyu nhi padta

Ek hee shaks tha jahaan me kya