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A part of is evil but also holy

Untainted but painted

With everlasting serenity but an immortalized rage.

My contradictions are part of me. It is what makes me appreciate the beauty of imperfections, the glory in failures, the wisdom of stupid and the fool, the pride and honor of the common and the journey of the lost...

Thus my duality is my beauty.

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Si dinadami ng madadaanan ko at makikita after 5 long fucking years. Yung ex ko pa talaga 😵😵

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Duty duty pa mamatay din naman tayo 😵‍💫

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Napagod na ako kanina tapos pinapagalitan kami ng residente 😵‍💫

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I wrote my tragedies, my trauma, my hatred and self-loathings upon the very first lines of the stars. Etching my memories, my love and ecstacy, in but hidden side of my life.

Where do I find you?

What can I do?

A thousand personalities in a moon

But none of them ever found you.

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Assisted in the OR today and removed a mass on the left breast(photo).

Honest review: its hard to assist in the OR but it was very very interesting to do such a case.

P.S. mukhang shawarma yung second photo 🤣

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What can love be, but you and me in colorful mystery...

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A few weeks prior. Too many learning from one radiograph 💖

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Penge motivation mag-aral ubos na ubos na talaga yung akin ehh 😵‍💫😵‍💫

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Happy Easter. Hopefully all of us will also rise and overcome from our problems no matter how small 🧡

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New sets of poetry for my villain arc.

P.s. nagkamali ako dun sa isa pero tinamad na ako ayusin

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Can we just become butterflies and fly away...

Or will you want to stay.

In this world of crazy and beauty,

An abstract pandemonium,

Of pain and serendipity.

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I love the moon...

I love the moon because it reminds me of a lot of things in particular.

1. We can be beautiful even when our lights are dim. That someone will find us attractive.

2. We can catch another person's attention even in a world filled with shining stars, that the right people notices us.

3. We can support others. That no matter how little light we give, we can save people from dying. In the same way, even small words of encouragement at the right time can save people.

4. We can enjoy the darkness of life. That we can find happiness in negative events. That even in our darkest times, we shine a light to keep us on track.

5. Lastly, that we can love something so plain as a rock means we can love and admire something without other intentions... Aside from loving...

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Happy New Year: The Great Transition

A single leap from 2022 to 2023, yet it is a huge leap... For starters, 2022 was a huge chaotic mess filled with so many ups and downs. It's such a time at which people return to a somewhat "normal" life. Probably due to quarantine, a lot of us were like freed rabid dog doing what probably only God knows what.

2022 has been a huge character development phase for many. It was also a year of a lot of new beginnings... and endings. It's a year of "Relife", a year of taking back what time we can salvage from Covid that we lost, particularly those with our love ones (please use condoms)...

To me 2022 is a clusterfuck of emotional and mental damage as well as a ungodly amount of subtle blessing. I met tons of great people, mostly temporary but some became mainstays. It was also a year for me of outgrowing my safe zones far more than I expected. 2022 was chaotic but fun. Of all the 25 years of my life this would probably be one of my top 3 years in life lol.

In the area of love, 2022 was also ups and downs. I broke up with my ex at January. I met the woman I could confidently call one of my bestfriends. Lastly I met a woman who I fell in love at first sight but has traumas of her own... That being said, I still thank these people particularly the first two as they taught me many things about myself that I didn't know.

In the area of friends, nothing much has changed aside from most of us turning workaholics and having lesser and lesser time to hang out. But at the same time, I met a few friends on my list which became my mainstays. I truly wonder how on earth did I make these people my friends...

Lastly, to myself, I still think about a lot of things. But this time, I started to think about what future I want for myself. A lot of things changed including my environment and thus I had to adapt. 2022 brought to me... Adaptive change, one that made me tougher and more resilient. I thank 2022 for all its lessons and hardships as well as its blessings and curses.

For 2023, I believe that it is a transition. From a very chaotic time to a more organized one. From reckless abandon to prudent wisdom. From holding on... To letting go.

New Years Resolution: Avoid Recklessness, Increase my Langit Points, Pass Exams.

~I look forward to 2023, to what it would bring. May we all find our luck even greater at 2023~

And to my mainstays... Thank you! There are no words to describe how much you guys mean to me...

To my family... I'll live the best way I can

To my bestfriends... SALAMAT SA MGA ADVICE NIYOOOO....

This is all for now, Ian Lemuel Rafael, signing off from 2022 and logging in to 2023.

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~I had one too many shots of tequila but all comes back to you...~

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Poetry Series of 2022...

Me, My Ambitions, My Depressions

-Poetry by Yours Truly....

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For the love I gave, only scraps remain

With what little to salvage -

Lost time and space

Yet still regretting nothing ti'll this day

To love to much until nothingness,

But a speck in the rain

~2022, September 1