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Day 100: I did it. I'll maintain for awhile. I ate a carrot cake today .

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Day 94: I binge today. I haven't been in calories deficit for a week now. I guess too much happened and I lost control. I was seeing new people every single day of the past 2 weeks. I can't handle suffering alone. I'm a terrible person. The past 6 days before I hit the 100 mark I will eat only 800kcals/days. Tomorrow night I will meal prep for Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. The weekend I will eat out and stay active. I will lose 2kg before December.

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Day 78: 2kg more to my UGW. I couldn't stomach anything today. I have to throw out half of my noodles. When I caIm down I ate 4 piece of kimbap and 2 piece of popcorn chicken from my take away left over. Genuinely think I should stop or not but I'm so close. Only 22 days left so I think I will keep trying.

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44kg today. 2 more to go. War is almost over.

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Before: 52kg

CW: 45,15 kg (after 72 days)

GW: 43 kg

UGW: 42 kg

I have it until the year end (70 days left) to reach it.

When I reach it I will rewards myself cute things. Just a little bit more to go

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The Cat has its Heart on the Outside

Available as a fanzine in Swedish with a translation note  here.

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[...] What Eminem didn't know when he attacked her for publicly criticizing the promotion of domestic violence ('97 Bonnie & Clyde lyrics) is that Christina spent the first six years of her life in a home where she needed to disconnect from the world to tolerate what was happening.

“ I think the reason my desire to sing is so strong and why I'm so passionate about music is because I grew up in an environment of domestic violence,” she says, talking about life with her father. “Music was my way of getting rid of everything. I'd run to my room and put on the Sound of Music tape. Julie Andrews was free and alive, playful and rebellious against the nuns. I know this sounds really corny, but it was my escape. I would open my bedroom window and imagine myself in front of an audience. I started to sing. And I promised myself when that happened that I would try to help others who might be in the same situation. People have no idea what domestic violence is unless they have experienced one. Abuse is not just physical, it's more internal, it's mental. It's a very sad thing to live and watch. It play with your mind, make you feel bad about yourself, and… ” she stop talking, disconnecting again.

(ROLLING STONE, 2000)

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mtv’s trl presents: xtina stripped in nyc, 2002 💛🖤

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A love letter towards my bed

My bed is the comfiest place to exist. The heavy freshly washed sheets hug me warmly, swallowing me whole. I wish I could lay here for hours sometimes, delaying my need to do, to exist, to be someone.