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xxwindinmyhairxx · 6 years ago

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“There are two ways you can go with pain: You can let it destroy you or you can use it as fuel to drive you. ”

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xxwindinmyhairxx · 6 years ago

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Dear Taylor,

I have loved you since I was 13. I will always remember me and my best friend singing Love Story and You Belong With Me and dreaming for that love. The kind of love you too dreamt about at that time. When I turned 15, I still continued to love you and felt so much pride in the fact that I was turning 15 all because there's a song you wrote with that title. I bawled to All Too Well at 17 as if I had actually gone through such heartbreak when I hadn't even fallen in love at that point. And yet, you managed to make me feel things. Whether it was love with Everything Has Changed , regret with I Knew you Were Trouble or gut wrenching pain with All Too Well. But the album Red is where I reallh fell in love with you and thought you were the most genuine and greatest artist to have ever lived. I still remember listening to Ronan for the first time and crying my eyes out and thats when I realized you were an angel sent from heaven. It was at 19 or 20 that I experienced real love and it was amazing and like everything you had talked about. What I really want to convey to you is how the year 2017 completely transformed me and enhanced my love for you. 2017 started off with me losing a best friend to cancer, the first death I've had to deal with. The song Ronan holds so much meaning to me now you cannot even imagine.It went on to me failing academically twice and then came the worst heartbreak of my whole life. I was in a very broken place and turned to you and Breathe, All Too Well, White Horse and so many more for comfort. In totality, I was in a completely broken place. And you dropped Look What You Made Me Do and I had an outlet for all the anger I had built inside of me. I was done feeling sorry for myself. Mostly because you were done feeling sorry for yourself. Whenever I felt weak, I thought of you. Thought of the kind of bullies and bad people that you've overcome and how I should do the same. When you dropped Reputation, it healed my heart a little. It also taught me the kind of love that should exist. Good love. Real love. Im still not brave enough to think of love again but I know I will. Because you did. The year ended with my grandfather passing away. With a lot of support from my friends and family and you I have managed to overcome all of this and am soon approaching 22. In the past couple of months, I have become a more confident, strong and compassionate person than I used to be. These months have been the most transformational for me and you have to know that your presence, even if it is on my Instagram or Tumblr feed or my music, has had a very great impact. I approach 22 with being exactly who I always wanted to be. Happy, free confused and lonely in the best way. :)

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