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some days i really do just feel like a failure

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when the self-destructive urges hit randomly

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People really think I'm joking when I say my emotions get so intense that I believe the only way out is to kill myself.

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An hour of chaos in my mind before back to nothingness 💖

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I need you to crave my touch like an addict.. to need and cling to me like you never want to leave my side..

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you not talking to me = ignoring me = I think you hate me = I will cry about it

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the problem is me.

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so embarrassing to have my mood swing based off of someone else’s interactions with me

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“what do you want to be for halloween?” - enough. i want to be enough.

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i just want to matter as much as other people matter to me.

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loneliness haunts me, always

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everyday i hate myself a little more

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for once, i’d like to be loved for who i am, not the idealized version people have of me in their head. for once, id like to be seen. for once, id like to feel like someone really knows me. for once, id like to feel important to someone. i wish i could have all of this as i am, unhealed and all. i hate the idea of someone loving me “one day” when im healed. why cant i be loved right now as i am? why am i always the manic pixie dream girl and never the true love?

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you leaving me on read is basically the same as telling me you hate me and want me to die.

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I always love them more than they love me