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It hurts, I'm imagining it, it hurts, I can't lie on my side, it hurts, it's been hurting for so long, I can't tell anyone, this is so stupid, it hurts.

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You haunted me with your words, a walking corpse you called me, but you were wrong, it's surprising it ever bothered me even in the slightest, because I knew you'd be wrong, and now that I am back to living through the insignificance I dwell on, it's clearer than ever, just as I've always been, I am nothing.

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I never thought, the uncertainty of being close to death would ever bother me in the least, I'm at peace but I am not.

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It's September. How is it September??

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I kept my thread and added a charm instead, of blue and white.

I'm ready to undo my whole thread of life and redo it to fit him in, this time with blue and white.

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I'm ready to undo my whole thread of life and redo it to fit him in, this time with blue and white.

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頑張っても頑張っても死ぬほど頑張っても人わ変わらないそれわただ非トスの事実

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I said I wouldn't miss you, I eagerly awaited the day I got to set myself free from you, from the suffocation I felt within the walls of the cage you raised me in. I had truly felt like I couldn't breathe then. I yearned to escape. So how is it now that the mere thought of your presence before me could bring me to tears? That all I could recall from my days spent in your cage is how the sunlight that seeped through the bars were excruciatingly warm? How can I be so lost without you when it was you who I held to be the greatest cause for all the wretched pain my heart felt? I always knew I needed you more than you did. As it remains to be true, only my desperation has grown deeper.

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Now often, I think about death as if I were thinking about what to eat, and I think about jumping when I used to think about flying, when did I go from wanting to be embraced by a fluffy cloud as I looked up at the sky, to wanting to be engulfed by its unrelenting down pour as I let my consciousness go.

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It's one of those nights you can't calm the wave of emotions brought forth by the deja vu of memories you cannot recall.

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Oh Ace, the chokehold you have me in.

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I've moved on to the next phase of my life.

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I cried about a cockroach.

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I finished reading My Reason to Die, he's so hot, exactly what I want, till it started hitting too close to home, but home is home right. I cried. 10/10 would read again.

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I've always been three cracked eggs in a bowl with my yolks separate, but now I feel whisked.

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We’re coparenting two fishes together, my friends and I, I don’t have much time left.

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The only reason I would show you any kindness is because it’d be an inconvenience if anything happens to you, there is nothing I like about you, there is nothing to be loved about you, I resent you, the person that you are, surely nobody made you like this, you are just pathetic all on your own, and I hate you, it’s so hard to say but I think I really do hate you so much, and it makes me so sad, hate is such a strong word and I’m using it on myself when I would never for anyone else.