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play this!!

here is a new “comic thing mess” you can download to read called GUT FEAR BOUNDARY

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I just finished Serious Weakness (I inhaled it in like, two days). Forgive me if this is incoherent, but I’ve never seen anyone really write about how fucking exhausting it is to constantly be trying to pass as neurotypical in this specific way? Like, it’s not just “masking” it’s justifying your existence now, in the past, in the future and the work is never done.

Idk if this was the intent at all, but I also feel like the way that autistic people are infantalized also kind of positions us as failures as gendered beings? Like gender actualization is almost treated as a prerequisites for being “an adult?” I’ve had vague feelings like this before. My relationship with working is pretty similar to Trianon’s and I’ve always felt like an amorphous child thing? And gendered signifiers like makeup or wearing a suit is sooooo intertwined with being “professional.”

I have more thoughts but that’s all I can think of for now. Take care!

thank you <3 it's absolutely a failure of gender, and a threat to the order. trianon is raw undesignated life, and everyone wants to convert him to something. some people are amorphous child things their whole life! and that's beautiful, and may the angels protect us...

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what happened to the other scouts honor chapters... i really loved them..

Thank you <333 🦠🦠🦠 Like it said in the post, it was an early draft that I was always going to change, but I will be adding a lot of the old stuff back, revised and streamlined now that I know the story better. It helps me to write out of order sometimes. I'm not really advertising the story until I fill in a couple more Riparian scenes, but there is a lot of new stuff there for the sneak peek freaks! Cancer's mom...a certain Aztec goddess...QUININE...

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some ancient teenage scribblings of mine made their way into the new 18 Foot Leash

THE BLACK BAG TORTURES... https://xrafstar.monster/blog/scouts-honor

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squishem

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hi i adore your work serious weakness is my all time favorite novel it’s so good!!! i wanted to know how you feel about someone making a short film/movie based on it as a passion project

thank you!! :) Non-commercial fanworks are okay!

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magical boy cancer charm by Vich!!! 🎀💝✨ double sided for CORRUPTION

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READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here is a new “comic thing mess” you can download to read called GUT FEAR BOUNDARY

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asking for a friend (ME ME ME PLEASE)- Are the games their own lore, or are they connected? Also- where can i find the soundtrack? spotify? youtube? soundcloud? anywhere?

everything is connected. and it depends on which game you mean. Maggot Therapy is on bandcamp. :)

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En Pointe ✏️

short cancer story about impalement massive….warning

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me & charity's black ops emblems,

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my new game is out 🌦️ rpgmaker horror/dramedy with wretched brothers

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Reading seriweak from my local library (technically got it loaned cross country)

omggg beautiful!! it's in some kind of chastity device...i'm glad they had to ship this fat brick of boy rape

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here is a new “comic thing mess” you can download to read called GUT FEAR BOUNDARY

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hii we played your game howling dogs for our new media class. thanks for being really cool homework :)

you're so welcome gay formless blob!! ^O^ enjoy my...dry academic little corner of the internet...conducive to the enrichment of the mind...

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me friend bought two copies of serious weakness and we’re gonna buddy read it together, wish us luck !

it sounds so nice to read these big toxic blocks together...truly the final fantasy crystal chronicles of boy torture <3