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one more thing from her mom and i swear its wraps

being manipulated by a girl? fine

having her fucking mother shit on me?? no wtf?? im not taking that crap from a grown ass woman

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cant even pay for a date might as well go by myself 🤦

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it just HAD to be a light drizzle.

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i am convinced he is never coming back

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i am so conscious of if my hands smell and it genuinely makes me so upset

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starting to smell like i miss animal crossing

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Kinda building a team

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i tried killing myself but i must not have taken enough because i woke up throwing up and convulsing...

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seafood boil i want seafood boil

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i genuinely cannot sympathize with these type of people because if it were a B i would still be like..🤨 ok...

but a fucking A-?? That's still a fucking A holyshit 😭

and i get that ur so used to excelling and being smart all the time but jesus christ get off ur fucking ass omfg.

she's bitching about an A- again. we both got the same grade and i was so happy and now i feel like fucking shit

its a fucking A-

jesus fucking christ

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Does psychic damage physically harm you or does it just like push you however many points closer to having a nervous breakdown

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she's bitching about an A- again. we both got the same grade and i was so happy and now i feel like fucking shit

its a fucking A-

jesus fucking christ

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Thinking of giving in and living a life of degeneracy and sin

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i believe i am emotionally intelligent? i am able to help others in a way i cant myself and it in turn helps me understand what i am feeling and what i have to do, realistically. but is it still any better than not feeling it myself? can i still destroy myself when intellectualizing my feelings?

i like to help others, alot. i am very passionate and like to talk about feelings, just perhaps not my own without using it as a base to relate or help someone else. why is it so hard to help me?

and i dont mean any of this in a "im better than everyone else!!" way. i feel a bit degenerative and shameful beating myself up like this. but i just dont understand how to be a normal person naturally. why does it come so easy for a lot of people? i mean that in an autistic way and not mentally ill, they kind of overlap sometimes though. i wish i could understand my emotions

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being alive is so overwhelming

i am sick and tired of talking and writing and feeling the same feelings over and over again without change. what am i

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how do i find myself yearning for my own girlfriend.

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I hate the feeling that this body is not mine. feeling like this self-awareness is a curse creating complicated tension as though im “watching” myself go through these feelings rather than fully experiencing them. i am so confused and so detached.

why am i constantly battling myself and trying to logic out and invalidating my feelings?? why do i think i know better and that i am smarter than i am acting?

why do i feel like im just attention seeking and in turn not talking about my feelings or getting the help i need

and not to mention when the hole is already dug too deep running away from my problems. forgetting about it and moving on because it therefore isnt a problem anymore if i dont shine light on it. i tell myself this supression bullshit isnt real and that, realistically, if i were just to not think about it i wouldnt feel like shit.

i am always running. this body is not mine. can i fix this