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random sad dialogue … sentence starters

“You aren’t blameless in this.”

“You don’t have to keep it all in.”

“Not everyone is out to hurt you.”

“You’re too good for someone like me.”

“You’re hiding secrets from me… why?”

“You’ve got the saddest soul I’ve ever seen.”

“The shadows are safer than the harsh glare.”

“I’ll keep you safe… the way they should have.”

“I didn’t need you here. I didn’t want you here.”

“No, I don’t think you love me… but you used to.”

“They’ll never apologize. You have to know that.”

“Don’t you think you’ve been alone long enough?”

“Why can’t you be honest with yourself for once?”

“If you really didn’t care, then why did you come?”

“You have too many scars for someone so young.”

“There’s nothing you have to hide from me. Share.”

“I’ve already lived too much for someone so young.”

“Don’t look at me with those sad eyes. I can’t bear it.”

“You never even had the chance to be a kid, did you?”

“I don’t want your apologies. they don’t mean anything.”

“Forgiveness is earned. And you have a long way to go.”

“You’re allowed to step into the light. You’re allowed to live.”

“Don’t talk to me about loyalty… not after what you’ve done.”

“I keep trying to atone… but, it just never seems to be enough.”

“You think solitude keeps you safe. It doesn’t. It keeps you lonely.”

“I’ll leave if you want me to. Will you just hear me out first? Please?”

“After all you’ve been through, how do you still find it in your heart to care?”

“You’re still breathing, but if I didn’t know any better, I’d think you were a ghost.”

“I don’t want you to know. I don’t want you to see the awful, tainted parts of me.”

“What happened was horrible, and cruel, and unfair. You’re allowed to be angry.”

“There’s nothing wrong with lashing out sometimes. It’s better than holding it all in.”

“This world’s a dismal place. It chews up all happiness it finds and spits it out bitter.”

“I love you, And you don’t need to say it back, or even reciprocate. I just needed you to know.”

“I’ve always done everything by myself, survived by myself. I don’t see why that would change.”

“You don’t get to disappear, then come back like nothing happened. Life moved on without you.”

“They say you’re not supposed to hold grudges, but I don’t believe that. It keeps you from making the same mistake twice.”

“Everyday, I ask myself why someone like you would choose to stay with someone like me. And everyday, I come up empty.”

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She noticed rather quickly that the other still seemed to be chilled compared to his usual comfort. There were a couple of things she could do to assist him, but she figured the best way would be to just. . .

The goddess moved her hand carefully as if she was cupping something between them. She then, carefully, allowed a light heat to emit from herself. She wasn't nearly as warm as her beloved, or the one of rebirth, but it should add some more warmth into the air for him. She wouldn't want it to get too warm, anyway, else the snow above them would likely start to melt and get on the both of them.

"It would, yes. . . I come to the general area often as a way to relax, so even if you were not able to find your way, I am sure myself or one of my many friends would come across you rather easily."

"...To this place? All right." He made a point of taking a good look around to try and memorize it--he was not great with directions above water, unfortunately, but he would do his best to remember how to navigate back here.

Perhaps he was being too trusting. For all he knew, this person could make an attempt at his life when he was vulnerable. She could be like the people on the whaling ships and his naive nature would have completely missed it.

But...

He didn't think she was.

"I suppose...it will give me more reason to be above...water." He curled in on himself a little, still feeling chilled.

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"Don't worry about it, sir~" It was rare for her to get like this, truthfully. She wasn't usually this willing to go against her boss, but she really needed this photo. Besides, she figured that it had to have been an incredibly long time since he had one taken. It wasn't as if anyone that didn't need it would ever see it. . .

Other than the fellow gods and goddesses, that is. . . And anyone she commissioned art from. After all, he loves art! Even if he never really seemed to do it around her. But. . . The thing he had for it had to say something, right?

It was too late anyways, it was getting sent to Void and Versaria. There was no saving him now. "I'd love to get one with a smile, though. . ." She muttered under her breath, but already knew fully well that wasn't happening anytime soon.

"Sir?" The goddess chimed, looking at the other with her phone in her hand. She waited until the other looked up to take a picture, immediately content with the result she got. "Thank you~" She needed a photo for the artwork she was gonna start getting commissioned of her boss, and she knew he wouldn't normally give such a. . . photogenic image if she dared to ask first.

She was already saving it in multiple places, giddy and excited that she managed to get a good image of him! Maybe she should send it to Void?

"Hmm??" Looking up from what he was doing at that moment, he found himself blinking in confusion at the sound of the camera snapping. Then came the realization that Leris had taken a picture of him, and then the panic because she didn't ask him first before taking it. What in the world did she need the picture for? Why did she take the picture in the first place?? What did she plan to do with it now that she had it??

"A-Ah, L-Leris, dear. What are you going to, uhm. . . Do with that picture you just took?"

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"I swear, I have lost count of how many times I want to strangle the younger generations. . . Then there's how many times I actually have strangled them, like I am with Khumthar right now."

"You might find it to be a wise idea to stop before Zena comes and turns what remains of your nether regions into some extremely high grit sandpaper. I don't think the last person she did that to has recovered yet."

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"It's alright, really!" The girl chimed, mostly unfazed by the way the other was acting, "I have some friends that have pretty similar issues with crowds, so I've learned how to try and keep them as comfortable as possible when we're out in places like this." While she didn't recall where some of the methods she used came from, she figured it was all from a similar source like this one. Her boss, her fellow assistant, and others are all like this at times, especially in places they aren't used to. They tend to stick to their solitary lifestyles, after all.

She was one of the few that come out to the real world like this anymore.

A light gasp of excitement emitted from her. "You think there's more to see than just this? Really?" She knew it was a whole, large event, but she didn't really know where to go to find the activities. If anything, Leris had spent a good amount of time just watching the goings in the street, content with just that as the main event.

"Y-Yes...this is much better...thank you." Her new friend's words had indeed instilled some calm in her, but she had remained gripping onto her arm up until that very moment when they entered a more open space.

"...Oh goodness...I forgot how much I hate crowds..." She took her glasses off a moment to wipe some sweat off her brow without dirtying them. Her social anxiety really got to her in moments like this-- "Really, I can't thank you enough. I'm sure that I'm being annoying, but you've been really kind to me about all of this..."

She was sure she would have a brief meltdown when she got home from all of the nerves itching under her skin, but for now--

She gave a brief smile. "I wonder what else there is to see here."

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"Ah, no, I don't think it will work here. Don't worry though, I come from a family that has plenty of money, so I don't mind spending a bit to help you out. As for actually checking the horse in, well. . . It would largely depend on what this stable considers to be standard for first timers versus regulars. And regrettably. . ." Michael let a sigh, as he was already turning his head towards the main desk area of the stabling grounds. He'd noticed the way that the clerk was watching them over the magazine they were reading. They could tell they'd never been here before, yet they'd simply went right by them without a second word.

"We're not regulars, which means that we'll likely have to provide some sort of identification and fill out paperwork and more. Is that something you think you're able to do, or are you something of a Jane Doe around here?" He knew the terminology might be a little strange. Most didn't even know what it meant to be referred to was a John or Jane Doe, let alone the troubles it could actually cause a person in the long run. After all, no identification, no way to fill out paperwork. It made a lot of things, like finding jobs, housing, or aide difficult to accomplish.

Once they reached the stable, Femke let out a sigh of relief. Lola lifted her head to sniff at the air, curious about the other horses, but followed along with Femke obediently as tied her to a pole for the time being.

"I need to get her some water." She explained, more concerned about that then getting her checked into the stable. She was beginning to worry about the money aspect of this--just because she was a Princess and had a lot of things handed to her over the course of her life didn't mean she was entirely oblivious to the struggles of the common folk--but her horse's health was going to be her first priority.

She retrieved a bucket and a hose, finding that thankfully the water coming from the hose was suitably cold. She filled up the bucket about half way and then set it down in front of Lola, who immediately ducked her head and began drinking from it.

While she drank, Femke trailed her fingers along her mane. "How does the check in process work? I've...never done it before." She admitted. "And....admittedly, I don't think the currency I have works here." She dug out some coins and they--

Definitely looked incredibly foreign and to be made of some sort of nickel.

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"Of course." She responded, not thinking too much on the response itself. The goddess knew if fate was destined for them to meet again, they shall. And now that she had a general idea of his aura, she would be able to at least attempt to pinpoint his aura just to find him and spend some time with him. She always enjoyed a good time out, it gave something new to talk about with those she was closest to.

The idea of new beings to be seen, not yet known of. . . It was always a grand thing, to her. Yet another of what she considered to be her children. "I am certain we shall meet again. If you ever find yourself questioning, or in thought, however. . . Feel free to return here. I come here fairly often."

That...was certainly something he had never considered. That maybe--just maybe--part of his reason for existence was to teach and help others--including humanity--to love and protect the Ocean just as much as he did. It had never even occurred to him.

Was that....perhaps...the reason he was able to take on this intriguing form? To interact with humanity and....impart those thoughts upon them?

Clearly her words gave him a lot to think about.

He paused for a moment before tilting his head in an inquisitive manner. "May I....see you again?" It finally occurred to him that after they left here today....he might never come across her again. Never be able to ask her anymore questions, or feel this sense of companionship.

He found...that he didn't like that idea.

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"You're certainly not wrong about experimenting. 'Spose it won't make too much of a difference to test around with a few ideas. And making a burrito with salad in the center. . . That shouldn't be too difficult there. Simply just gotta prepare everything else for the burrito, and then make sure that it all gets layered right for all of it to mesh or taste well." Already thinking aloud, Hero went to start walking in the direction of his own kitchen, all before remembering and realizing-

This mortal probably meant their own kitchen, not his. Especially with the comment about having to clean up after them. A short breath escaped his nose, as he spun back towards the young man. "I'm sorry, my mind was wandering towards my own kitchen. I'm quite used to it, but if you'd rather that we use your kitchen, then I won't complain or dispute it. You're the one that said they wanted to help after all."

A soft chuckle followed his admittance to the lapse of mind, as he now waited patiently for the young man to lead the way.

"There's no law that says we can't experiment a little, you know? Why, that's how most of these recipes were invented in the first place. Experimentation is a firm part of the culinary arts. Why don't we try making a burrito with the salad in the middle? Hm...I think I'll make my own special sauce for this. I'll teach you how to make it if you like it."

He was definitely pumped up at the idea of not only cooking, but helping someone out with his cooking.

"Let us go to the kitchen! My staff are cleaning up the restaurant today anyway--so we have the kitchen for ourselves!" Every week they were closed for a deep clean at least one day. Maybe they lost some profits, but it meant that their standards were in the right place. "Of course I'll have to clean up after us, but I don't see that being a problem."

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"Sir?" The goddess chimed, looking at the other with her phone in her hand. She waited until the other looked up to take a picture, immediately content with the result she got. "Thank you~" She needed a photo for the artwork she was gonna start getting commissioned of her boss, and she knew he wouldn't normally give such a. . . photogenic image if she dared to ask first.

She was already saving it in multiple places, giddy and excited that she managed to get a good image of him! Maybe she should send it to Void?

"Hmm??" Looking up from what he was doing at that moment, he found himself blinking in confusion at the sound of the camera snapping. Then came the realization that Leris had taken a picture of him, and then the panic because she didn't ask him first before taking it. What in the world did she need the picture for? Why did she take the picture in the first place?? What did she plan to do with it now that she had it??

"A-Ah, L-Leris, dear. What are you going to, uhm. . . Do with that picture you just took?"

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Send 👀 to find out how much my muse would like to _____ yours

Get to know: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Befriend: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Date: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Make love with: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Hook up with: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Protect: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Help: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Stop: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS! Kill: NEVER! | I'd rather not | Convince me! | Sure why not? | Yes please! | ALWAYS!

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She was doing her best to be able to keep to a slow, but still ongoing pace throughout all of this. The last thing she wanted was for this poor girl to go into a panic for some reason or another. She was a genuinely good person, someone she hoped Versaris wouldn't mind her hanging out with. Even if it was only for a short while, truthfully. he tended to have a bit of a. . . Opinion on her being around others most of the time.

He even seemed to dislike her being around Void, or Versaria. . .

"It's okay. . . Everything will be alright." She mindlessly spoke, voice having softened. A trait of herself she rarely understood herself, but considering humans were technically animals. . . She hoped it soothed the other, even if only a tiny bit.

But, eventually, they seemed to come across a rather open space, and she made sure that the other was in front of her, instead of behind. If children ran into her, she didn't mind it nearly as much. "There we go! Does this work for you?"

"O-Okay." Gods, she was so incredibly nervous. There was something about crowds that always got to her. Maybe it was because she felt like there were always /eyes/ on her--whether it be because of her weight, how she dressed or spoke, her glasses, or some other reason. She just didn't like feeling like she was being judged everywhere she went by people she didn't even know.

When they went off to join the festivities, Merry was ashamed that she very quickly reached out to grab onto her new friend's arm like a little child, trying to keep up with her. There were little kids everywhere and some had nearly ran into her and that also made her anxious. She wasn't a very sturdy woman on her feet--an accidental push could seriously injure her.

She was muttering to herself that everything was going to be fine. She would make it through this and then go home and tell her "babies" all about it. And then maybe, if she had any spoons left, get to work on that commission.

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PROMPTS FOR THE 5 LOVE LANGUAGES *  adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of action prompts

WORDS OF AFFIRMATION

i'm very grateful for you.

you're very important to me.

you make me want to be a better person.

you're doing a good job, you know.

i can tell you're trying your hardest.

you constantly impress me.

what's going on? tell me everything.

i'm here to listen to you.

i love you so much.

you know you matter to me, right?

i don't know what i'd do without you.

you were right about everything.

if it matters to you, it matters to me.

i believe in you.

PHYSICAL TOUCH

[ caress ] sender soothes a nervous receiver by stroking their hands up and down receiver's arms

[ absentminded ] sender casually takes receiver's hand in public, laces their fingers, and doesn't let go

[ shoulder ] sender listens to receiver speak and sets a hand on their shoulder while doing so, offering comfort

[ behind ] sender comes up to receiver from behind and wraps their arms around them, hugging them close

[ smack ] sender gives receiver's butt an affectionate smack as they walk past them

[ dinner ] at dinner, sender reaches across the table and takes receiver's hand

[ check ] sender reaches out to touch receiver, expressing concern for them

[ cuddle ] sender and receiver snuggle

RECEIVING GIFTS

i saw this yesterday, and i had to get it for you.

this reminded me of you.

you said you didn't have one... so i figured i'd get it for you.

i hope you like it. i picked it out just for you.

i loved making this for you.

i know you had a rough week, so i hope this makes you feel better.

it's all for you!

[ birthday ] sender brings receiver a present on their birthday

[ just because ] sender surprises receiver with a gift

[ grateful ] sender gets a present from receiver and expresses their utmost gratitude

[ flowers ] sender brings receiver a bouquet of their favorite flowers

[ candy ] sender gifts receiver with their favorite candy

QUALITY TIME

i'm not going anywhere. i want to stay here with you.

why don't we spend some time together?

i'd rather be alone with you.

let's plan a vacation.

feel like taking a walk? the weather's nice.

i just want to be with you.

this weekend is all about us.

can we plan for some alone time?

[ walk ] sender and receiver go for a comfortable evening stroll

[ bake ] sender and receiver bake something together

[ decorate ] sender and receiver attend a painting class together

[ relax ] sender and receiver relax on the beach

[ craft ] sender helps receiver with a project they've been working on

ACTS OF SERVICE

let me get that for you.

i'll take care of it! i've got it!

you go and sit down. i've got this covered.

i've planned our entire trip. you don't have to lift a finger.

everything's all taken care of!

sit back down! i'll clean up!

i know it was stressing you out. that's why i took care of it.

i'll help you with that.

i watered your plants.

[ breakfast ] sender brings receiver breakfast in bed

[ blanket ] sender notices receiver is cold, so they bring them a blanket and drape it over their shoulders

[ jacket ] sender offers receiver their coat

[ soup ] knowing receiver is sick, sender brings them a bowl of hot soup

[ coffee ] sender brings receiver their favorite coffee order

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𝐂𝐎𝐙𝐘 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐔𝐌𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 (a collection of cozy autumn-themed prompts.)  

Send one of the following emojis for our muses to:

🎃 carve pumpkins together

🍁 go to a pumpkin patch

🍬 go trick or treating

🧛‍♂️ go to a costume party

📺 watch horror movies together

🌽 do a corn maze

🌾 go on a hayride

🍎 go apple-picking

☕ go on a coffee date

🐎 go on a horseback ride

🍄 go to a farmer's market

🌰 have a fall picnic

🥧 bake autumn treats together (pumpkin pie, cookies...)

🍂 take a walk in the woods to look at the leaves

📖 read books while it rains outside

⛺ go camping (and tell ghost stories by the campfire)

👻 decorate the house for Halloween

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Bite me!

Get chomped!

"Did you just bite me!?"

"Ouch, that hurt!"

"I think I'm bleeding!"

"Why are your teeth so sharp!?"

"Why would you do that? Just go up and bite someone!?"

"What did I do to deserve getting bitten?!"

"You better not have any diseases."

"Do you feel better now you've sunk your fangs into something?"

"It's not hallowe'en, get your teeth off me."

"Barely felt it."

"If you're going to bite you need to put some effort into it."

"Do you even have jaw muscles?!"

"What's the point of biting if you don't draw blood?"

"Hey, hey, hey! Ouch! Stop it!"

"Get your mouth off me now or you'll regret it."

"I'm gonna bite you."

"Let me just have a nibble."

"You taste delicious."

"Nothing quite like a bite of your arm in the morning."

"I have fangs and I'm not afraid to use them."

"I warned you! Not my fault you didn't believe me!"

"You should see how hard I can really bite."

"If you didn't look so biteable I wouldn't bite you."

"Gods, it feels good to bite."

"Oh you're fine, I barely bit you at all."

Actions: (send reverse to flip sender and receiver!)

[Lovebite] for sender to bite receiver in a romantic way.

[Chomp!] for sender to bite receiver in a playful way.

[Maul] for sender to bite receiver with intent to hurt.

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"That is something that is always possible to happen." She felt herself silently exhaling, moving to put a hand to her cheek in thought. "I cannot deny that. However, there is certainly more to it than simply that. There is the chance of finding further purpose, understanding, and the ability to be able to find a balance between the two." She hated to think about it, but the other was sure to come across humanity eventually. To be able to have a humanoid form and communicate, it would make it rather. . . Problematic if there was a lack of understanding between him and humanity.

"If you were created to speak to me akin to how you are currently, I would like to think that there is a balance to be had. To be able to protect the ocean, and teach others how to do the same. Surely, someone such as yourself would know best as to how, correct?"

"...If I were to learn such things....would I...feel more obligated to spend time around humans and....less time on my duty to the Ocean? I....fear that. My duty is the entire reason for my existence. If I no longer wished to do it then--"

His entire reason for existing no longer mattered.

He wasn't sure who had created him, only that it was for that one purpose, and for all he knew if he defied that purpose he might be killed.

It was a dangerous gamble, but it was just that--a gamble. He hadn't heard hide or hair from whomever created him since the moment he hatched from the egg and heard the voice in his head telling him to protect the Ocean and it's creatures. For all he knew, his creator had abandoned him.

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"It's no problem, really." She's had to get used to being patient and waiting for others over time, so this wasn't anything unusual. The goddess had always been very good at making sure she was near those she was with, as she had once been so anxiety-ridden about being anywhere without those she knew. She kept those instincts, but only really used them when it was needed anymore.

The girl was glad she kept those instincts. "I'll only ever be a couple steps ahead of you. You're always welcome to grab onto me so that you don't lose me if anyone decides to be rude and try to block you off." She knew it was an occasional thing that could happen, and didn't want to risk it here if she could help it.

"Really? Thank you!" Oh, she sincerely hoped her new friend didn't run off and leave her by herself. That would be an absolute nightmare after all of this...especially if it was in a crowd. She didn't usually have panic attacks anymore, but she might from the shock of being abandoned in a crowded place if it happened so suddenly--

Wouldn't that be embarrassing?

Did she need a minute? She took a deep breath and then reached up to pat her own cheeks, puffing them out in a determined way. All it really made her look like was a hamster though. "I think...if you give me too much time, I might chicken out. Let's just go." She stood, put her phone in her pocket, and tried to decide where to explore next.

"Um....lead the way...maybe?" She laughed nervously. "I'll follow you."

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