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xiaosmi · 7 years ago

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We have to say goodbye

Pairing: Taehyung x Reader

Genre: slight smut, fluff

Plot: you and Taehyung live far away from each other. It all began with one instagram direct message. You both started to fall in love with each other really quick and you meet regularly (every 2 or 3 months) because he lives on the other side of South Korea. Now you‘re laying in bed and it‘s the last day. The day you have to say goodbye for 3 months.

Warning: if you‘re uncomfortable with sexual content and explicit language, please don‘t read further.

It was cold outside, autumn, to be clear. I wanted to get up, but I just couldn‘t. The first thing I heard wasn‘t the raindrops crashing down on the window, it was his heartbeat. Regularly and calm. With every time he takes a breath, it gets faster and when he breaths out, it get‘s calm again. Still, a rhythm. I tried to only live in this moment and closed my eyes again, carefully listening to every sound that fills my room. His breath, his heartbeat, the wooden shelve that makes cracking noises sometimes, the little snoozing he does. I was just sucking in every little thing, the moment itself. I wanted to make a memory out of it, a memory, I can remember when I end up crying on my bed.

Suddenly I feel something moving and it landed on my head. His big hand, running down my scalp slowly and grabbing my hair gently. A grin formed my mouth and a sigh left it, enjoying it too much. I don‘t know why but I only let him touch my hair in this way. How he strokes it so soft, giving me shivers down my spine. Usually I don‘t let people play with my hair.

„Morning, princess“ his husky low voice spoke and there we go, the second round of getting goosebumps began. I lifted my head slightly, to get greeted by my boyfriend, who grins at me and kisses my forehead. I didn‘t want to be the one who was up since a few minutes already, so I acted like he woke me up. „Morning“ I yawned back and snuggled myself back into his chest. „For how long have you been laying like this stalking me while sleeping?“ shit. „Huh? I just woke up, what are you talking about“

His eyes got tinier and a smirk was on his lips. „Ah, you‘re very cute when you‘re lying, y/n.“

I giggled and my heart started to beat faster than before as I looked right into his eyes. But before I could even say anything, he lifted himself up and hovered above me. Another giggle escaped my lips. But this time, his laugh flew away like a butterfly from a tree. „Hey, what‘s wrong?“ I asked with a worrying tone in my voice. Taehyung is always so happy, so funny and cheers me up every time I feel bad or even cry. I know that he‘s there for me, even if he has maybe bigger problems. I sometimes have to squish every little detail out of him because he‘s hiding his feelings.

„I don‘t want to“

Usually I would‘ve asked what he means, but I knew exactly what he wanted to say. This day was the day we had to say goodbye and we don‘t even know when we‘re going to see each other again. My boyfriend can‘t go home and be there in ten minutes, no. He has to take the train for 5 hours. It wasn‘t easy, of course. But I always say that love doesn‘t know distance. „Hey“ I whispered and laid my hand on his cheek, wich he snuggled into. „Don‘t think of it now, we still have this day before you have to go. Let‘s just enjoy that, okay?“ I tried to cheer him up like he does it with me. But I don‘t think I‘m very good in it to be honest, because he doesn‘t look happy. But I can‘t take amiss on him because I can understand it too well. I‘m just better in hiding my feelings when it comes to out relationship. „Right“ he sighed and lowered his head to peck my forehead, “I think I have an idea”. I closed my eyes and felt his hot breath crashing on my skin, getting lower on my face, till he reached my mouth. This is the moment where my heart jumped out of my chest, even when I kissed him like a hundred times. Every time his lips connect with mine, I feel butterflies flattering around in my stomach.

I joined his circling movements and a breathy sigh escaped my lips. I could feel the smirk on Taehyungs face and he began to get rougher on me since he recognized I liked it. He spread my legs and held one up with his hand, rubbing my thigh with his thumb. Another sigh, but this time heavier, left my mouth. „Mhm“ he groaned, which turned me even more on. „I see, someone‘s enjoying it already and I haven‘t even begun“ he said while kissing and licking my neck gently. This was a weak point of mine, because my neck is very sensitive. I didn‘t say anything, because I din‘t want to give him the satisfaction, so I just bit my lip and ran my fingers down on his chest and belly. When he recognized my movement, he grabbed my hand and pinned it down next to my head. „Let me do that“ he said and hovered down my body, spreading kisses all over it. Every time his lips touched my body, it felt like I‘m going to explode any moment. And the fact that he didn’t stop made it all worse. A breathy moan escaped my already sobbing lips, but I instantly regretted it the moment I felt him slapping my right buttcheek. “Fuck” I let out and bit my lip, looking down at hm. “Don’t make a noise, you got it?” he asked and I just nodded, but he frowned at me and repeated in a harsh tone is his voice “did you get that.“

To be honest, I was a very strong person and I didn‘t like it when someone tried to dominate me, but this was something completely different. I had an one night stand once, with someone who I didn‘t know. There was no such thing like love in game, and I didn‘t know that love was basically adding more to it. It was a different feeling. I just had Sex with the guy and left. But Taehyung and I share love with each other, knowing we‘re the only one who see us so bare, nude. But I snatched out of my mind, when I felt his hot tongue just hovering over my clit, wich made me moan but held it in by covering it with my mouth. I saw down and Taehyung just smirked, grabbing my thigh roughly. My head fell back into the soft sheets again and just when I got used to the pleasure, he came up again. But he didn‘t do anything. „Are you serious?“ I asked, thinking that he‘d stop. „Teasing me till I‘m fucking sobbing and then you-" but in the moment I felt his tip in front of my entrance, somehow he managed it to get rid of his boxers while I was rambling. Before I could say anything, he just rammed me and looked down, sighing in pleasure. And I joined him with a moan, wich made his dick twitch inside of me. „You‘re so tight, fuck“ he groaned, looking up at me again. I also looked into his eyes, with pure lust and love. I smiled slightly and kissed his soft, rosy lips, moaned under him while he moved his hips back and forth.

„That was the best morning I‘ve ever had“ he giggled and got his shirt and pants again. It was a weird feeling. The feeling when you realize, that you‘re doing it for the last time. I had Sex for the last time in the morning and now I‘m making breakfast for the last time. Everything I‘m doing today is the last time. Usually I‘d cry now, but thatd destroy everything, so I just carried on.

I finished breakfast and served it. Right when I was placing the plate full with bacon and eggs on the table in front of him, Taehyung grabbed my hand and stopped me from getting up again. It made me look at him in confusion. „Are you okay?“ he asked and I didn‘t know how to answer. I guess, yes? Or no? Maybe? My mind was just a piece of mud right now. I was happy that we‘re spending time together, but it was hard to think about the fact, that all of this will be a memory by tomorrow evening. I wanted to say yes, but I also wanted to be honest with him. So I just answered „yeah look.. I don‘t know.“ Taehyungs eyes went soft and caring. I swear to god, he could make me do everything for him with that look. „Baby, you told me not to worry about it earlier and now I have to tell you the same?“ and with one smooth move, he got me sitting on his lap and wrapped an arm around me. „I know“, I said, „but it‘ll never get easier.“ And it was true. It doesn‘t matter how long you‘ve been together with somebody and how well you know and accept the fact that you have to leave, it‘s always the same pain that hits me hard when I see him getting in the train. It isn‘t just the leaving, that made me sick. The day he leaves is sad itself, but when he‘s away and I‘m walking home from the train station and come to rest in my bed. When I start to think about it, then it‘s gettin worse. „I know“ he replied and caressed my cheek with his thumb. „Let‘s just eat, okay?“

So we did. We ate and finished, then we had decide what we‘re doing today. I plopped onto the couch and sighed. „So, how about a picknick in the park? At the lake?“ I always was the type for quiet places when it comes to dates or that stuff. Somwhere I can get my mind off and enjoy the quiet. „Sounds good. But cinema is also an idea“ he answered and ate an apple while leaning against the eating table. „Hmmm“ I really wanted to go to the lake. Somehow I managed it to get trough his stubnorness and we really went there and had a really great evening together. But still, the day after won‘t leave my mind. That‘s the thing about distance relationships.

Later, we were back at my apartment. We watched a movie at 2 AM, to spend the mist amount of time together possible. We it all had to end and I realized it, when I woke up in the next morning. It was something in the air, kind of like a pressure laying on both of our chests. The whole day, we spend packing his stuff and we didn‘t say much, till we got to the train station. We were waiting on his trail and there we was it, the moment we had to say goodbye. „Y/N“ he said, cupping my face in his big, warm hands. I already recognized how his voice started to crack. And when he’s crying, I’m crying too. „Taehyung, no“ I almost whined, placing one hand of mine on his, shaking my head. I looked at him, his eyes already watering up. „I can‘t“ he whispered, getting closer to my face. „I can‘t do this, I want to stay by your side“ and his forehead leaned against mine. My throat was so thick, it felt like something was stuck in it. I couldn’t say anything. „Y/N, when are we going to see us again?“ he asked and it made me even more sad to think about it. „I don‘t know“ „I knew you‘d say that“. This last sentence made me water up too. „Oh no baby, not you too“ but him, begging for me to stop, made me cry. Taehyung pushed my face into his chest and I hugged him really tight. Like I did yesterday morning, I sucked in every piece of sound and feeling I could get. Then he kissed my head. „I‘m so sorry.“

There was literally nothing he had to be sorry for, but I didn‘t say anything because he does this every time.

The train arrived. „Fuck fuck“ I heard him say, hugging me tight the last time before making me look up into his face. I saw the train behind him, the the squealing brakes. But now I focused on his face, his chocolate sweet brown eyes. „I love you. I love you so much, please remember that“ he said and bit his lip to control his sobs. But the sadness in his eyes, the tears rolling down his beautifully shaped face.. all of this made me cry even more. We were pushing it too far. „I love you too, Taehyung. I won‘t forget.“

The train stopped and in this moment, I felt his lips crushing onto mine. I immediately kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck. It was so intense, that I felt so many thinga at the same time, I don‘t know how to describe a feeling like this. „I love you“ he repeated after every little kiss he gave me, but then he had to enter the train. „Let go of me, please“ I whined and kissed him the last time. He nodded and made a little distance between us. „Y/N“

It ached my heart so much. Hearing him saying my name like that broke my heart into a million pieces and it shattered two million times on the floor. „Taehyung, go“

When he turned around the last time, already in the entrance of the train, he looked at me with tears still rolling down his cheek, mouthing the words „I love you Y/N“

„I love you too“

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