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finished the first draft of my thesis yesterday (finally, thank god) and i'm trying to get back to finishing ltoss right now but my brain is so cooked that i can't tell if what i came up with is garbage or not. will revisit tomorrow to see how badly the section i wrote needs to be reworked...

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ilooooove the way you write bottom isagi or rinsagi in general its such a breath of fresh air especially when somany rinsagi fics is the equivalent of that one yaoi template where one is small round n cute and the other is big sharp and alpha… but ur fics r so peak please writemoreee rinsagi

took me forever to get to this ask because of academic work but thank you so much!!

i know exactly the meme you're talking about and honestly i don't knock other people's preferences but personally the appeal of rinsagi is that they are both unhinged. it might be a matter of whether rinsagi fans are anime watchers or manga readers because i am caught up on the manga and one of my favorite things is how they both enter this death spiral where they don't hate each other but they are quite literally willing to murder each other in cold blood to get ahead.

but at the same time, there's this mutual understanding that they need to feed off of each other to improve—what do you call that realization that you desperately want to crush someone and aren't able to? obsession? love? lust? equality? being seen for who you really are and refusing to throw that away?

that weird little truce is my favorite quirk about their relationship and i hope it translates to my writing!

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Gotta say I used to extensively comment on fics and not just a few words but did some fairly long detailed comments on what I liked but recently I started to get less and less replies on them despite authors (relatively popular ones) sometimes replying to others. And while I understand that author doesn’t owe me anything it did quite demotivate me from leaving as much comments. Why bother if nobody cares in the first place? I know its an unhelpful mindset but I can’t shake it. Any advices?

hi!

as an author who likes to comment on others' works but is notoriously bad at replying to comments I receive on my own works, I can guarantee that 99.99% of writers read the comments they receive and, even if they don't reply back, they love and appreciate your kind words more than you know. I know this may sound cliche and all, but I can wholeheartedly say this because it's true for me, as an author.

yes, I admit that I don't always reply to comments I receive, but it's not because I don't appreciate or care about them. I read them, mostly several times each, I screenshot them and save them in a special folder so I can always come back and read them again. there are just so many kind comments I receive that make me smile to myself for minutes even though I don't reply back. some of them actually make me shed a few tears of joy.

thing is when us authors don't reply to comments we receive, it's mostly because;

we don't know how best to respond that will let the commenters know how much we appreciate them. because if the comments are several paragraph long (we LOVE that!), and we only reply with "thank you so much", then it sounds too short for us. (I know this because I sometimes spend so long thinking about how best to respond that will let my commenters know how much I appreciate them that I sometimes end up don't respond back.)

sometimes we are overwhelmed by several comments from several readers, and responding to all of them are too overwhelming. but we read, love and appreciate each and every single one of them very dearly.

sometimes we reply to some comments and not the others, because maybe we have little free time where we can only reply to some people, or maybe there's something about some specific comments that makes us respond back. but this does not mean we don't care about comments we don't reply back.

sometimes we're simply exhausted from stuff in our lives and replying to comments take time and energy, depends on how long the comments are / how long we want our responses to be / how many comments we receive, etc

writing is hard, but sometimes finding the right words to reply back to comments can be even harder, especially when we want to write several paragraph responses back just to let them know how much we appreciate them. and unfortunately sometimes us writers just don't have enough energy left.

but rest assured that, even if we don't reply, we love and appreciate every kind comment we receive very, very much, and they help motivate us to keep writing.

when I comment on my fellow writers' works and don't get any response back, I know why (for the reasons listed above), and that's totally okay for me because I don't comment on their works just for them to thank me, I do it because I want them to know how I love and appreciate their works, and I believe they do know. and that's really all that matters for me.

so if your favorite authors don't reply to you, please don't think that it's because they "don't care" or that your comments "don't matter" to them.

I mean, of course, I can see why not getting a response back can be discouraging, especially when commenting on writers' works are so encouraged, but as a fellow commenter (yes, I'm an author and also a commenter of fics I love), I always think of it this way; fanfics are gifts we receive for free, we comment on writers' works as a way to thank them for giving us cool fics to read. we don't expect them to thank us back because they've already given us this lovely gift. we comment only because we want to let them know we love their fics. and they know.

your comments could now be saved in your favorite authors' folders and re-read by them over and over again, even if they didn't respond back. they could be smiling to themselves reading your thoughts on their works. who knows? their next 100k word fic could be motivated by you.

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loving the idea of a rinsagi spiderverse au... isagi has the most intense and sensitive spideysense ever and rin is a much better fighter which makes them a great duo even though rin doesn't want to admit it. the homoeroticism of fighting crime with a partner...

they probably don't know each other's actual identities outside of work and isagi gets really strong tingles when they unknowingly brush past each other once a month or so. isagi admires rin for his strength and rin (begrudgingly) likes isagi's corny one liners.

their first kiss is on the roof of the tokyo skytree—through the mask first, and then they both just shove it up enough to get it out of the way while still keeping their identities protected. rin goes home and accidentally punches a hole in his wall because he forgot to control his strength lmfao

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kunigiri is such a beautiful doomed romance i hope kaneshiro doesn't forget about both of them in the upcoming blue lock arc...i can smell blood in the water regarding chigiri's knee though so we'll have to wait and see

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interlude: nobody's watching

leave the other stories standing chapter 5/7 out now!

rating: explicit | rinsagi (itoshi rin/isagi yoichi) | no blue lock, slow burn, falling in love, trans isagi yoichi, non-linear narrative (timeskip), getting married

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Rin wipes the sleep from his eyes and looks at it, trying not to be annoyed that Yoichi hadn’t kissed him good morning on the day of their fucking wedding. The photo that Yoichi holds in front of his face is of them leaving the Tom Ford store two days ago, and Yoichi is right: it’s horrible quality. 

Groggily, Rin asks, “What happened to ‘good morning?’”

“Oh, yeah, that too.” He offers a halfway smile.

read here!

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someone just commented "actual peak" on one of my ao3 fics and for some reason that's the best compliment i've ever gotten

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rinsagi meeting ※248 spoiler

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hii if you’re still taking requests, tabiori please :)

theyre getting ready for nagis funeral i dont know

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currently writing a bottom!rin fic called attitude adjustment and that attitude is getting adjusted alright

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working on chapter 6 of leave all the stories standing today and i finally got over my second biggest writing block in this chapter so i'm really excited to see if i can get it finished by sunday!

side note i talk about in a lot of my author's notes, but i hate that every time i get on a roll with writing all of the classes i'm taking to get my masters degree come and slap the fuck out of me with absurd assignments. it's writing too because i'm in a history program too so i have no energy to write for my passion projects like this fic once i get all of my work out of the way :/ hopefully i score a research job this summer that lets me have a little more free time to write gay nonsense because i have tons of rinsagi summer romance ideas and absolutely no time to get them out of my system right now

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I just want to make him worse

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today's fic idea is about a meet cute (or meet ugly?) between student body president rin and football captain isagi. i love a good strangers to lovers, love at first sight, very bad flirting because they're both idiots story.

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extra bonus points if rin has an entire sexuality crisis as a result of this arrangement

thinking about a rinsagi summer au where rin gets exiled to some tiny coastal town for a few months and is super miserable because he can't swim. eventually he starts having a complex about it and convinces isagi, the pool boy at his house, to teach him how

bonus points if rin's already a semi-professional football player everyone in the town lives under a rock regarding his popularity so when isagi finds out he makes it a huge deal which embarrasses the living shit out of rin, because of course he just so happens to love japanese football

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thinking about a rinsagi summer au where rin gets exiled to some tiny coastal town for a few months and is super miserable because he can't swim. eventually he starts having a complex about it and convinces isagi, the pool boy at his house, to teach him how

bonus points if rin's already a semi-professional football player everyone in the town lives under a rock regarding his popularity so when isagi finds out he makes it a huge deal which embarrasses the living shit out of rin, because of course he just so happens to love japanese football

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now 43k :)

i'm kind of on a roll this year re: fic writing and i love it. so far i've published 38k words this year compared to 8k (all of 2024) and 10k (all of 2023) and it's only april! and i somehow have another 5k ready to be published tomorrow???

maybe ridiculous amounts of reading for my thesis is training my brain to become a more intense writer?