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posted this on bluesky but it's goin on here too

an unfortunate and very contemporary phenomenon is that of the transmasc content creator, often a vtuber, forced to compromise with a tepid "any/all pronouns" or remove any mention of it whatsoever, to see regular success without being bogged down by people unwilling to learn.

while it's true that transfems experience the same sort of constant assault on identity, the transmasc experience is unique in that there is a fundamental dismissal of it in the minds of bigots. the idea that because they were born one way, they cannot be a threat, only misled. bigots (and most well-meaning people honestly) just ignore them before they think to destroy them.

to appease the algorithm, and to maintain viewership, the quiet redaction of pronouns from public profiles, and the acceptance of androgyny as to keep anyone who "isnt comfy" using your preferred ones placated enough to watch ad breaks so you can pay your electric bill this month, is often obligate.

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Here's two verses worth of rap in 5/8

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wrote a song about how i much i hate executives of media companies

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here's a song about how you shouldn't trust celebrities, including me.

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have you ever played the ratatouille game? like just in general. doesn’t have to be on stream.

so rat on ball ball ball rat on ball ball ball rat on ball ball ball

HOW TO TIGHTROOOPPPEEE

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recently a really cool musician sent me a bunch of their unreleased stuff to use as i please, and this short loop really caught my ear, so i wrote 20 seconds of a really mean sounding song!

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Teeth weak as fuck why can't you be like bones

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what are your biggest konks?

bindage

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cool new pants + long sleeve shirts

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CAN YOU SEE WALL OF ME

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I've been grunklepilled.

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how are you holding up?

the vibes have been pretty dismal today! but i mean what would you expect given the outcome haha.

i’m hanging in there though. i’ve had my anxiety spells. the heart racing. the moments where i just let myself cry a bit. but i’ve been doing everything i can to not turn it into a wallow. it’s tough, i’m definitely doing worse than i would be had things gone right, but i managed to get up and do at least some semblance of my job and provide a nice bit of respite for people also going through it. i consider that a win.

so the plan is to take it one day at a time. i did good today. gonna try to do good tomorrow. rinse. repeat. simple as. 4 years can be a long time for things to be getting worse, that much is true. but even when they were getting worse the last time, a lot of stuff also got better if i looked in the right places. and thankfully the world is really big, so there’s always another place to look.

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how are you holding up?

the vibes have been pretty dismal today! but i mean what would you expect given the outcome haha.

i’m hanging in there though. i’ve had my anxiety spells. the heart racing. the moments where i just let myself cry a bit. but i’ve been doing everything i can to not turn it into a wallow. it’s tough, i’m definitely doing worse than i would be had things gone right, but i managed to get up and do at least some semblance of my job and provide a nice bit of respite for people also going through it. i consider that a win.

so the plan is to take it one day at a time. i did good today. gonna try to do good tomorrow. rinse. repeat. simple as. 4 years can be a long time for things to be getting worse, that much is true. but even when they were getting worse the last time, a lot of stuff also got better if i looked in the right places. and thankfully the world is really big, so there’s always another place to look.

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raidcore

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wip comic based off a tumblr post i saw the other day